Parnell remained unmoving for a long time after replacing – gently, holding back from slamming down – the receiver. It would be very easy to become paranoid: do something – behave somehow – to draw more attention to himself than he appeared already to have done. Maybe he was expected to, he thought, and at once recognized that that was paranoid. But why? Why in God’s name was all this idiocy happening? Could it actually be psychological, trying to fit him into a convenient mental mould, another in the obedient flock? Why not go with the flow – very definitely not join the herd, but just as definitely not emerge the maverick – until he worked out the silly process in which he’d become embroiled, exasperating though the distraction was.
Parnell asked for and immediately got a temporary secretary, a matronly, grey-haired woman from the pool, and replied to all the applications so far, staggering his interviews over the following week, which gave him the intervening weekend fully to go through the geneticists’ submissions, all of which looked impressive. While his responses were being typed, he referenced the three applicants on the Internet and discovered two had submitted papers to scientific journals. He printed off both. One was on the possible application of genetics to the treatment of hepatitis B, the other to the prevalence of genetic inheritance of Down’s Syndrome. He judged both to be sound – certainly indicating a strong basic genetic knowledge – but lacking any substantive rethinking.
Both the secretarial replies, one from a medical secretary at Johns Hopkins, the other from the George Washington Hospital, listed DC addresses, and Parnell arranged appointments for the following day.
Parnell considered calling Rebecca on her internal extension but decided against it. He decided, too, against eating in the commissary, going instead for the first time to the staff health centre. The gymnasium had every piece of equipment he’d ever seen, anywhere, and some weight-training apparatus he hadn’t. There was a bank of rowing machines, three in use, far superior to any upon which he’d ever trained. Parnell counted five logo-identified personal trainers, all working with individual clients. The sauna and steam room matched the Olympic-proportioned swimming pool and Parnell thought it would be easy – and good – getting back to the rowing fitness he’d once known but let lapse for far too long. When he returned to his office all his mail was immaculately prepared for signature and there was an email from Rebecca thanking him for the previous evening. It was still only two thirty but Parnell set out to be early, not late, wondering how Barbara Spacey would assess that psychologically.
She was a large, neglected woman who could have shed at least 20 lb in the sports centre he’d just left without it even showing. The straggly hair had deposited a snowfall of dandruff over a hand-knitted cardigan with odd buttons, two of which were missing, and the ashtray on her desk was mountained with butts, although she wasn’t smoking when he entered. She sat in front of, not behind, her desk, so there would be no separation between them. His positioned chair was just a little over a metre from hers, in a direct line.
She smiled briefly, showing nicotine-yellowed teeth. ‘I was warned you might be late.’ She had a hoarse smoker’s voice, too.
‘I got through earlier than I expected.’
‘You think this is going to be a waste of time, just bullshit?’
Parnell didn’t think he showed surprise at the abruptness of the question. ‘Isn’t that for you to decide?’
‘Isn’t that your avoiding the question?’
‘I understand it’s a common employment process, although, as I am already employed, it seems a little out of sequence. I haven’t undergone the process before, so I’ve no criteria to judge if it’s worthwhile or not. So, it really is for you to decide.’
‘You smoke?’
‘No.’
‘Do you mind if I do?’
‘No.’
‘I shouldn’t, of course. There’s a strict non-smoking policy within the building’ She lit her cigarette from a battered Zippo.
Parnell shrugged, unsure if there was a point to the admission.
‘What about you, Richard?’
‘What about me?’ He frowned.
‘You buck the system? Get impatient with rules and regulations you can’t see the purpose of?’
So there was a point. ‘Sometimes.’
‘What about here? You found things you don’t see the purpose of here?’
Parnell wished he wasn’t so close to the cigarette smoke. ‘I haven’t been here long enough.’ It was becoming an escape cliche, he recognized.
‘You were quite a presence at the seminar.’
There was very definitely an intention behind this belated interview. Uncaring of the impatience, he said: ‘It wasn’t intended as any sort of statement. I simply didn’t know.’
‘You’d have conformed if you had known?’
‘Certainly to have avoided all the nonsense that’s followed.’
‘No one told you?’
Parnell sighed. ‘No, no one told me.’
‘You resent that?’
‘I think it was childish and therefore totally irrelevant.’
‘So, you did resent it?’
‘Something else for you to judge.’ It seemed more like-cross-examination from a courtroom soap opera than what he’d expected a psychological assessment to be.
‘How you liking America?’
‘Very much.’
‘No homesickness, adjustment difficulties?’
Parnell snorted a laugh. ‘No homesickness, no adjustment difficulties.’
‘No overhanging relationships then?’
‘No.’
‘You’re not married?’
‘No.’ He nodded sideways to her desk. ‘It says I’m not on my personnel file there.’
Barbara Spacey gave no response. ‘Divorced?’
‘No. It says that on the personnel file, too.’
‘Children?’
‘No. Also in the file.’
‘Parents alive?’
‘My mother.’
‘What about your father?’
‘I never knew a father. Whoever he was, he left my mother unmarried when she became pregnant.’
‘You hate him for doing that, walking out on her?’
‘No.’
The psychologist used the act of stubbing out her cigarette to cover the doubtful pause. ‘I find that hard to believe. Makes her pregnant and then turns his back on his responsibility?’
‘Wasn’t that better than doing his duty and spending the rest of their lives unhappy or later going through the trauma of a divorce?’
‘They might have become happy, in time.’
‘That’s hypothetical.’
‘What about your mother? You despise her for becoming pregnant?’
‘That’s an absurd question!’ erupted Parnell, discarding the determination not to lose his temper. ‘ She didn’t abandon me. She worked her way through college, qualified as a lawyer, took me through school and college. I love her. Admire her. She’s a fantastic woman.’
‘So, you despise me for asking an absurd question?’
‘Yes,’ answered Parnell. Fuck you, he thought.
‘How would you feel about a word-association test? You know, day-night, black-white? The first word that enters your head…’ She clicked her stained fingers. ‘Quick as that.’
‘I’ve never played one before. But if you want to, let’s do it.’
‘To get it over with?’
She was very definitely goading him. ‘You’ve allocated all afternoon to me. So, we’re in no hurry, are we?’
‘Night?’ she suddenly demanded.
‘Black,’ he said at once, not caught out.
‘Sea?’
‘Boat.’
‘Woman?’
‘Mother.’
‘God?’
‘Philosophy.’
‘War?’
‘Death.’
‘Medicine?’
‘Cure.’
‘Disease?’
‘Pestilence.’
‘King?’
‘Exalted.’
‘President?’
Parnell hesitated. ‘America.’
‘Tyranny?’
‘Overthrow.’
‘Sermon?’
‘Speech.’
‘Church?’
‘House.’
‘Choir?’
‘Song.’
‘Failure?’