I swung my arm as hard as I could, connecting with the window of the Taurus and sending a spray of glass scattering through the cabin. I winced in anticipation of an alarm — one of the most horrid inventions of the modern age, as far as I'm concerned — but there was none. I popped open the door from the inside, and snatched the duffel bag from the back seat with my unbound hand. Very slick little smash-and-grab, I thought — smooth and professional.
That's when I fell down.
We were at the far end of the parking lot from the mess we'd left behind, obscured from view of the first responders by the rambling hodge-podge buildings of the medical center itself. We'd hovered at a distance long enough to watch them intubate Anders and wheel him into the ER, and then we split. They worked quickly on him, swarming like bees on a hive. I took that to be a good sign — it meant they thought they had a chance of saving him. I hoped to God they could — I'd seen enough death for one day, and damned or not, my conscience couldn't take another.
Our driver was another story. She came to just as we'd left the scene, and her injuries appeared minor. After what she'd experienced, I was reasonably sure she wouldn't roll on us, but I couldn't swear to it. Besides, our new cop friend had his hands full explaining just what in hell went down, and when they realized his story didn't add up, you'd better believe they were gonna fan out and check the area. I didn't plan to be there when they did.
All of which sounded nice, but there was a catch, in the form of a throbbing knife wound in my thigh. Truth is, I could barely support my own weight, and I'd lost enough blood that I was feeling pretty woozy. If I couldn't stanch the flow of blood, the whole fleeing thing was kind of out of the question. Which brought me to the car.
Now, I'll admit, hightailing it to the ass-end of the campus on a skewered leg doesn't sound like the brightest of ideas, but I had my reasons. I'm sure I could've found what I was looking for a little more close by, in one of the Beemers, Land Rovers, and Audis that populated the doctors' spaces. Problem was, they were a little too visible for my taste, located close to major entrances as they were, and you can be damn sure they'd have alarms. So I had to settle for something a little more working-class, in a nice, little out-of-the way section of the lot that looked to be reserved for support staff — nurses and the like — with nary a Mercedes in sight.
When I collapsed to the pavement, Kate rushed to my side, a cry of alarm escaping her lips.
"Damn it, Kate, you've got to keep quiet!"
She shot me a look that would have stopped a charging bull. "This from the guy who just busted in a car window. Damn thing sounded like a gunshot. What in the hell are you looking for, anyway?"
I nodded toward the bag at my side. "The gym bag," I said. "Open it."
She did as I asked. Inside was a set of women's gym clothes — sports bra, T-shirt, shorts, sneakers — as well as a set of street clothes and a towel. I snatched at the latter and missed.
Kate frowned and pressed the towel into my hand. I held it tight to my bleeding thigh, clenching my eyes tight against the pain. "Sam, you're not looking so hot."
"I'm not feeling so hot," I replied, shivering from cold and blood loss both. "Now hand me that belt."
She did, and I wrapped it around the towel, cinching it down until it hurt too much to keep going. There wasn't a hole that small on the belt, so I had to force the tine through the leather to get it to stay, but it'd do the trick.
Next, with Kate's help, I slid on the gym shirt. Lime green, and emblazoned with a faded silkscreen for a charity 10K, it was both hideous and two sizes too small for Flynn's muscular frame, but still worlds less conspicuous than the blood-soaked undershirt I'd just removed.
"There," I said, "now help me up."
"This is nuts — you need to rest."
"Look, what went down back there was certain to attract some serious attention, and sooner or later, the cops are gonna talk to somebody who saw us leave. When that happens, they're gonna start looking for us, and we can't be here when they do. If they arrest us, you're as good as dead. I am not going to let that happen."
"Then let's take this thing," she said, eyeing the Taurus. "You got that piece of shit van started; you could get this going, too — right?"
I shook my head. "I'm in no shape to drive."
"Then let me. You could ride shotgun and rest up while I get us out of here."
"Do you even drive?"
"I've got my learner's permit," she replied, defiant and sheepish in equal measure.
Learner's permit. Jesus. "Kate, you saw how bad shit got back there once Bishop caught our scent. I'm not going to run the risk of having you behind the wheel when he catches up to us again. It's just too dangerous," I said, realizing as the words came out of my mouth how unintentionally parental they sounded. "We've just got to find someplace safe and hole up a while until things cool down," I added.
She fell silent a moment, and made no move to help me up. "Sam, can I ask you something?"
I rested my head on the side of the Taurus, and closed my eyes. "Sure, kid. Ask away."
"Back there, when Bishop was coming after us, he jumped from the cop to the woman, right? I mean, just like that," she said, snapping her fingers.
"Yeah? And?"
"Well, look at you. You look like shit. Why not just leave this guy here and hitch another ride?"
"Kate, I can't. He might tell them where we're going, and then we're fucked."
"But you don't even know where we're going — how the hell could he? Besides, that cop Bishop ditched back there, he knew the score, and I'm betting with all he's seen, this guy'd be no different. So why, then? Why, when this guy's doing nothing but hold us up?"
I sighed. "It's complicated, Kate."
"Yeah? Well, we need to get out of here fast, so uncomplicate it quick."
If I could have gotten to my feet then, I would have. If I could have lied, or deflected, or thought of anything that might've gotten us out of there without having this discussion, I would have. Truth was, I just didn't have the energy. I was out of fight, and she knew it.
Some protector I was.
"Kate, when we met… that vessel was not like this one. He was different."
"Different? Different how?"
"Well, for starters, he was dead."
"Dead? I don't understand."
"You understand fine. See, most of my kind, they possess the living — after all, they're plentiful enough, and they can get you wherever you need to go. Chasing down a prisoner? Just hop a ride in a guard, or better yet a cellmate. Paranoid lunatic holed up in a bunker? If he's got himself a hostage, you're good to go. The problem is, the living are noisy. They're gonna claw and scratch and fight to regain control; it takes a while and no small amount of effort to get them to quiet down. That eventual subjugation doesn't come without a cost. It chips away at whatever it is that makes us human, and forces us to act as a demon would act — to cast aside our empathy, our humanity, and treat them as nothing but a nameless other to be used and discarded. A means to an end. Every time we take a living vessel, we lose touch of who we are. And with each vessel we discard, we leave a little bit of what makes us who we are behind."
"But if you only possess the dead, you get to stay human?"
I shook my head. "Kate, you don't understand. There is no getting to stay anything. See, the folks who end up like me, there's always a reason. Maybe in life they stripped someone of the life that was rightfully theirs — by murder or betrayal or whatever — and it ate them up inside. Maybe they made themselves a bargain, and took what wasn't theirs to take. Problem is, there's always a price. See, fate's sort of a zero-sum game: you take what isn't yours to take, and it's gotta come from somewhere else. Which means, you make yourself a bargain, and you're stealing someone else's luck, someone else's fate."