III
He had a relapse.
After he and Calhoun dragged the massive tent upstairs, and the Reverend hired a wagon to haul it over to The Hotel Montclaire, then hired a fistful of boys to help him carry it up to his room, he saw the woman again.
He had come out of the hotel onto the sidewalk with the boys, and he was paying them each—six bits of course—when he saw the dark-haired woman who looked like his sister crossing the street with the elderly man.
She was holding the man's arm firmly, and she turned and looked in the Reverend's direction.
It was a good distance between them, but it was as if the Reverend could feel the aftereffect tingling of a close-strike lightning bolt. It made his groin ache and-his soul feel bad.
He went upstairs, locked himself in his room, and masturbated to the woman's image.
Then he got back on the whisky.
There was yet another bottle in his saddlebags, and he took it out and resumed his drinking position on the bed. He felt totally unworthy of the second chance God had given him. He had messed it up. Here he was, once again, with the devil juice which he could not handle, and here he was lusting after his sister or a woman who brought her to mind, throbbing his manhood with his hand like a schoolboy. He had the willpower of a rabid dog.
He knew the night would come and with it would come the dreams—the boat down the river of hell with the spider-thing at the end.
There was a knock on the door.
The Reverend was amazed to find that he had thrown the whisky bottle to his left hand and drawn his Navy from his pants as easily as he had drawn his lily out earlier and stroked it until it gave dew.
He rolled over to sit on the edge of the bed.
He put the whisky bottle on the floor, stood, and put the revolver and himself in his pants again.
There was another knock.
"Hold your horses," the Reverend said.
He opened the door.
Looking up at him was David from the livery.
IV
"Don't tell me," the Reverend said. "The price of my horse has gone up another six bits, and I have to supply the currycomb."
David ignored him, sniffed.
"Smells like a drunk's nest in here—and maybe like you been greasing your axle."
"A boy your age should know," the Reverend said, somewhat embarrassed that he had been found out.
"Yeah, but I got an excuse. I'm too young for women."
"What can I do for you?"
"I thought you preachers didn't approve of strong drink."
"I don't, but I drink it anyway. Medicinal purposes.... Something I can do for you, or you just come by to give me a temperance lecture?"
"You don't seem quite as pert and godly as you did yesterday, if you don't mind me saying so, Reverend." David smiled broadly.
"Would you like me to wipe that smile off your face?"
David quit smiling. "No thanks."
"Then for the sake of heaven, get on with it. What do you want, before I die of boredom?"
"That gun you carry. You any good with it?"
"I generally hit what I aim at, even if I throw the gun at it."
"Yeah, you look like a man that could do that—I want a shooting lesson."
The Reverend took hold of the door as if to shut it. "I don't give lessons, boy. Get your pa."
"He don't teach me nothing but hard work."
"Builds character, good day."
"I'd pay you."
"You'd pay me to teach you how to shoot?"
David nodded.
"Why do you want to learn so bad?"
"Something a man ought to know, I reckon. Papa says I ain't much at doing things a man ought to do. Says I'm short of hard work and the ways of a man."
"You're just short, that's all. You're a boy."
"Says I'm like my mama—a dreamer."
"My father said the same thing of me."
"Did he?"
"Among other things."
"Can I quit standing out here in the hallway?"
"I guess."
David came in, and the Reverend closed the door, sat back on the bed. David stood.
The Reverend picked up his whisky and took a swig.
"I wouldn't have figured you for a drunk," David said.
"Appearances are deceiving," the Reverend said, and drank again.
'"You look—I don't know—special. Like you really are the right hand of the Lord—you know?"
"No."
There was an awkward silence.
"Look, I'll give you a shooting lesson," the Reverend said. "Tomorrow morning. But I don't want your money. I want a favor."
"Name it. Anything."
"Slow down. Don't agree to anything until it's been explained to you. You might be sending your head to Old Glory on a one-way ticket without meaning to. Hear me out."
The Reverend nodded at the tent on the floor.
"Got a sermon to do Saturday night. I'll need some boys to put that tent up for me. I hired me some to bring it upstairs, but I didn't like their work. I did most of it, and I sure don't want a bunch of loafers when it's time to put it up."
"I can do that. I know some good workers, I..."
Holding up a hand. "Wait a minute. I also need some boys to pass out a few bills I'm going to have the paper office print up. They'll announce the sermon's time and place.
Can I depend on you to get those passed around and tacked up around town?"
"You can."
"Good. Now run along. I've got a headache."
David nodded. "Reverend—you've probably had enough whisky, don't you think?"
"I'll be the judge of that. Now get out before I bounce you out."
"Yes sir."
"Oh, one other thing. While I'm giving you this shooting lesson, while we're out in the country, I'd like to get you to help me to cut a few poles for the tent." The Reverend stood. "And here, take some money and rent us a wagon from your pa. Tell him I'm hiring you for some work. He'll like that. Make him feel good to know you're out there sweating."
"Let's see," David said. "Cut some poles, put up a tent, pass some bills out, and rent a wagon—want me to just go on and preach your sermon for you, Reverend?"
"Very funny. A regular Eddie Foy. Now go."
David went.
The Reverend closed the door, sat down on the bed again, and picked up the whisky bottle. It was halfway to his lips when he thought of something David had said. "You look—I don't know—special. Like you really are the right hand of the Lord..."
"Damn me," the Reverend said, and stood up.
Carrying the bottle with him, he walked over to the window and looked out. He saw David crossing the street, a few pedestrians.
He turned and looked in the mirror. He did not like what he saw. He turned back to the window and poured the whisky out of it, then using his gun butt, he broke the bottle and tossed it in the trash box.
Returning to the mirror he examined himself again. He didn't like what he saw any better, but he had made a decision. No more whisky to bind him like chains. He would do God's bidding. He would be what David had called him: "the right hand of the Lord."
Suddenly, the Reverend slammed a fist into the mirror and shattered it, cutting his hand in the process. He had said and done all this before.
He held the injured hand over the washbasin and looked at his shattered reflection.
Somehow, that looked better to him. 'Tm trying, Lord, I'm trying."
He washed his hands clean in his slow, ritualistic manner, as if ridding himself of some foul slime he could feel and smell but could not see.
And then it came to him. If the dark-haired woman was a test, David had been an aid from the Lord. A dose of strength. He was not lost after all.