“Really,” I murmured.
“Have we met?” she asked abruptly.
“Now why would you ask that? This is my first time here.”
Without answering me, she walked to the kitchen. The layout of her place was the same as mine, the two houses built on identical architectural plans.
I heard the refrigerator open and shut and she came back with two glasses of iced tea and handed me one.
Then she sat on the edge of a big ottoman, sipped her tea a moment, and said, “A long time ago I had an accident. That is what I have been told. I have no memory of it at all, nor anything prior to twenty years ago.”
“Aren’t you interested in finding out any details?”
Bettie shook her head gently. “I’ve been told I have no living relatives.”
“Somebody pays your way here.”
“Yes,” she agreed. “He was the one who... let’s say adopted me after the accident. He’s gone now. Passed away, but he had everything set in motion.”
“There were no inquiries about you, over the years?”
“I understand there were. With the mental state I was in, I couldn’t care less.”
“I’m sorry about that,” I said.
Her head turned and she was looking right into my eyes again. It was as though she had echo location like a porpoise and could zero right in on any sound. I wondered if she could hear me blink.
“The body can compensate for loss,” she murmured. Then, out of the blue, she asked, “Say my name.”
I waited a long moment, took in a deep breath, then quietly said, “Bettie.”
Unlike this young woman, I could see, supposedly. I had been trained to observe and fit pieces together so that any puzzle made sense. I could do all that, but this time I was drawing a blank.
She didn’t draw a blank, though. “Since you first spoke to me this morning your voice has had a familiar sound.”
“Like how?” I asked.
“Like how I know every sound my dog, Tacos, makes. I know what he is trying to tell me. I recognize his mood, his likes and dislikes. He recognizes mine. Somehow I seem to recognize your speech patterns.”
I wanted to blurt it out. I wanted to yell it out loud, but she had a mind that was bent out of shape and I didn’t want to put any further dents in it.
I said, “Well Bettie, I’m just an old New York City cop who might spout a lot of idiomatic language or get into some tough street talk, but I don’t quite follow your drift here.”
There was something very strange about the way she smiled at me. “It will come to me eventually,” she said. “Things always do.”
Her hand reached out, squeezed my wrist and she asked me, “Can you imagine what it’s like, having a new friend?”
I laid my other hand on top of hers and the big dog gave an odd, throaty noise of pleasure.
“Tacos likes you,” she told me.
I let out a pleased grunt too. Then I said, carefully, “This may sound strange but... has anybody ever... tried to attack you?”
A frown creased her forehead while she thought, then shook her head. After a few seconds of further thought, she added, “I’ve never had any trouble with anybody. Everybody in this area knows everybody else. Everybody here looks after me, or tries to — I don’t really need much help.... Why?”
“Well, you’re a lovely doll, Miss Brice.” I tried to excuse my tone with a tight grin before I remembered she couldn’t see it. “I can see why the boys would keep an eye on you.”
“But you said attack.”
“These days,” I said, “the courts can label any type of action an attack. A lot of big-mouth wise guys draw some time for sounding off to unprotected women.”
“Tacos protects me pretty well,” she smiled back. “The only ‘big mouth’ I’ve run into lately was a young guy who made a nasty remark...”
“How young?”
“He wasn’t some old lecher. Since I couldn’t see him I can’t describe him, but his voice told the story. Anyway, he never came by again.”
“What did you say to him?”
“Nothing. I just gave him what I thought was a dirty look, only maybe he couldn’t tell with me in sunglasses.”
I made a small probe. “Mind if ask something?’
“No. We’re friends.”
“Why do you wear them? Sunglasses, I mean. Your eyes are lovely.”
She thought about that. “Sometimes I can feel the sun on my eyes — almost as if the glare is bothering me.”
“Is it?”
Her head turned and she seemed to look in the direction of my mouth. I felt like kissing her.
She said, “I don’t know.”
“Explain.”
“At the end of the day I... I think I can see a red sunset.”
“Oh?”
“The doctors said it was simply a mental reaction. I realized the time of day that it was and expected a red sunset. A sense memory.”
“What did you tell them?”
“I wanted to tell them that they were idiots. I saw something. And it was a sunset. Nothing definitive, but the colors were there. Something bright and beautiful was shining at me.”
“But what did you tell them?” I repeated.
“That I saw a sunset. They made me re-word it to I thought I saw a sunset.”
“When do you see a doctor again?”
“Never, as far as I’m concerned,” she retorted. “I am done with them. I’m blind. All they can say is there is no hope that I’ll ever get my eyesight back. So why should I bother with doctors?”
“You giving up?”
“Nope. I’m just going to make do with the best that I have.”
“And what is that?”
She thought about that, patting Taco’s head until he rubbed his big muzzle against her leg, then she said softly, “I don’t remember my past, so my present is always like living in a paper sack, and the future is all blank space.”
“That’s what you think?”
“Come on, neighbor Jack, what kind of future would I have if I hadn’t had a benefactor like my old veterinarian?” She gave me a sudden big smile and added, “How old are you, Jack?”
“I’ll never see fifty again.”
“I’m almost forty-three.”
“You’re a kid,” I said. “An infant, in this place.”
And it was as if something had stabbed her. Her head jerked in my direction and my eyes were suddenly locked into the black lenses shielding her sightless ones and a shudder touched her shoulders.
Then she took a deep breath and released what she was thinking. “What did you say?”
“I said you were a kid.”
There was a tautness to her expression, and her eyes seemed to search for me, then whatever she was looking for disappeared from her mental image and she whispered, “Strange.”
“What is?”
“Being called a kid,” she told me. “Why would I remember that?”
And then I remembered it. I used to call her “kid.” I’d hold her tight and kiss her, tasting all the sweetness that she had and we’d talk about what we’d do when she grew up.
No way would I have recounted any of those conversations to the guys at the station house. Career cops are funny people with the tightest association between partners and other cops, bonds nobody could break. But, hell, I couldn’t tell them I was wildly in love with a kid. The old-timers would have run me ragged. When Bettie disappeared in that wild abduction, the ranks closed behind me. I never let them open again.
And now here I was.
And who remembered anymore?
Somebody remembered. I could feel it! Damn it, the years were only a hiatus, a period of waiting, and now it was almost over!
Bettie said, “I have to feed Tacos. Would you like to help me?”