When we tried to tell Herbert Mathews the good news we discovered that he'd been admitted to a hospice, and he died shortly afterwards. Maggie and I went to the funeral. His old station was represented by a young WPC who'd never met him. They sent a wreath, everybody else made a donation to Cancer Research. On the way Maggie told me that Janet Saunders had applied for a job as a school dinner lady, which would give her a good chance of regaining custody of little Dilly. She'd decided that life was still worth living, and was putting it back together.
I opened the letter that Annabelle sent me, even though I'd asked her not to write. She said she had to. There was no address, it just said London in the top right-hand corner. I was glad she hadn't put an address. It was the best testimonial I've ever received; when I'd finished it I couldn't understand why she'd ever left me. I slowly tore it into a hundred and twenty-eight pieces, and immediately wished I hadn't.
Her house is empty, with a For Sale sign standing in the garden. I think about her, now and again. Wonder where she is, what she's doing, if she's happy. I hope she is. I don't dwell in the past, but sometimes a memory of her takes me by surprise. All sorts of things can trigger it off, but music is the worst. Some of my CDs I doubt if I'll ever play again, but it can be anything: Barber's Adagio for Strings; the Archers' signature tune; when it rains; when it doesn't.
Since the Doctor Jordan case I've let Nigel run the show. He'll be promoted to inspector soon, which will mean a return to uniform.
Meanwhile, I let him play at detectives. I go walking, most weekends, either in the Dales or driving up to the Lakes on a Friday or Saturday evening. The couple who run the B and B I use have become friends, and he suggested I do some back-packing on the Continent. I wondered about the Blue Ridge Mountains, in the USA.
There's a good library in Heckley. One lunchtime, fired with enthusiasm, I went along to see what I could find in their Travel section and discovered that my membership had lapsed. That's a bit like saying that Maggie Thatcher wasn't a chemist any more.
"Could you fill this in please?" the woman behind the counter asked, 'and we'll put you on the computer. We have computers now, you know."
"Whatever next?" I replied, taking the white card from her. She was wearing wire-framed spectacles and her hair was tied severely back. She believed in conforming to type, but couldn't disguise the fact that she was attractive. I was reminded of one of those Barbra Streisand films where the make-up people have drawn on all the skills of their craft in an attempt to make her look dowdy, fooling nobody except the hapless hero.
"Will that do?" I said, handing the form back to her, holding on to it a fraction of a second longer than necessary.
She studied it and looked at me, her cheeks tinged with colour. "Hello, Charlie," she said. "I thought it was you."
I imagined her in the last reel, where he removes her spectacles and she lets her hair tumble free, revealing the enchantress we knew was there all the time. "Jackie?" I said, disbelieving my eyes. "Is it Jacqueline? Weller fancy meeting you here."