“Why are you telling me?”
“Because you don’t have to be quite so mean. You have a responsibility. Because you’re smarter than most people. You go to a fancy school. Learn a little compassion.”
“They have none,” Maud said.
“May I ask you something, Maud? Did you ever have that procedure done?”
“I never had to. It didn’t come up with me. Are you telling me I should shut up and let fanatics and heartless politicians take our rights away?”
“I’m not saying that,” Jo said. It occurred to her, however, that arguably she was saying just that.
“I remember,” Jo said, “when most women didn’t have the choice to get it done right. My mom’s generation.” She turned to look at Maud’s exhausted face. “Look, you pay a price for everything. Politicians don’t give a damn and neither does the media. They make a living by keeping people muddle-headed and angry. You can’t walk into this stuff without knowing what you’re up against.”
“I know that,” Maud said.
“While you’ve been hiding out, there have been many threats against your life. You’re in danger. You’ve got nuts after you. I mean,” Jo said, “I’m not trying to scare you. Just be careful. Maybe — I don’t know — you might take a semester off. Lie low.”
“Fuck ’em.”
“Whatever you want to do, Maud. Just be careful.”
When they got to the hospital driveway, an orderly with a wheelchair was standing beside the admissions desk.
“I’ll wait for you,” Jo told Maud, and took a seat on a bench in the emergency department’s waiting area. It was uncrowded. Sitting nearby was a student with a canvas leg cast that appeared to be causing her pain. It looked like a ski injury.
Less than twenty minutes after Maud had left her side, Jo saw Jeff Margolis, a thin-faced, goateed young man, coming toward her.
“Your Lindsay Lohan person flew the coop, Jo. She took off.”
Jo stayed for a while on the bench pondering her next move, wondering if she had one. Finally she concluded there was nothing for her to do that night except drive home. She parked in her lot and got to her apartment just as it started to snow. She put herself to bed.
16
“SO,” ELLIE SAID. “This kid’s a little genius, eh?”
Brookman saw that she had found the Gazette and read Maud’s article. He had not been hiding it from her, nor had he brought it to her attention. However, he had left it in a downstairs drawer, thinking to keep it from Sophia. He assumed that someone on campus would contrive to mention it in Ellie’s presence.
“Angry in all directions.”
“Is she?” Ellie went to the window and looked at the street. Dusk was coming down. Outside, people had started to walk toward the ice rink where the college was about to play its opener against UConn. Prospects for the home team were not good. “Get over it, I say.”
“It was immoderate. But she had a right.”
“Oh, sure, she had lots of rights. In all directions.” Ellie lowered the blinds against the passersby on the street just below and the strengthening reflection of the room they stood in. “Why did you let her publish it? She was your advisee, I understand.”
“My advisee, yes. I hadn’t read it.”
“You didn’t? Of course that’s none of my business.”
The words chilled him but he had no answer. From an intellectual perspective, even from an emotional one, he would have been interested in her comments.
“Pretty little thing,” his wife said, observing the front page of the Gazette. “Beautiful, actually. Coltish. Sort of an uncontained animal spirit. Ah, youth, eh?”
She rolled up the college paper briskly, omitting to mention what she thought he might do with it. Whereupon she went upstairs. Brookman started to follow but stopped when he heard the bathroom door slam. Sophia was in her room reading Are You There God? It’s Me, Margaret before bed. He began to drink. He read several chapters of a book about the decline of the Spanish Habsburgs and then reread some items from the previous day’s Times sports section. One article described a Patriots-Broncos game that Denver lost. A Pats-loving colleague would have won fifty dollars from Brookman had the man not been off winter camping, out of cell phone range.
The liquor brought him no peace, only more anxiety and confusion. Finally he turned the television on and watched a sizable chunk of Red River. He realized that in the numerous times he had seen it, he had never figured out whether John Wayne shot John Ireland to death in their final encounter, nor had he ever remotely believed in the heroine’s cool reaction to taking a Comanche arrow in the shoulder, despite Joanne Dru’s feisty performance beside Montgomery Clift.
From the sidewalk outside he could hear the slightly intoxicated sounds of hockey fans coming from the rink. Amid the stomping, grunting and laughter there came a shout he recognized.
“Hey, Steve! Hey, Professor Brookman!”
He looked out and saw layers of snow gathering on the chestnut tree branches overhanging the curb. The heavy flakes whirled, driven by wind off the river a few miles away. At the foot of the tree stood Maud. She had on a bright plastic anorak that had lowered to her shoulders, and newly fallen snow was in her hair, as he had seen it weeks before. Her eyes reflected the light from his house.
A quarter mile away at the far end of his block, the doors of the hockey rink were open and spectators streamed out, most of them turning left as they exited, making for the main campus. A few dozen, in couples and small groups, were using Brookman’s street as a shortcut. Maud clutched the sky-blue plastic cloth around herself and screamed at him, standing with her face to the weather, toward his house.
“Hey, Prof! Hey, Brookman! Steve!”
Ellie had come downstairs.
“What did you do,” Ellie asked him, “give her a bad grade? Who is she?”
“She’s one of the kids who drinks. Good student. Pain in the ass.”
“Hey, Brookman!” Maud called from the street. “Who you talking to? Is that Mrs. Brookman? Hi, Mrs. Brookman.” They heard what might have been a snowball or a piece of ice against the door. “Hi, Elsa! Congratulations there!”
Ellie turned to her husband.
“I know who she is,” she said quietly.
“She’ll wake up Sophia,” said Brookman. Then, at a loss, he said, “Do you want me to call the police?” As he said it, he knew it had been a lame, stupid thing to ask her.
“The police,” she repeated after him in a monotone. “I think not.”
“Hi, folks,” Maud yelled. “God bless your happy home.”
He opened the front door and went outside, leaving it slightly ajar behind him. “Maud! What are you doing?”
She leaned the length of her arm against the tree trunk, turning to face him in the doorway.
“What am I doing? What am I doing, you son of a bitch?”
“You need to be sober, kid.”
“Oh, Stevie, I am sober. I don’t need anything. I am as sober as you’ve ever seen me, you dirty-hearted son of a bitch. You! Brookman!”
Cars maneuvered their way through the crowded street, sounding their horns, getting razzed and pounded on by the hockey crowd that was slow to yield the right of way. The street was normally closed on game nights. As the fans came abreast of Maud and Brookman, a few paused to look at the two of them, slowing the progress of those behind them.
Someone called Maud by name. A couple of passing boys tried to grab her arm and made as though to carry her off, laughing. “Hey, come with us!”
Violently she shook her arm free.
“Am I making too much noise, Stevie sweetheart?”