There was another reason I didn't call her. I remembered what Edward Wardwell had said to me today, in Salem. 'Did you know that Granitehead was called Resurrection, up until 1703? Did you know that Granitehead was called Resurrection?'
Drenched, and deeply disturbed, I walked back to the cottage. Before I went in, I looked up at the eyes of the bedroom windows. I thought I might have glimpsed a flicker of blue-white light there, but I was probably mistaken. Even nightmares have to end sometime.
The trouble was, I began to feel that my nightmare was just starting.
Eight
George opened the door and looked at me in surprise. 'You're kind of late for a game of cards, John. We were just about to finish up for the evening. Still, if you'd care to join us for a nightcap…'
I stepped into the hallway and stood there, wet and shaking, feeling like the victim of a road accident. George said, 'Are you okay? You didn't catch chill, did you, standing out there in the rain? And where's your raincoat?'
I turned and looked at him but I didn't know what to say. How could I explain to him that I had run down Quaker Lane through the blinding darkness, skidding and stumbling on the wet unmade road, as if I were being hotly pursued by all the demons of hell? And that I had waited outside his house, trying to catch my breath, trying to convince myself that there was nothing after me, no ghosts, no apparitions, no flickering white pictures from beyond the grave?
George took my arm and led me down the hallway to the living-room. The hall was decorated with trellis-patterned wallpaper, and proudly hung with George's fishing certificates and photographs of George and Keith and a few of the other old Granitehead boys holding up cod and giant sunfish and flounder. In the living-room, Keith Reed was sitting by the open fire, finishing a last glass of beer, while Mrs Markham's wheel-chair stood empty in a far corner, with her knitting on the seat.
'Joan went off to bed,' said George. 'She tires easily when there's company. Specially a live wire like Keith.'
Keith, a white-haired retired boat-captain, gave a grunt of amusement. 'Used to be a live wire, wunst upon a time,' he grinned, showing a row of square tobacco-stained teeth. 'Used to be a time, no lady within kissing distance was safe from Keith Reed. You ask Cap'n Ray, down at the Pier Transit Company, he'll tell you.'
'You want a drink, John?' asked George. 'Whisky, maybe? You're sure looking white in the face.'
"Too much clean living, that's your trouble,' said Keith.
I reached out for the arm of the chintz-and-oak chair by the fire, and unsteadily sat down.
'I don't know what to say to you,' I said. My voice sounded shaky, and congested by phlegm. Keith glanced across at George, but George shrugged to show that he didn't know what the matter was.
'I, um, I ran down the hill,' I told them.
'You ran down the hill?' repeated Keith.
I suddenly realized that I was close to tears. Tears brought on by fright, relief, the effects of seeing Jane, and the unexpected concern for my wellbeing that was being shown to me by two grizzled old Granitehead boys who normally treated strangers with grave contempt, and a spit on the sidewalk.
'It's okay now, John, you sup down some of this whisky and tell us what's wrong,' said George. He handed me a tumbler with a transfer-picture of a sailing-ship on it, and I took a large swallow. The liquor burned down my throat and into my stomach, and made me cough; but it steadied my nerves, and slowed down my heartbeats, and quelled some of the jangling hysteria that had suddenly gripped me.
'I ran all the way from the cottage,' I said.
'Now, why did you do a thing like that?' asked Keith. 'Cottage isn't on fire, is it?' He pronounced it 'fy-uh,' with a marked Granitehead accent. 'Isn't burning down?'
I looked from Keith to George and back again. The normality of the living-room almost made me feel that I had been imagining everything. The brass clock on the mantelpiece, the ship's-wheel on the wall, the flowery-patterned furnishings. A tortoiseshell cat, with its paws tucked in, sleeping with its nose towards the fire. A pipe-rack, hung with burned-down briars. Upstairs, I could hear the sudden blur of laughter, as Mrs Markham sat in bed watching television.
'I've seen Jane,' I said, quietly.
George sat down. Then he got up again, brought over his glass of beer, and sat down for a second time staring at me closely. Keith said nothing, but didn't stop grinning, although his grin seemed to have been drained of some of its humour.
'Where did you see her?' asked George, as gently as he could manage. 'Up there, at the cottage?'
'In the garden. She was swinging on the garden-swing. This is the second night she's done it. She did it yesterday only I didn't see her then.'
'But you saw her tonight?'
'Only for a very short while. She wasn't very clear. She was like a television picture that's on the fritz. But it was her all right. I know it. And the swing — the swing was going backwards and forwards by itself. Well, with her on it. But if she was a ghost, she was making that swing go backwards and forwards just as hard as if she was real.'
George puckered up his lips thoughtfully, and frowned at me. Keith raised his eyebrows, and rubbed his chin.
'You don't believe me,' I told them.
'Didn't say that,' returned Keith. 'Didn't say that at all.'
'It's just that, well, it's something of a shock, isn't it?' put in George. 'Seeing a real genuine ghost? You don't think it could have been some trick of the light? Sometimes the light plays strange old tricks at night, especially on the ocean.'
'She was sitting on the swing, George. Lit up, like a blue flickering light. Blue-and-white, like flashbulbs.'
Keith took a long drink of beer and then wiped his mouth with the back of his hand. Then he stood up, and pressed his hands to the small of his back, rubbing it to ease the stiffness, and walked slowly across to the window. He parted the drapes and stood there for a long time with his back to us, staring out at the weather.
'You know what you've just been a witness to, don't you?' he said.
'I've seen my wife, that's all I know. She's a month dead, and I've seen her.'
Keith turned around, slowly shaking his head. 'You didn't see your wife, John. Maybe your imagination painted a picture for you, turned what you actually saw into something you thought was Jane. But no sir. I've seen what you saw tonight a hundred times. Used to frighten sailors to death back in the old days. St Elmo's Fire, they call it.'
'St Elmo's Fire? What the hell is St Elmo's Fire?'
'It's a discharge of natural electricity. You see it mostly on the masts of ships, or radio antennae, or the wings of airplanes. Corposant, they usually call it, in Salem. Flickers, like a burning brush. That's what you saw, wasn't it? Kind of a flickering light?'
I glanced at George. 'Keith's right,' said George. 'I've seen it myself, out on fishing trips. Looks real eerie, the first time you see it.'
'I saw her face, George,' I told him. There wasn't any mistake about it. I saw her face.'
George leaned forward and laid his hand on my knee. 'John,' he said, 'I believe you saw what you said you saw. I truly believe you saw Jane, in your mind's eye. But you know and I know that there isn't any such a thing as a ghost. You know and I know that people don't come back from the dead. We may believe in the immortal soul, the life everlasting, amen, but we don't believe that it takes place here on earth, because if it did, this world would be pretty damned crowded with wandering spirits, don't you think?'