Timmy was just coming off the dance floor. "Where did you go to talk? The Ramada Inn? Mark has a way about him, doesn't he?"
I said, "He was helpful. How did you find him?"
"He found me. I was asking around about who might know Billy Blount when Mark walked up to me and said, I don't know where you came from, but I love you.'"
"He didn't."
"You're right, it was different. I was standing by the DJ's booth, and he very shyly edged up and asked if I'd like to dance. I acquiesced."
"You raise acquiescence to a high art"
"I do?"
"One of us does. Whichever."
The music stopped. The thirty or forty people left in the place began drifting toward the front door. Fluorescent lights came on, turning all our faces a hideous gray. People walked faster. Mike Truckman moved unsteadily toward the cash register, removed a wad of bills from under the tray, stuffed it into his jacket pocket, and exited with the crowd.
I talked with the bartenders while they gathered up glasses and ashtrays and empty bottles. They added little to what I knew. On the night before Steve Kleckner was found dead, Blount and Kleckner had danced and drunk together, seemed to everyone to have hit it off famously, then left Trucky's around three. The bartenders noticed all of this because Steve Kleckner had been depressed and preoccupied the previous two weeks-Kleckner had refused to tell anyone why and with Billy Blount, he had snapped out of that. No one had seen them together before.
None of the bartenders knew Blount except by face and first name, but they all knew Kleckner.
None could think of anyone who particularly disliked Steve Kleckner, who invariably was described as happy-go-lucky and a real nice guy. Not helpful. I did learn, however, that the person who knew Kleckner best was an ex-roommate named Stanley Loggins, who lived with his lover on Ontario Street-and that Steve Kleckner had once had an affair with Mike Truckman.
4
I was up by ten. Timmy snored like a mastodon while I ran four eggs and a pint of orange juice through the blender. I showered, found some of my clothes among Timmy's clean laundry, left a note, and drove over to Ontario Street. My job was to find Billy Blount, but it wasn't going to hurt if I learned more about the sort of man he'd been attracted to. In fact, I guessed there were even better reasons for looking into Steve Kleckner's life, but I didn't know yet what they were.
Stanley Loggins, in green chinos and a lavender T-shirt, was pixielike, with bright pink eyes and buck teeth. His lover, Angelo, was big and beer-bellied and had hands like hair-covered coal shovels. They sat side by side on an old brown sofa with antimacassars marching up and down its back and arms, a Woolworth's Mary-with-a-bleeding-heart hung on the wall above.
Angelo eyed me suspiciously and swigged from a quart bottle of Price Chopper creme soda while Stanley told me about Steve Kleckner.
"Yeah, we roomed together for two years," Loggins said, his girlish voice cracking like an adolescent's. "Until I met Angelo, and then Steve moved down to Hudson Avenue. Jesus, if I hadn't met Angelo, maybe Steven would still be here in this place- alive!" His little eyes bugged out.
Angelo said, "Fuck that shit!"
"Angelo, I wasn't accusing you, for chrissakes, now come off it!"
"Daaaaa!"
I said, "Tell me about Steve."
"Oh, he was such a nice boy, rea-l-l-ly nice. Very into music and all. Music was his way of life like Patti LaBelle, ya know? I just can't believe it that Steven is-that he doesn't even exist anymore. Last week he was here, and this week he's just- gone. I never knew anybody who died before. Except my stepfather, and he was such an asshole." Angelo looked away in disgust.
"Were you and Steve good friends?"
"Oh, yeah, Steven and I were very tight. I mean, we lived together and went out and all. Till I met this ol' grump here. Mister stay-at-home. But Steven and I still kept in touch, gabbed on the phone and all. Steven usually called on Monday and we'd yackety-yack about the weekend. He'd tell me all the dirt that went on and all, who's doing who. God, I can't believe he's never going to call again, I just can't believe it. Gives me the creeps. Iggghhh!" He shivered.
"Who were Steve's other friends?"
"Oh, the jocks, I guess. He hung around mostly with the jocks. Steven was very into music, ya know?"
"I know. What about Billy Blount? Do you have any reason to believe he and Steve had known each other before the night Steve died?"
Loggins looked away. "No. Steven always told me about all his hot tricks. No. He would of said." He glared back at me as if
I were somehow responsible for what had happened to his friend. "Ya know, I don't even know who this Blount asshole is!"
"Right. I've yet to meet Blount myself. What about Steve's love life? Did he ever have a lover?"
Loggins screwed up his face. "Sa-a-yyy-can I ask you something personal?"
"Sure."
"Are you gay?"
Angelo watched me, ready to pounce if I didn't come up with the right answer. Except I wasn't sure what the right answer was. I said, "I wouldn't have been run out of Blooms-bury Square,"
Angelo's lips moved as he repeated this to himself.
Loggins tittered and said, "Well, personally I've never been to San Francisco, but I get your message."
I said, "Who were the men in Steve Kleckner's life that he talked about?"
"How much time have you got, about a day?" He tittered again. "No, I'm just kidding. Really.
Steven played around some, like we all do-I mean used to do." He squeezed Angelo's thigh; Angelo smirked lewdly. "Steven never got into anything heavy, though. Not like Angelo and I.
He went mostly for one-nighters, ya know? No hassles and all. Except that gets so-o-o tired after a while, right, Angie?" Angelo belched theatrically. Loggins said, "Do you have a lover, Donald?"
"Yes, I do. His name is Timmy."
"Well, I hope he's like Angelo."
"Thank you. What about Mike Truckman? I heard he and Steve were involved at one time."
"Yeah, Steven and Mike were getting it on for a while, right after Steven started working out there. But that was ages ago. Two years ago, it must have been. It didn't work out. Mike was too old for Steven. I kept telling him that. Steven liked to have a good time, dance and go out and all, but Mike's idea of partying was to sit home and get sloshed and then grope around and fall asleep. The pits, Steven said. And Mike was so-o-o jealous. Steven couldn't even look cross-eyed at another guy without Mike having a conniption fit. Steve broke it off finally, but they stayed tight, even what with Mike boozing it up more and more and starting to fool around with whores. Really sleazy lays, Steven said they were. Even still, Steven really loved Mike, I think. But more like a father. He looked up to him and all. Used to, anyway."
"Used to?"
"Yeah. It was sad. Something bad happened. A bummer."
"What was it?"
"I don't know. Steven wouldn't tell me. Just that it was something incredibly tacky that Mike did.
About three weeks ago. It really got Steven down, whatever it was."
"Steve didn't say anything about what it was? Nothing at all?"
"Steven said he'd tell me about it sometime, and I know he would've, but-but-oh, God! — poor Steven!" It had caught up with him. He shuddered once, lowered his head, and began to tremble.
Angelo pulled Loggins against his chest, looked at me, and said, "Fuck this shit!"
I waited until Loggins had recovered and gulped down some of the creme soda Angelo shoved at him. I said, "Just one last thing. What about Steve's family? Was he in touch with them?"
"No-" He snuffled. "They were on the outs." Angelo pulled a Valle's Steak House napkin from his back pocket, and Loggins blew his nose in it. "Steven's folks live over in some hick place in Rensselaer. Last Christmas Steven told his sister he was gay, and she told his mom, and his mom asked him if it was true, and Steven said yes, and you know what Steven's mom said? She started screaming and she says, 'Oh, please, Steven, please don't have an operation! Please don't have an operation!' And then his dad came home and threw him out. He had to thumb back to Albany, and it took him three rides to get back here. He never did figure out what his mom meant by don't get an operation. Sex change, I guess. Who the fuck knows."