I nodded and waited for him to continue.
“There was so much that happened in her life, and no matter how much she’ll tell you about it, you’ll never be able to fully understand what she went through. But she’s so damn strong, I’ve always been in awe of her and the way she’s made it through some of the shittiest situations. I have no doubt that a lesser woman wouldn’t have made it through what Rachel has in the last year. Sometimes I wish that she wasn’t as strong, that she would need to come back to California so that I could make sure she was okay there. But then she wouldn’t be Rachel, and she wouldn’t have you.
“I wanted to hate you when she was kidnapped. I just needed someone to blame, like I’d blamed Blake for all that happened last year. But I know I can’t, I know you did everything you could to find her. When Mason, Candice, and I all talked last year while the two of you were separated, I found out a lot about how you blamed yourself; and I can only imagine you did the same this time. Despite the reasoning for their taking her, it wasn’t your fault, and I hope you know that. I want to say I’m sorry for the way I treated you, and above all, I want to thank you for bringing her back.”
“I, uh, well I’m glad to know you don’t blame me or hate me, but you don’t have to thank me. You know I would do anything for her.”
He took a long drink from his beer and wiped the back of his hand across his mouth. “I do kind of hate you. You’ve taken one of my sisters away from us and all the way across the United States . . . but there is no other guy I would trust with her life, and with her heart.”
Before I could respond, I felt, before I heard, Mason coming up behind me. “Mason . . .”
Eli eyed me, clearly confused, and his eyes widened when he must have finally seen Mason.
“Years of undercover work together,” I answered Eli’s unspoken question. “We couldn’t sneak up on each other if we tried.”
“Ahh . . . him I don’t like.”
“What the hell did I do?” Mason asked as he joined us.
Eli looked up at him, and even though he was a good head shorter than Mason, I fully understood why Mason looked like he wanted to go hide again.
“Stay away from my sister,” Eli said in clear warning before walking toward the house.
“Is he for real?” Mason asked.
I just shrugged and drained my beer. “You should totally sleep with one eye open tonight.”
“Son of a bitch,” Mason groaned and followed me back into the house.
23
Rachel
I TOOK DEEP BREATHS IN AND OUT as I studied myself in the mirror. I wasn’t nervous about the lifelong commitment I was about to make. I wasn’t worried that Kash was getting cold feet. I just felt like I was going to hurl.
The parents had already come in and given hugs before going to take their seats, and Candice and Maddie were behind me in light gray dresses, talking animatedly as they checked each other’s hair. We’d spent the morning relaxing at Maddie’s apartment and watching movies as Mason’s mom did our hair. Then we’d run over to the hotel where Kash and I were going to be staying the next three nights, and checked in before leaving our bags in the room, so he and I could go straight there after the reception without having to worry about anything.
The day had been nice, and easy, and just what I’d needed. But right now, I needed a bathroom. I needed a toilet, and I needed the girls to leave the room.
“Easy,” a deep voice commanded when I turned to find the bathroom. Eli’s hands gripped my wrists, and his thumbs pushed into the pulse point on each one. “Breathe in and out.”
I let the intensity that always seemed to roll off Eli pour over me, and surprisingly, the whole thumbs-on-the-inside-of-my-wrists was really helping.
“Good girl, keep breathing. Deep breaths,” he said, and suddenly he was at my ear. “You okay, sis?”
“I’m good, just got a little light-headed there for a minute.”
“You sure you weren’t about to take off out of here? You need to get away, just tell me. You don’t have to do this if you don’t want to.”
I laughed shakily as more of the nausea left me. “No, nothing like that, Eli. I’m ready for this . . . so ready. I really just felt sick for a second.”
“Are you okay now?”
“Yeah, much better. Thank you.”
He kissed my forehead and stepped back. “Let me see if I can go find a Sprite or something around here. But you should get dressed soon. It’s supposed to start in ten minutes. Unless, you know, you need to run.”
“Eli, no.” I pushed him back and smiled at him. “I would love the drink, but not an escape.”
“All right, I’m just making sure.” He winked and slipped out the door.
He was back in no time, and I sipped at the carbonated drink slowly to help with the last of my uneasy stomach. As I did that, I stepped out of the loose clothes I’d been wearing, and Candice and Maddie helped me get ready.
I loved the lingerie we’d found a few weeks ago, and I couldn’t wait to see Kash’s reaction to it. I just didn’t know if I was going to last in the white corset that was covered in lace if my nausea came back. We’d just gotten on my favorite part of the lingerie when there was a knock at the door.
“Is Rachel decent?”
“No!” we all shouted back at Eli.
“Okay, then someone catch this, I’m not going to look where I throw.”
“Wait! What are you throwing?” Maddie shrieked and turned toward the door just in time to catch the package sailing through the air.
“Crackers.”
“Why crackers?”
“Rachel said she didn’t feel good. Make her eat those,” he said, and then shut the door.
Maddie eyed me through the mirror, and I’m sure Candice would have been doing the same if her face wasn’t near my butt at the moment. “You don’t feel good?”
“I just got a little queasy earlier, I’m feeling better, but those will help.” Oh Lord how those would help. “It’s just nerves.”
She handed me the little package and I quickly opened it up and popped the first one in my mouth just as Candice jumped up.
“Okay, it looks perfect!”
I turned in the mirror and smiled at my underwear. “So cute,” I said through a mouthful of cracker.
It was a white thong with a thick band of see-through material, ruffled on each side of the band, and a mix of cotton and lace for the rest. But the best part was the satin bow that covered anything that shouldn’t be seen. Thong or not, I still wanted it covered.
The girls made me finish the crackers before they helped me put on my dress, and as soon as I saw the completed look, with my hair in a low bun off to the side just as Maddie had done it in the dress shop, an overwhelming feeling of peace settled over me.
My mom would have loved to see me like this, my dad would have been proud of the man I had chosen. And now, I couldn’t wait to get to that ceremony so I could finally become his wife.
“Naked or not, we’re coming in,” Mason said as the door flung open.
“Mason!” Candice and Maddie scolded him, but he just shrugged.
“You look beautiful, Rach,” Eli said and pulled me close to whisper in my ear. “And I really don’t like that guy.”
“He’s harmless, I promise.”
“Uh-huh.” He gave Mason a look as he stepped back, and Mason stepped in to get his hug.
“For real, the dude hates me!” Mason hissed at me, and I couldn’t help but laugh. “But you look gorgeous, Kash is gonna die when he sees you.”
“Thanks, Mase.”
I watched Eli and Mason leave with Maddie and Candice, and then turned to see Candice’s dad, George, tearing up.