“I thought our chips were protected.”
“So did I. But our tech is old and mechs never stop learning.”
Killeen said this heavily and with the respect a combatant had for another. Cermo’s cylinder spinal chips had carried the older Aspects and Faces from Bishop history. A suredeath reduced the present, subtracting one life. Chip charring carried that loss far back into a dim past, plundering the origins of the Family itself.
It was hard finding enough real ground to bury Cermo. They stripped away his gear and divided the mass out for taking back. Most of it was useless but to leave it would draw mech scavengers.
Utter darkness came for a while and they slept. It did not do much good for Toby and when he woke a gang of scavenger navvys had found the Mantis. He heard them cutting and clattering around and went up the slope to where they worked in the sprawling shambles. He remembered how the parabolic antenna had spun around like an eye searching madly and how the majesty had gone then. The flanks of it were gone too now, carried off by the scavengers. The mechs had their own ecology of a sort, recycling machined parts and whole intact auxiliaries. There was no more Mantis, just intricate assemblies slewed out of their mounts, and gear he could not understand fried by vagrant pulses. The navvys picked over the carcass where crystalline lattices had carried the Mantis intelligence. There were navvys of all sizes, scooters and jakos mostly, and they worked remorselessly in teams. When they were done they would leave nothing.
He shot three and that scattered them for a while. The anger in him had boiled out and he felt stupid when Quath and Killeen came running, their sensoria projected out in a defensive screen. He just shrugged. His father nodded. Killeen looked at the Mantis for a while with nothing in his face and then pulled a few of the arc struts free.
When Toby walked past the inner cells of the Mantis he saw a mag storage kernel hung partly disconnected from the frame. He took it. He told Quath he wanted the energy store, but he carried it with him on the long march away from there without discharging it.
<You have something more than that,> Quath said as they headed downslope.
“The memories it sent?”
<I received none.>
“How’d you know I did?”
<By your actions. It chose you.>
For a searing moment he wished that he had never seen the Mantis. “I don’t want that.”
<They are in you now.>
He walked on in silence.
His father carried some of the beautiful arc struts strapped to his back despite the weight. Killeen was smiling and tired and said, “Plenty Bishops will want a piece. It killed a lot of us.”
“How many?”
“It’s cut through generations of us. Nobody can do the count. None of us has lived through the full time of it.”
“We were trying to kill it, too.”
“Yeasay. Had to.”
“Murder on both sides.”
“Now there is, yeasay.” His father squinted at him and looked away.
Toby kept pace with Killeen behind Quath. They loped across timestone that had settled down. A golden glow seeped up through it and cast shadows up his father’s face from the chin. The silence between them simmered until Killeen said, “It made art works of us. Hunted us. Sucked us up as suredead.”
“Cermo made a mistake.”
“I suppose.”
“Coming on close to it at the end like that.
“Have it as you like.
They walked a while with the excitement going out of them and the only sound was their servos.
“It cared about Bishops, y’know.”
“Cared plenty. Cared enough to hound us.”
“Not what I meant.”
“I know, son.”
The Bishops had lost something too when the Mantis went out of their world but Toby could not say to his father what that was. He would be a full man before he came to understand it or to know that he had brought away from the Mantis not only the magnetic kernel—which he kept for years and never got around to discharging—but also a discord of loneliness which would go with him even when he was surrounded by Bishops.
After some hard marching they found a Bishop camp. The news spread quickly and more Bishops came hurrying across the stretches of timestone. They saw the curved Mantis struts that Killeen had carried out on his back and insisted on standing them up in an arch for display. Together like that they looked fine in the smoldering ruby glow of the time-stone.
People crowded around the struts and touched them carefully. Killeen had a liquor toast from some of them and then another and talked freely. Toby stood back and watched as his father and himself and Quath were transformed into heroes by the excited chatter of the crowd who had not been there.
They had lifted a burden and legend from the Bishops and he knew with one part of himself how he would feel if someone else had done that. But it was different to have done it yourself and nothing in the talk could change that or even explain it Especially not explain it.
Killeen said to him a little later, “Wish Cermo could be here.”
“He is,” Toby said and in that moment felt what the Mantis had sent into him in its last moments. Cermo. Truncated, flattened, seeping in spongy interstices of him, slivers and rivulets flowing in his sensorium and flavoring the liquid light, forever, Cermo.
He sent a whisper to Quath,—Why?—
<It was not from our kingdom of intelligence. We cannot know why.>—Something like this…—
<You can see it as a gift or a curse.>
—Or neither one.—
<You are two handed, two legged. Your minds favor dichotomies.>
—Not always.—
Toby said again to his father, his voice raspy, “He is.”
“I s’pose,” Killeen said. He squinted at his son and looked puzzled and took a drink.
They sat on little camp stools near the arch of fine struts and Toby had a drink then too, not wanting it but knowing that the moment needed it. He and Killeen drank from trail cups brought by a woman and her husband who had lost two children to the Mantis a long time ago. They wanted to talk to the brave ones and maybe to the heroic Quath, only Quath was not around anywhere. Toby drank carefully to hold onto the moments that were softening in him already, dropping away down the funnel of time and memory. He hoped he would not remember any of this last part of it and thought of the parabolic antenna instead, and the silly way it had spun so fast, and to his surprise saw it now with new deep eyes.