When I grow up, Quinn thought with a smile, I want to be like you, Dad.
NINETEEN
Before his recovery, every time news about Nicholas Parrish reached me, friends would see its effect and say, “Don’t worry. Nick Parrish is paralyzed.” Hearing that set off an internal conflict. My rational self said, “Yes, of course, I’m safe from him.” Emotionally-that was another matter.
Fear, which knows better than to use mere words, barely loosened its grip. My heart would race, my hands would feel clammy. A brief horror film, rough cut, memories patched together with adrenaline, would play in my mind, take my attention from whatever I was doing.
Therapy had helped me to deal with a lot of that, but try as I might to embrace a calmer view of matters, on some level, I remained entrenched in the belief that he could beat the odds.
He did.
Then I was comforted by well-wishers with “Nicholas Parrish is in prison.”
Now it appeared he had beaten those odds, too.
When I heard about Parrish’s escape, I called Frank, who had also just heard of it. “I’m on my way over there,” he said.
“Where?”
“To the radio station. Don’t drive home without me, okay?”
I opened my mouth to say it wasn’t necessary, I would be fine, and then decided that I wasn’t going to kid myself. “Thanks,” I said. “See you soon.”
I called Ben. He hadn’t heard the news yet, and I didn’t take joy in breaking it to him. He swore enough for both of us, then grew quiet. “Funny thing,” he said.
“What?”
“I think I’ve always believed he would do something like this.”
“Me, too. I tell myself he’s human, not invulnerable, but-”
“He is human. He can be captured.” After a long silence, he added, “We’ll just have to keep telling ourselves that.”
“Is that working for you?”
He laughed nervously. “Not really.”
There was a beep on the line, and a moment later he said, “Las Piernas PD is calling. I’d better take it.”
We ended the call. Ethan asked for more security for the building, which the station management was reluctant to provide until a couple of detectives from the police department arrived at about the same time my husband did. The detectives were sent to talk about precautions for the staff, especially one of their new hires, who might be a target. The police department was already making plans, assuming that Parrish was going to come after Ben and me.
I’m sure Ben felt about as shitty as I did over all of this, which was no comfort to me.
In the first few hours, most news reports were full of conjecture. We knew that two guards had been killed when the car they were in was destroyed by some sort of mine. The ambulance carrying Parrish had also been attacked, one guard killed, one in serious condition with a severe head injury, and the driver and attendant missing, as was Parrish.
Everyone at the prison, from the doctor to the guard who loaded him in, swore up and down that Parrish was sedated and could not have managed the escape on his own. The other facts supported that view, but it was difficult to see how he had communicated with his accomplices.
The details beyond that information were unclear, owing largely to the remote location where the empty ambulance had been found. Whether the other two men were hostages or participants in the escape was not known. Where they had gone and how they had traveled was a mystery as well.
There was an airstrip, which had caused some excitement at first, given Parrish’s abilities as a pilot and aviation mechanic, but it was locked and the FAA said their records showed no unusual activity there. The pilot associated with the only plane using it was in the air at the time the fire was reported and was on a routine run. He had been questioned, but he had not seen anyone lying in wait when he began his flight. The investigators used the time of his flight to help estimate the time of the escape.
When security video taken at the prison was shown, the owner of the ambulance company said that the driver and attendant were not the men sent out on the assignment. Those who examined the recordings were unable to get a clear look at the faces of the men who did show up-and obviously knew where the cameras were-but the owner said with certainty that they didn’t match the physical builds of his two employees.
One set of investigators began looking at the GPS tracking records for the ambulance before it reached the prison. At one point, it had veered from its planned route, down a small side road. There had been no radio call from the driver and attendant, both of whom at that point would have been riding in the cab.
Everything about that stop suggested some level of complicity by at least one of the ambulance company employees. The outrage expressed over this was somewhat muted after the bodies of both men were discovered not far away.
There was a lot of chest thumping in some segments of the California political jungle, as those who most enjoy spectacle took the stage and did their usual posturing-just for show, not to do any of the heavy lifting that might have been of real help. The public outcry, rooted in understandable fear, was fierce-but all the same, an outcry from a burdened public that didn’t want its taxes increased to improve prison conditions. As usual, most of the drama had little to do with sincerely addressing problems.
In the meantime, Ben and I found ourselves surrounded. The police were not the only ones to figure out that we were Parrish’s most likely targets, and the ensuing attention made it hard for either of us to get anything done.
Frank did all he could to reduce the pressure and stress, and we took turns reciting to each other the reasons why we shouldn’t let Nick Parrish and his friends dominate our lives, the reasons why Ben and I might be the last people he came after, and how unhealthy speculation could be. I could talk a lot of talk about not letting Parrish ruin my life. And every day, it took every ounce of will I had in me just to walk out the front door.
I knew about Nick Parrish, and not from Sacramento or the Internet or television or any other glass-walled, safe observation point. Nick Parrish had slammed my face into the mud-I had felt his grip on my neck, been utterly in his power. I could have told anyone who cared to listen that Nick Parrish was not going to fit into any ready-made, predictable slot. He was not going to do the expected thing. He had studied other serial killers, seen them as object lessons in failure.
So while the local citizenry worried that he would attack in Las Piernas at any moment, I knew he would make us wait. I remembered other hunts for Nick Parrish that had failed, remembered how capable he was of going to ground.
I knew he blamed me for his previous capture and years of physical suffering.
He would wait.
The public would become distracted, the police would receive other demands on their attention.
Nick Parrish would strike then.
And damn it all to hell, now he had friends to help him do it.
TWENTY
Nicholas Parrish stood at a window and watched leaves drift from the branches of an oak tree to a walkway that led from the lodge to a storage shed. Only a few, at this time of year. Soon the days would grow cooler, the leaves would turn, and color the ground as they died. Death was a gift to the ground, something it needed to bring forth new life. Why did so few people understand the necessity of it?
He decided to go for a walk. He could hardly get enough of being outside, breathing in scents that were not those of a hospital or a prison.
As he moved into the open air, he wanted to shout, to laugh, to scream to the world that he had won again-he had!