A man has a history, and occasionally he becomes a legend. But a man is rarely special by himself. Sometimes he becomes special in a special time. Sometimes he rises beyond his upbringing to become something new. Sometimes he starts a movement, or alters the course of a country.
And sometimes—rarely—he changes an entire sector.
Like Ewing Trekov supposedly did with his friends as they developed a plan for the war.
But that story implies that he didn’t work alone. That if he had died before he came to this outpost, someone else would have picked up that mantle. That someone might not have performed as well. He—or she— might have done better. There’s no way to know.
But like all humans, Trekov wasn’t entirely unique.
The Room of Lost Souls is unique.
No one knows exactly what it is or how it got to be. No one knows where it started or who built it or why.
Places develop myths, become legends in ways more powerful than any human being ever can. Because beneath each legendary human is the reminder that he is human, that what makes him special is how he rose above his humanness to become a little bit more than the rest of us.
Not a lot more. Just a little bit.
Trekov was a man who had more children than he could count, who made love to women but apparently didn’t love them. A man who cared more about his work than his family.
A man like so many others.
A man who just happened to be the right man for the war he found himself in.
But the Room—the Room existed before humans settled this sector. The Room shows up in the earliest documents from the earliest space travelers.
And because it’s so old, and because no one knows exactly how it works or why it’s here or how it came to be, myths grew up around it.
People go on a pilgrimage.
Smart people, like Ewing Trekov.
People believe the Room will do something for them. Change something about them. Satisfy something within them.
The legends around the Room are fraught with danger. Space travelers are warned to stay away from it. I remember that much.
I heard that much.
But I’m not sure when. Or where. Or from whom.
Still, I need to heed my own advice.
I need to research the thing I think I know the best.
I need to talk to the one other person who remembers it vividly.
I have to talk to my own father.
Much as I don’t want to.
SEVENTEEN
My father lives halfway across the sector, on a small planet whose only inhabited continent counts itself as one of the losers in the Colonnade Wars.
He’s lived there for nearly two decades—and it’s a sign of how out of touch we are that I actually had to look that information up.
My father’s house is a maze of glass, stairs, and steel. From the outside it seems haphazard, rooms on top of rooms, but from the inside, it has a wide-open feel, like the best cruise liners, designed not to take you to a destination but to help you enjoy the journey.
He built his house in the center of a large blue lake, so at night the water reflected the skies above. If those skies are clear, it seems like he is in space, traveling from one port to another.
He doesn’t seem surprised to see me. If anything, he’s a little relieved.
I arrive in the middle of the afternoon, and he insists I stay at his house. I nearly decline until he shows me the guest room. It is at the very top of the house, glass on all sides except the part of the floor that covers the room below. The bed seems to free-float between the blueness of the lake and the blueness of the sky.
The sun—too close to this planet for my tastes—sends light through the glass, but environmental controls keep the room cool and comfortable. My father shows me where those controls are so I can lessen the gravity if I want.
It takes me a while to realize that my father’s house is modeled on the station that houses the Room of Lost Souls. We meet in the center room— the room that would be the Room of Lost Souls if we were on that station— and he offers me a meal.
I decline. I’m too nervous in his presence to eat anything.
My father is no longer the man I remember, the man who cradled me when I got out of that Room. That man had been in his late thirties, tall and strong and powerful. He’d loved his wife and his daughter, making us the center of his life.
He’d commanded ships, built an empire of wealth, and still had time for us.
He abandoned everything to figure out how to get my mother out of that place. His businesses, his friends.
Me.
Which makes it so strange to see him now, essentially idle, in this place of openness and reflected light.
He still looks strong, but he hasn’t bothered with enhancements. His face has lines—sadness lines that turn down his eyes and pinch the corners of his mouth. He has let his hair go completely white, along with his eyebrows, which have become bushy. His mustache—something I considered as much a part of him as his hands—is long gone.
He makes our greeting awkward by trying to hug me. I won’t let him.
He acts like he still has affection for me. He does make it clear that he has followed my career—as much as he can through what little I make public.
But he has respected my wishes—the wishes I screamed at him the last time I ran away from my grandparents—and has stayed out of my life.
“You sent Riya Trekov to me,” I say.
I can’t sit in the chair he’s offered me. I’m too restless in his presence, so I pace in the large room. The glass here opens onto the other rooms. Through their glass walls I can see still more rooms, and at the very end, the lake. Looking at it through all this glass makes it seem far away, and not real. It looks like a holograph of a lake, the kind you’d see on the distance ships of my childhood.
“I figured if anyone could help Riya, you could.” His voice is the same, deep and warm and just a little nasal.
I shake my head. “You’re the one who has done all the research on the Room.”
“But you’re the one who has dived the most dangerous wrecks ever found.”
I turn toward him then. He sits in the very center of the room. His chair is made of frosted glass, and the cushions that protect his skin are a matching white. He looks like he has risen from the floor—a creature of glass and sunlight.
“You think this is like a wreck?” I ask. “Wrecks are known. They’re filled with space and emptiness. They have corners and edges and debris, but they’re part of this universe.”
“You think the Room isn’t?” He folds his hands and rests his chin on his knuckles.
“I don’t know what it is. You’re the one who has spent his life studying the damn thing.”
So much for trying to hide my bitterness toward his choices.
He grimaces, but nods, an acknowledgment that my bitterness has its reasons.
“Yes,” he says. “I’ve studied it. I’ve traveled to it countless times. I’ve sent people in there. I’ve repeated the same experiments that have been tried since it was discovered. None of them work.”
“So why do you think Riya Trekov’s device will work?” I ask.
“Because I was with her on one of the missions,” he says. “I watched people she paid go in and come back out.”
“Empty-handed,” I say.
He nods.
“Yet she thinks someone can bring her father out.”
“She might be right,” he says.
“And if he can come out, so can Mother.”
“Yes.” The word is soft. He lifts his chin off his folded hands. The knuckles have turned white.