‘Domina,’ I stammered. ‘You shouldn’t tell me all this.’
‘I’ll tell you more, Parmenon. Tiberius is the great Augustus’s successor but he spent most of his early manhood sulking in exile. It turned his mind. He wants to kill and kill again. My father is dead, my mother and two brothers will soon join him and, if Sejanus has his way, I and my sisters have got — ’ she coolly shrugged her shoulders ‘- perhaps a year, certainly no more than eighteen months. Go out and check the gallery again, Parmenon. Stay there for a while before coming back.’
I obeyed her command. I closed the door behind me and tried to stop trembling. Agrippina had sent me out to test me. Any sensible informant would have fled like the wind, certainly not to Sejanus but down to Ostia to beg, buy, do anything to gain passage to the western isles or beyond. My face was coated in sweat. My stomach was clenched so tightly I thought I was going to vomit. It was like being woken up from a deep sleep by a jug of cold water splashed over your face. I was no more than twenty-three years of age and so far my life had been like that of a dream-walker, an observer of what was happening around me, but feeling very little. My father killed, my mother a sickly woman who had died before her time. Friends and acquaintances were merely people I talked to, dined or slept with. In an hour all this had changed. I walked up and down the gallery drawing deep breaths. Why, I kept asking myself? Why was Agrippina telling me this? It was all true, of course. Tiberius was a sick, bitter man. The stories from Capri depicted him as a monster. One story currently doing the rounds of the taverns of Rome was that a fisherman on the island had caught an enormous mullet, and eager to please his Emperor, he towed the fish up the trackless cliffs and surprised Tiberius. The Emperor was furious at being disturbed. He ordered his guards to wash the fisherman’s face with the mullet; its scales skinned him raw and the poor fellow screamed in agony, ‘Thank the Gods I didn’t bring Caesar the huge crab I also caught.’
Tiberius sent for the crab, had it used in the same way, before his hapless victim was thrown from the cliff top. A party of marines stationed below dealt with the fisherman, as they did others sent hurtling to their death, whacking him with oars and boat hooks. The poor man’s corpse was left a bloody mess upon the rocks. In Rome the hunger for blood was no different. The prisons were full, and those detained were deprived of light, food, even conversation. Some of the accused, on being warned to appear in court, felt so sure the verdict would be guilty that, in order to avoid public disgrace, they stayed at home, took a warm bath and opened their veins. If Sejanus’s police suspected this might happen, the house was raided, the poor unfortunate’s wounds were bandaged and he was hurried off to prison. A few senators, knowing they were going to be accused in public, drank poison openly, toasting their colleagues whilst cursing Caesar’s name. Their corpses were always displayed on the Steps of Mourning, before being dragged by hooks along the muddy lanes of Rome to the Tiber. Men, women, even children were imprisoned. Sejanus often toured the prisons, where one of his victims, half-mad from the torture, begged to be put out of his misery.
‘Oh no,’ Sejanus replied. ‘We are not friends yet.’
Such thoughts heightened my anxiety, standing in that dusty gallery of the Palatine Palace. I decided to flee. I was not one of the powerful ones of Rome so why should I be troubled? I stopped and stared back at Agrippina’s room. If I returned to that chamber, I could die an excruciating death, yet Agrippina was right, for if I reported her conversation, the same fate awaited me. I heard a footfall on the stairs and stepped into a shadowy recess. A slithering, soft sound, someone taking their time, coming up slowly, stealthily. Was Agrippina playing some cruel game? I peered out and recognised Metellus. I’d been introduced to him in the imperial box at the Games. He was a balding, narrow-faced scribe, responsible for ordering stores and ensuring the kitchen was well supplied. However, he wasn’t mounting those stairs like a scribe, more like the spy he was. He came onto the gallery and tiptoed by. I held my breath. He stopped at Agrippina’s door and listened carefully. Satisfied, he withdrew and slipped back down the stairs. I made my decision, or rather Metellus had made it for me. I waited until I was sure he wouldn’t return and crept back into the chamber. Agrippina was sitting where I had left her, tapping her foot as if listening to some invisible tune.
‘Well?’ she asked, raising her head.
I was about to kneel in front of her but she tapped the couch beside me.
‘You are with me, aren’t you, Parmenon?’
I nodded. She pulled down the front of her stola, exposing her beautiful breasts, their nipples dark and enlarged. She took my hand and pressed it against her left breast, her face only a few inches from mine.
‘Swear, Parmenon, by earth, sea and sky!’
I found it difficult to speak. My throat had gone dry. It was a strange sensation, my hand clasped against that beautiful breast, her lovely lips not far from mine, juxtaposed to the silence of the room, the terrors beyond the door, Metellus waiting like some snake.
‘Swear!’ she hissed.
I took the oath, and she kissed me full on the lips, pushed my hand away and re-arranged her stola.
‘What’s the matter, Parmenon? Are you shocked?’
‘No, Domina, frightened. Metellus is slinking like a fox outside.’
‘Foxes can be trapped.’
Clearing her throat, a mannerism employed whenever she was excited, Agrippina snuggled closer.
‘Tiberius is Emperor,’ she whispered. ‘He’s mad, bad or both.’ She smoothed her face. ‘But, there again, I’m no different. We have rotten blood in our veins. Tiberius’s son was poisoned.’
I started.
‘No, be still.’ She tapped my knee. ‘The Emperor’s true son is dead and that’s the end of the matter. Tiberius, therefore, has several possible heirs: Gemellus who is weak; or one of my elder brothers. However,’ she sighed, ‘we must consider them, like my mother, as dead. That leaves me, my sisters and “Little Boots”.’
Her voice took on a mocking tone as she referred to her brother, the seventeen-year-old Caligula, who was now Tiberius’s house prisoner on Capri.
‘Tiberius,’ she continued, ‘is worrying enough. Sejanus, however, is the more pressing danger. He’s Prefect of the city and commands the Praetorian Guard. The Senate are a claque and his bosom friends command the German legions. Sejanus has spun a web in which everyone is caught up. What he’ll do next is try to get rid of Caligula, myself and my sisters before we can beget any children. We’ll soon be arrested for treason, and either exiled or imprisoned. And then we shall certainly be executed, probably sooner rather than later.’ Agrippina paused as if she had forgotten something. ‘Yes, yes, that’s how it will go. Once he’s finished with us, Sejanus will turn on Tiberius, and the Emperor will go into the dark. Sejanus will marry Tiberius’s widowed daughter-in-law and have himself proclaimed Emperor.’ She tapped her foot and cleared her throat.
‘So, what can you do? Flee Rome?’
Agrippina threw her head back and laughed. ‘Flee Rome, Parmenon? We wouldn’t get as far as the Forum.’ She pinched my arm. ‘Don’t you have any life in those veins, a heart which beats? Haven’t you heard of a blood feud? Tiberius and Sejanus have struck at my family. Now I will strike at theirs.’ She waggled a finger like an aged housewife telling her husband off. ‘Where’s the weakness in all of this, Parmenon?’
‘You’ve thought all this through, haven’t you?’ I asked.
She grinned. ‘The weakness, in fact, is Sejanus himself. Tiberius regards Sejanus as too low-born to pose any real threat. However, our Emperor, by nature, is very suspicious. At the moment he puts up with Sejanus because he once saved Tiberius’s life. They were dining out in some cave and there was a rock fall. Tiberius believes he has a debt to pay. He must now be made to realise that this debt is cleared and Sejanus is his greatest enemy.’