‘What?’
‘Montélimar. In the south of France.’
‘Oh.’
‘Is this cool or what? It’s like Forrest Gump except all the chocolates have been scoffed.’
The dead letters were laid out on a card table covered in green baize. Initially, I’d arranged them by the size and colour of the envelopes, later by postal code, and finally as they are now by handwriting, an entirely subjective order based on perceived affinities between the slope of an l and a t or the morse of dotted i’s.
‘And this?’
‘My next project.’
I am turning into a person with projects. I’ve always hated that word. I wiped my fingers and went over to the table.
‘What are they?’ she asked.
‘Dead letters.’
‘That will scare away the punters. What does it mean?’
‘Letters that didn’t reach their destination. They were posted, but for one reason or another they were never delivered.’
‘Are they real?’
‘Oh yes.’
‘Where did you get them?’
‘They were left to me. It’s a long story.’
‘Try me, I’m not in a hurry.’
‘I can’t.’
‘So they’re found objects.’
‘Lost objects.’
‘Not stolen?’
‘Lost.’
‘I’ve heard of letters being dumped in the veld by a lazy postman. If that’s the story here, you should turn them over to the authorities.’
‘That’s not it. They were given to me, as I said, a long time ago. Anyway, it’s never been clear who the authorities are in this case.’
‘And the people who posted them, do they know where their letters are now?’
I shook my head.
Without a by-your-leave, as my mother would say, she held one of the envelopes up to the window. Against the light, the dark blade of a folded page floated askew in its filmy container. For a moment she was lost in thought.
‘Have you opened any of them?’
‘No, although I’ve been tempted.’
‘I’m sure I couldn’t resist.’
‘It’s private correspondence, long delayed, but still.’
‘I take it you’re going to use them in your next project.’
‘Yes.’
‘Is that okay?’ she insisted. ‘I mean, they don’t belong to you.’
‘I told you already they were given to me.’
‘Do you have the right to keep them though?’
‘As much as the next person.’
‘What are you going to do with them?’
‘I’m not sure yet, that’s the problem. Maybe I’ll deliver them.’
‘Some of the addresses are barely legible.’ She leaned closer to the display. ‘What does this say? I can’t make it out.’
‘I still have to decipher it myself.’
‘These are really old too. Where have they been all this time? Did they fall down the back of some filing cabinet? Is that it? You can tell me.’
‘No, I can’t, and I don’t want you writing about it either.’
‘Look at the stamps. C.R. Swart. He was the President, right? People will have moved. You’ll never be able to deliver them.’
‘Maybe I’ll just work out the addresses and go and drop them in the boxes. I won’t even ring the doorbell.’
‘That’s pretty hopeless, Neville. There has to be a better solution than that.’
‘I could take a picture of the letterbox.’
‘No ways, not good enough.’
‘Why not? Let whoever gets the letter make of it what they will. Isn’t that always the case?’
‘There’s an art to expressing your failures fully, if you don’t mind me saying so. You need to find the people these letters were intended for, it’s the only way open to you, ethically and aesthetically.’
‘Sounds like work for a private eye.’
‘Find the people and talk to them,’ she said. ‘Can you imagine the stories!’
‘I’m not a storyteller. I wish I was interested in stories, other people’s especially, but I’m not.’
‘You never know the lives people have lived until you ask, and asking is an obligation.’ Lecturing me now. ‘Every time someone dies, a whole history dies with them. It’s like each one of us is an archive.’
‘I’m surprised you’re so interested in the past.’
‘Oh, I’m all for it, so long as there aren’t too many grumpy people involved. I’m not exactly a born-free, but I’m not a child of apartheid either. I don’t need all that misery.’
‘People suffered terribly under apartheid, you know.’
‘Ja, but it’s time to move on.’
When I was a child, it puzzled me that there were so many films about the War, that the model planes were Spitfires and Stukas, and the comics were full of Germans shouting, ‘Achtung!’ Why was this ancient conflict so alive? My grandpa had been up north, but he was ancient too and belonged in another era. As I got older it became obvious. Scarcely twenty years had passed since the atom bombs were dropped on Japan. The earth was still trembling. I can feel it trembling now.
We had our own brief lifespans to consider. Janie asked for a copy of my CV and I went inside to print one in Leora’s study. ‘You can email it,’ she called after me, but I wanted to get it done.
When I came back, she was watching her footage on the digicam.
‘Check this out!’
I went with her into the maze of Antoine’s village, twisting and turning between the shacks, on and on as if the place were endless. Once she came to a dead end, quickly doubled back, and found another path. The shacks were so close together, you could reach out and touch the walls on either side. A tangible community. You would not need to go next door for a cup of sugar, you could simply lean out of your window. She swung around a corner, jaunty and unafraid. A woman stooping over a plastic basin of laundry started when she saw her, and then stood up with her foamy hands on her hips, laughing. She focused on the laughing woman and then on a king-size bottle of Sta-soft. ‘Hello ma. Who are you? Tell me your name and what you’re doing.’ But the camera made the woman shy and she turned away, hiding her face. The camera bobbed and reeled again along the ironclad streets, as if it had been set adrift on a raft. Bits of sky flickered into the lens, dented walls fell like shutters, layers of trampled earth flew up. She turned to look back. A gang of kids were following her, excited and alarmed. She focused on a girl with braids standing out stiffly like a crown of exclamation marks all around her head.
I offered to drive her home, but she had called a cab already and it was waiting when I let her out.
On the threshold, she paused and said, ‘One last thing: I need you with your letterbox, obviously.’
‘It’s just a slot in the wall.’
She held the camera out and looked at the screen. The way I study packages in the supermarket when I forget my reading glasses, trying to see how much salt they contain. She said, ‘I see what you mean. Two peas in a pod. Okay, say something cheesy.’
‘And in the alcoves?’
‘Nothing.’
‘You sure?’ Leora inspected the print as if there might be some small object in the shadows. ‘They must be displaying something.’
‘No, nothing.’
‘Weird. What is this style, African Imperial? Sol Kerzner must be behind it, he was the great prophet of the African Renaissance.’
‘I think it’s what Aurelia calls Afrocentric chic.’
I put the prints on the dresser and began to set the table while Leora went back to chopping fennel on the butcher’s block. It was Friday evening. The aromatic essence of her famous salmon soufflé — in individual ramekins, if you don’t mind — came from the eye-level oven; a salad cut down cruelly in its youth, baby carrots, bean sprouts, young spinach leaves, lay in a bamboo bowl. While she mixed the dressing, I opened some wine (it was a compensatory Springfield Life from Stone, nursed to maturity in the rocky soils of the Robertson valley) and told her more about the day with Janie.