I heard every word he said, and I knew what each one meant.
But what I said in reply was, “Sir, I decline to sign on the grounds—”
Then I heard the telltale sound of a hammer clicking back, and my eyes broke focus from the top of the colonel’s head. I looked down and saw his .45 service automatic in his hand. It was pointing at my gut.
“Let me put this another way, Private,” he said. His Texas accent slid into a self-satisfied drawl. “You can sign one of these pieces of paper, or I can tell the judge advocate that you went berserk when I confronted you with the evidence. I can tell him that you attacked a much superior officer, namely myself, and that the officer was therefore compelled to defend himself.”
I stared at the muzzle of the .45 for what seemed like a long, long moment. Then I snapped my eyes back up to a point above and behind the colonel’s head.
Maybe I hadn’t seen the future after all. Maybe this was the future, right here. And maybe that was fair.
Maybe this would make me even again.
“Sir,” I said. “I decline to sign. You already know why.”
The colonel gave a disgusted groan. “That’s a damn poor choice, son. But if that’s the way you want it . . .”
Another hammer clicked.
This one was behind me. It was followed by a thick, hacking, tubercular cough. But that only lasted a second.
Then I heard that smooth, sophisticated voice.
“Speaking of damn poor choices,” Pop said.
I looked down at the colonel again. His eyes were wide, and his face was twitching with mingled fury and fear.
But the fear won. He put his left thumb in front of the .45’s hammer, let it down slowly, and then set the pistol on the stack of confessions.
“Lovely,” Pop said, coming up on my right. He held up a fifth of Johnnie Walker Red with his free hand. God knows where he’d gotten it. “Now, let’s have a drink.”
XIV
POP DIDN’T EVEN GLANCE AT ME. HE KEPT HIS EYES ON THE COLONEL, GIVING him the same thin smile I had been seeing all day. He had a .38 revolver in his right hand and the fifth of Johnnie Walker in his left.
“You can sit back down,” he told the colonel. “But we’ll stand.”
The colonel sat down. He looked up at Pop with a mockery of Pop’s thin smile. It was a repellent sneer.
“A Communist corporal holding a pistol on a lieutenant colonel,” he said. “This is not going to end well for you.”
Pop set the bottle of whiskey beside the stack of confessions. “Nothing ends well for anyone,” he said. He picked up the .45 and dropped it into a small metal wastebasket on the floor beside the desk. “Do you have any glasses? I’d rather not pass the bottle.”
The colonel nodded past my shoulder. “In the bottom drawer of the file cabinet beside the door. But don’t touch my brandy.”
Pop’s eyes didn’t move from him. “Private, would you mind?”
I took a few steps backward, bumped into the filing cabinet, and squatted down to open the drawer. There were two short glasses and a cut-glass bottle of liquor. I took out the glasses, closed the drawer, and brought the glasses to the desk.
“We need three,” Pop said.
I set the glasses down beside the confessions. “I decline to drink,” I said. My mother had asked me to avoid alcohol, too.
Pop still didn’t take his eyes off the colonel, but he grinned. His false teeth didn’t look so bad all of a sudden.
“You’re an amusing young man, Private,” he said.
The colonel crossed his arms. “Neither of you will be very amusing once my aide returns. You’ll both be damned.”
Pop shrugged. “We’re damned anyway. Besides, I happen to know that your aide is at the movies with a nurse of my acquaintance. He’ll be there at least another hour. I believe tonight’s film is They Died with Their Boots On. Which isn’t too surprising, since Olivia de Havilland has been popular here lately. Although the story of Custer’s Last Stand might not be the most tasteful selection for an audience of G.I.’s.”
The colonel glowered. “If you shoot me, it’ll be heard. There’ll be dozens of men converging on this building before you’re out the door.”
Pop finally looked at me. His eyes were bright, and he laughed out loud.
“Can you believe this joker?” he asked. “Now he’s worried about a shot being heard.”
Pop turned back toward the desk, reached out with his left hand, and unscrewed the cap from the whiskey. He dropped the cap, picked up the bottle, and poured a hefty dose into each glass. Some of the booze splashed out onto the confessions.
“I have no intention of shooting you,” he told the colonel. “I only brought the gun so you wouldn’t shoot us.” He tilted his head toward me. “That’s right, Private. I knew you’d be here. You’ve hardly listened to me all day.”
“Sorry,” I said. “You’re not an officer.”
Pop put down the bottle and picked up one of the glasses. “I’ll drink to that,” he said, and downed the whole thing in three swallows. Then he set it down and refilled it. “Better have yours, sir.” He said sir with deep sarcasm. “You’re falling behind.”
The other glass sat where it was, untouched, the amber liquid trembling.
The colonel bared his teeth. “I don’t drink that stuff.”
Pop picked up his glass again. “Ah. But I know something you do drink. You had a little belt of something cooked up by one of our Alaska Scouts, didn’t you? But what you didn’t know is that some men can hold their mystical potions, and some men can’t. You see, to take a spiritual journey, you have to have a fucking soul to begin with. Otherwise, you just suffer from delusions of grandeur. Especially if that was your inclination to begin with.” He downed his second glass of Johnnie Walker.
The colonel leaned forward. “Have another, corporal,” he said. His voice was almost a hiss. “I really wish you would.”
Pop poured himself another.
“Uh, Pop . . .” I said.
Pop picked up his glass a third time. “Mother’s milk, son,” he said. “And don’t call me ‘Pop.’”
As Pop slammed back the drink, the colonel lunged sideways and down, reaching for the wastebasket. But Pop kicked it away with the side of his foot, simultaneously draining his glass without spilling a drop. He moved as casually and smoothly as if he were swatting a Ping-Pong ball.
The colonel fell to his hands and knees. Pop leaned down and put the barrel of the .38 against the base of his skull.
“Feel familiar?” Pop asked.
The colonel made a whimpering sound.
“Bang,” Pop said. Then he straightened, set down his glass again, and stepped over to the filing cabinet where the wastebasket had come to a stop. Pop picked up the wastebasket, brought it back, and set it on the corner of the desktop.
The colonel awkwardly hauled himself into his chair again. His face was florid and sweating.
“If you aren’t going to shoot me,” he said, “then what do you want?”
Pop scratched his cheek with the muzzle of the .38 before turning it back toward the colonel.
“I suppose I just want to see your face as I tell you what I believe I know,” Pop said. “I want to see how close I am to the truth. And then I should return this pistol to the commander. Fine fellow, by the way. He says you stink at poker.”
The florid color in the colonel’s face began to drain. But the sweat seemed to increase. His wormlike hair hung in wet strands before his eyes.
“While you were drinking and playing cards,” Pop said, shaking the .38 as if it were an admonishing finger, “you listened to stories told by our friend the Scout, some of which he’d told you before on Attu. And you decided you wanted to try out some of what he said for yourself. Well, that was fine with him. What did he care what a stupid white man might want to do to himself? Besides, you’re a lieutenant colonel. If he crossed you, you might take him out of his hut behind the hospital and put him to work digging latrines.