“Maybe,” he says.
Or maybe not.
Getting kicked out of China could be the best-case scenario.
“Maybe I can find out what they want from Zhang Jianli, what they say he did,” John says, and he’s making an effort to sound calm. Like it’s no big deal. “He is just an artist. Maybe it isn’t so bad.”
I don’t know who he’s trying to convince: me or himself.
“It doesn’t matter what he did.” Suddenly I’m so tired that I can’t even hold my head up anymore. “It’s whatever they want it to be, right?”
Because if there’s anything I’ve learned, it’s that sometimes there’s no reason for any of it. Sometimes it’s just wrong place, wrong time. Somebody with power gets a bug up his ass. Like that musical where the hungry guy steals the loaf of bread and the cop gets the hard-on of all hard-ons over it.
John rests his hand on mine, just for a moment, then pulls it away, like he’s embarrassed.
“Try not to worry, Yili.”
Right.
Chapter Five
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This is the kind of place I fucking hate.
First off: I’ve been warned by Vicky Huang that where I’m meeting Gugu is going to be expensive.
“Dress up!” she told me over the phone, and to make it abso-fucking-lutely clear I get it, she sends me a package via FedEx-clothes.
Expensive clothes. Designer clothes. Armani and Marc Jacobs and Stella McCartney. I know this because I check the labels, also because you can just tell with expensive things, the way they’re cut, the way they feel.
When I put them on, I can’t help it, I go to the bathroom to put on some mascara, see myself in the mirror, and think, Okay, I look kind of hot. We went through this whole thing before, how to dress me for my first meeting with Sidney, and the rule seemed to be if it costs a lot, it’s probably okay. This outfit looks pretty much like the last one: a black jacket, skinny low-rise pants, and a button-front shirt that’s pretending to be a men’s shirt, except it’s not (there’s more cleavage involved)-in black this time. “Slouchy boyfriend cut,” according to Lucy Wu, which is actually a real high-fashion description. Who knew?
But you need to be careful accepting people’s gifts.
Just go there, I tell myself in the subway. Meet Gugu. Meet this American guy. Try to get a read on his “moral character.” Pop smoke and go home.
“There” is a Beijing club that I’ve heard of but had managed to avoid-Entránce.
Entránce is in Chaoyang, near Workers Stadium, a part of Beijing that’s all wide roads and big buildings, nothing that really sticks in your head, except for things such as a huge neon sign for my like aesthetic plastic hospital group stuck on the side of a building that resembles a giant plastic footstool, like the ones you’d find in a preschool. The kind of area where crossing the street is a major hike because it’s six or eight lanes wide.
Normally I wait for a pack of other pedestrians to cross with, safety in numbers and all, and I feel like they have a better sense of when it’s safe to go, given that traffic laws are still a little more theoretical than actual a lot of the time here, but it’s already 11:00 p.m., and there aren’t all that many people on the streets around here after the end of the business day.
I hump it across, my leg throbbing. Not like I’m going to get a pain-free evening when I have to do something I really don’t want to do, right?
I should have taken a cab, I think, except sometimes you can’t get a cab to drop you where you want to go because it’s too much of a hassle for them to turn around in the traffic, where so many streets have iron barriers.
Cars speed by me, a couple of them making illegal left turns, and I grip one of those iron fences, waist-high, painted white, take a moment to wait for a gap in the rushing cars, to catch my breath. For some reason I’m thinking about this time in the Sandbox when I was the convoy medic and we were stuck because this bus had gotten blown up in the middle of the intersection, a couple of cars, too, and we couldn’t get through. So all of us stop, the Humvees, the KBR trucks in between. And we wait. And it’s so fucking hot, and I’m staring out a rippled safety window from the backseat of a Humvee at the busted asphalt and these painted cement buildings with rusted balconies. There are no people around. They’re out of sight, hiding. Waiting for something else to blow.
Cross the street, desert queen, I tell myself. Nothing’s going to blow up here. I’ve had some bad shit happen in China, but none of it involved things blowing up.
I make it across the street.
From the sidewalk there’s nothing much to Entránce, just a sparkling white dome kind of entrance thing backing up against an anonymous wall of squat glassy buildings that occupy the block.
Inside the dome is a metal detector flanked by two bouncers-a Chinese guy and a black guy, both with shaved heads and bouncer-size shoulders. Great. Now I have to worry if the titanium rod and screws in my leg are going to set off the fucking metal detector. Usually it’s fine, but every once in a while…
“Private party tonight,” the black guy says in English. He has an accent, African, but I don’t know from where.
“I’m invited.”
Lucky me, I’m on the list, and I don’t set off the metal detector. I hobble over to the escalators heading down into the club proper, bass thumping louder as I descend.
Someone could blow up Entránce and I wouldn’t be too upset.
Everything’s all white, plastic, and shiny. A dance track shakes the floor, bass vibrating through my rib cage, the highs loud enough to cut glass. My ears already ring from getting blown up and all. I don’t need this.
I find a cocktail napkin and tear off a couple strips, roll those up, and stuff them in my ears.
There are two or three levels to the club, a main pit with a couple of bars and a stripper platform and pole in the middle of it all-I know it’s a stripper platform/pole because there’s a white woman, Russian maybe, wearing a fringed bikini thing and platform shoes, gyrating on it. Upstairs is filled with white egg-shaped booths wedged up against a Plexiglas wall topped with chrome. The guests are mostly young. They look like too much money. I’ve seen plenty of rich people in the art crowd, but this is different-more obvious bling-designer labels, the real thing, not shanzhai rip-offs, diamond-studded iPhone cases, outsize jewelry, and two-thousand-dollar watches. There are guys in white shirts and black jackets with headsets all over the place, keeping tabs.
I look for where the headsets are clustered the thickest, figuring that’s where I’ll find Gugu and his inevitable posse.
Sure enough.
In the main pit surrounding the stripper pole, a waiter deposits an ice bucket of champagne in front of a group of guys. Yeah, there are women around, too, but most of them are on the periphery-chairs pushed back from where the men gather, talking mostly to one another. Glasses of red wine sit in ranks on an adjacent table.
I recognize Gugu right off-Vicky emailed me his photo. Early twenties, wearing a two-hundred-dollar T-shirt under a military-style jacket, except the camouflage pattern is done in acid-bright greens and reds. Some designer bullshit, no doubt. He’s a pretty boy, long bangs hanging limply over one eye like a teen idol, but when I look closely, I see Sidney’s bony nose and high cheeks. There’s a girl hanging on his shoulder who looks like she’s about sixteen, wearing a rhinestone-studded trucker cap with skull patches, ed hardy embroidered in red on the brim. Next to her is another girl with pigtails who looks even younger, dressed in some kind of designer sailor suit-high-fashion anime.
Sitting on the left is a white guy. Thirty-something. Maybe older. Dark hair, broad face. Good-looking, I guess. Heavy-lidded eyes, like he’s half asleep or drunk. Full red lips, curved in a slight smile.
The “bad influence.” A guy by the name of Marsh Brody.