‘Ast bilak moiparalan/Suh akvlar tantangusar.’ How did he know what to say? How did he know what ancient words would cause the orb to understand him, to be aware of his presence? Raistlin did not know. He knew only that—somehow, somewhere—inside of him, he did know the words! The voice that had spoken to him in Silvanesti? Perhaps. It didn’t matter. Again he said the words aloud.
‘Ast bilak moiparalan/Suh akvlar tantangusar!’ Slowly the drifting green color was submerged in a myriad of swirling, gliding colors that made him dizzy to watch. The crystal was so cold beneath his palms that it was painful to touch. Raistlin had a terrifying vision of pulling away his hands and leaving the flesh behind, frozen to the orb. Gritting his teeth, he ignored the pain and whispered the words again.
The colors ceased to swirl. A light glowed in the center, a light neither white nor black, all colors, yet none. Raistlin swallowed, fighting the choking phlegm that rose in his throat.
Out of the light came two hands! He had a desperate urge to withdraw his own, but before he could move, the two hands grasped his in a grip both strong and firm. The orb vanished! The room vanished! Raistlin saw nothing around him. No light. No darkness. Nothing! Nothing...but two hands, holding his. Out of sheer terror, Raistlin concentrated on those hands.
Human? Elven? Old? Young? He could not tell. The fingers were long and slender, but their grip was the grip of death. Let go and he would fall into the void to drift until merciful darkness consumed him. Even as he clung to those hands with strength lent him by fear, Raistlin realized the hands were slowly drawing him nearer, drawing him into...into...
Raistlin came to himself suddenly, as if someone had dashed cold water in his face. No! he told the mind that he sensed controlled the hands. I will not go! Though he feared losing that saving grip, he feared even more being dragged where he did not want to go. He would not let loose. I will maintain control, he told the mind of the hands savagely. Tightening his own grip, the mage summoned all of his strength, all of his will, and pulled the hands toward him!
The hands stopped. For a moment, the two wills vied together, locked in a life-or-death contest. Raistlin felt the strength ebb from his body, his hands weakened, the palms began to sweat. He felt the hands of the orb begin to pull him again, ever so slightly. In agony, Raistlin summoned every drop of blood, focused every nerve, sacrificed every muscle in his frail body to regain control.
Slowly...slowly...just when he thought his pounding heart would burst from his chest or his brain explode in fire—Raistlin felt the hands cease their tug. They still maintained their firm grip on him—as he maintained his firm grip on them. But the two were no longer in contest. His hands and the hands of the dragon orb remained locked together, each conceding respect, neither seeking dominance.
The ecstasy of the victory, the ecstasy of the magic flowed through Raistlin and burst forth, wrapping him in a warm, golden light. His body relaxed. Trembling, he felt the hands hold him gently, support him, lend him strength.
What are you? he questioned silently. Are you good? Evil?
I am neither. I am nothing. I am everything. The essence of dragons captured long ago is what I am.
How do you work? Raistlin asked. How do you control the dragons?
At your command, I will call them to me. They cannot resist my call. They will obey.
Will they turn upon their masters? Will they fall under my command?
That depends on the strength of the master and the bond between the two. In some instances, this is so strong that the master can maintain control of the dragon. But most will do what you ask of them. They cannot help themselves.
I must study this, Raistlin murmured, feeling himself growing weaker. I do not understand...
Be easy. I will aid you. Now that we have joined, you may seek my help often. I know of many secrets long forgotten. They can be yours.
What secrets?...Raistlin felt himself losing consciousness. The strain had been too much. He struggled to keep his hold on the hands, but he felt his grip slipping.
The hands held onto him gently, as a mother holds a child.
Relax, I will not let you fall. Sleep. You are weary.
Tell me! I must know! Raistlin cried silently.
This only I will tell you, then you must rest. In the library of Astinus of Palanthas are books, hundreds of books, taken there by the mages of old in the days of the Lost Battle. To all who look at these books, they seem nothing more than encyclopedias of magic, dull histories of mages who died in the caverns of time.
Raistlin saw darkness creeping toward him. He clutched at the hands.
What do the books really contain? he whispered.
Then he knew, and with the knowledge, darkness crashed over him like the wave of an ocean.
In a cave near the wagon, hidden by shadows, warmed by the heat of their passion, Tika and Caramon lay in each other’s arms. Tika’s red hair clung around her face and forehead in tight curls, her eyes were closed, her full lips parted. Her soft body clad in her gaily-colored skirt and puffy-sleeved white blouse pressed against Caramon. Her legs twined around his, her hand caressed his face, her lips brushed his.
‘Please, Caramon,’ she whispered. ‘This is torture. We want each other. I’m not afraid. Please love me!’
Caramon closed his eyes. His face shone with sweat. The pain of his love seemed impossible to bear. He could end it, end it all in sweet ecstasy. For a moment he hesitated. Tika’s fragrant hair was in his nostrils, her soft lips on his neck. It would be so easy...so wonderful...
Caramon sighed. Firmly he closed his strong hands around Tika’s wrists. Firmly he drew them away from his face and pushed the girl from him.
‘No,’ he said, his passion choking him. Rolling over, he stood up. ‘No,’ he repeated. ‘I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to...to let things get this far.’
‘Well, I did!’ Tika cried. ‘I’m not frightened! Not anymore.’
No, he thought, pressing his hands against his pounding’ head. I feel you trembling in my hands like a snared rabbit.
Tika began to tie the string on her white blouse. Unable see it through her tears, she jerked at the drawstring so viciously it snapped.
‘Now! See there!’ She hurled the broken silken twine across the cave. ‘I’ve ruined my blouse! I’ll have to mend it. They’ll all know what happened, of course! Or think they know! I—I...Oh, what’s the use!’ Weeping in frustration, Tika covered her face with her hands, rocking back and forth.
‘I don’t care what they think!’ Caramon said, his voice echoing in the cave. He did not comfort her. He knew if he touched her again, he would yield to his passion. ‘Besides, they don’t think anything at all. They are our friends. They care for us—’
‘I know!’ Tika cried brokenly. ‘It’s Raistlin, isn’t it? He doesn’t approve of me. He hates me!’
‘Don’t say that, Tika.’ Caramon’s voice was firm. ‘If he did and if he were stronger, it wouldn’t matter. I wouldn’t care what anyone said or thought. The others want us to be happy. They don’t understand why we—we don’t become—er—lovers. Tanis even told me to my face I was a fool—’
‘He’s right.’ Tika’s voice was muffled by tear-damp hair.
‘Maybe. Maybe not.’
Something in Caramon’s voice made the girl quit crying. She looked up at him as Caramon turned around to face her.
‘You don’t know what happened to Raist in the Towers of High Sorcery. None of you know. None of you ever will. But I know. I was there. I saw. They made me see!’ Caramon shuddered, putting his hands over his face. Tika held very still. Then, looking at her again, he drew a deep breath. ‘They said, “His strength will save the world.” What strength? Inner strength? I’m his outer strength! I—I don’t understand, but Raist said to me in the dream that we were one whole person, cursed by the gods and put into two bodies. We need each other—right now at least.’ The big man’s face darkened. ‘Maybe someday that will change. Maybe some day he’ll find the outer strength—’