Provided we escaped the South Side in one piece.
The riot’s devastation spread over 140 blocks, spilling into Slumdale, and we had to get across town to Smith’s room. The minister was now on the West Side, preaching brotherhood and peaceful revolution on streets that ran slick with blood. Black blood, as if in the city (any city) ritual acts of murder had to be repeated night after night to renew the city itself. I feared the fires might burn forever, akin to brimstone, for the influence of the neocolonial empire King so relentlessly criticized stretched from Southeast Asia to Rhodesia, Colombia to Watts. One block from the minister’s place, the police were shoving women and children into paddy wagons. Teenagers tossed Molotov cocktails at squad cars. At the corner of Sixteenth two white patrolmen weighted down by duty-belts chased a black teenager in blue jeans and a baseball cap through clouds of tear gas eerily backlit by the blaze from a torched pawnshop. Looters spilled from the building, hauling away portable Motorola televisions, shotguns, bolt-action rifles, and radios piled high in wobbly-wheeled shopping carts.
When the boy slipped on broken glass from the store’s shattered window the cops fell upon him, cracking his bones with a flurry of blows I felt echo through my own body. My stomach clenched. Spotting another looter, the cops took off, leaving the boy bleeding on the sidewalk. As in a dream, I watched myself running toward the spot where the boy lay rocking back and forth, his legs drawn up to his chest. He was blinded by blood streaming into his eyes. Teeth hung loose in his head. “Don’t move,” I said. “Let me help you, brother.” I reached down, holding out my right hand so the boy could rise. Without warning, he kicked straight up at my knees, bringing me crashing to the sidewalk. I felt blows falling across my face, breaking my glasses. He buried his shoe in my stomach. I felt his fingers snaking through my pockets, emptying them of my wallet, keys, coins. I thought, All right, now he’s finished. But I was wrong. He began kicking me again, intent on killing me for the thrill of it. I could barely see, but I crawled to the curb, pulling myself along the glass-sprinkled concrete to a parked car, and rolled under it, only to feel his fingers tighten on my right ankle. He pulled me back into the open, bringing his heel down on my back. I knew then I was going to die. Just another casualty of the night’s rioting. I saw him reach behind his back into the waistband of his trousers, and as if by magic a gleaming switchblade appeared in his hand, which he raised high above his head, his eyes glittering to slits as he chose the spot on my chest where he would bury the blade. Then, miraculously, I heard a crack like wood snapping cartilage. The boy cried out. Moments later, he was gone, blending back into the night, replaced by Chaym Smith, who stood above me, breathing heavily and holding a two-by-four he’d found in the street and shouting for me to give him my keys and get in the car before we all were mistaken for rioters and rounded up with the rest.
“Thank you—”
“Sama-sama.”
“What?”
“I said you’re welcome, in Indonesian. Just get in the goddamn car, Bishop.”
“Chaym … if you hadn’t stopped him—”
“Uh-hunh, I know. You’d be dead. C’mon, let’s go.”
Smith slid over from the passenger side to the driver’s seat and hunched over the wheel. Still shaken, unable to keep my hands from trembling, I gathered my things off the pavement and climbed in back behind Amy, who was holding a shopping bag full of King’s old clothing. I fumbled through my coat, hoping I still had the three- by four-inch copy of the King James Bible, a gift long ago from my mother, which I carried as a kind of talisman for times of trouble, or just to study when I rode the subway. Not that I really felt much anymore when I fingered the Books tissue-thin pages. Try as I might, I no longer could breathe life into the vision the Bible embodied — or, for that matter, into any system of meaning, though I desperately wanted to, and always kept the Book nearby out of habit, often just letting its pages wing open to a passage selected by chance, hoping someday it would speak to me again.
Amy turned round in her seat and removed my glasses, which were dangling off my face, then took one of the minister’s handkerchiefs and held it against the fresh cuts on my forehead. “Oh, Matthew,” she groaned, “why didn’t you stay by the car?”
“Yeah,” said Smith, “you’re lucky I decided not to wait for you and came on my own. You owe me one, Bishop. Don’t forget that. And what the hell d’you think you were doing anyway?”
“I was just trying to help,” I said. “He probably thought I was the police coming back.”
“Sure,” said Smith, “that’s why he was cleaning out your pockets, right?” He laughed wickedly. “Guys like you got a lot to learn. You really do. Good thing you weren’t in Korea with me. The enemy just loved would-be missionary types like you. Know what those crafty bastards would do if five of us were out on patrol? They’d wound two Yanks, knowin’ that’d end the fight because it would take three men to get the injured back to the base. And we had to get them back, bein’ Americans and Christians and all that. They counted on it. They saw it as a weakness that we couldn’t leave our own behind. And you know what else I saw, Bishop? You know what they’d do when they killed a black soldier and a white one? They’d cut off their heads, put the white one on the black man’s, body and the black one on the white boy. It was a joke, okay? I saw that, and it showed me there’s two kinds of people in this world. Predators and prey. Lions and lunch. You see it any other way, buddy, and people will chump you off.” He glanced back at the little book I held. “If you’d been through half of what I have, you’d put that Bible away and learn what time it is — or learn how to read it right.”
“That’s unfair,” said Amy. “Matthew was just trying to help that boy.”
“Yeah, and you saw what happened. Some people can’t be helped. I know that. You reach down to pull somebody up, he’s liable to drag you down to the bottom with him, then spit on you to boot. Did I hear you call him brother?” Smith chortled, his head tipping back. “You didn’t even know his name! Did you call him that ’cause he was black, or was that a church thing? You ever thought about what brothers are really like? Romulus and Remus, say. Or Jacob and Esau? How they can hate each other, especially if one is doing better? See, if I were you, I’d forget about that brotherhood malarkey, and remember what they said during the French Revolution. Fraternité ou la mort. What I’m saying — and you may not like this — is that in the Struggle, who you are is less important than what you are: a splib, an outcast united to others by oppression, by blood, and let me tell you, buddy, that’s one frail, forced confederacy, with some brothers and sisters who can be downright scary when they want to close ranks against the racist enemy, some of ’em all but saying, Be my brother or I’ll kill you!”
“No,” Amy said, shocked. “How can you say that? I thought you said you wanted to preach.”
“What’d you think I was just doing?”
“I mean, be a right and proper minister!”
“Oh … well, I did. Once.”
“What about now? Last night you talked differently. You were almost begging for help. But tonight you don’t sound like the same person at all. Which are you?”