Click. Buzz.
It took Moses a while to realise that the call had not been for him but for Elliot. Thinking about it, it had to have been for Elliot; it had the same eerie theatrical vindictiveness as the white arrows and the skinned pool-table. Even so, it chilled him. Suddenly he needed to talk to somebody. If he used the phone again he could erase the memory of that voice.
He picked up the phone and dialled Gloria’s number. He let it ring twenty times before replacing the receiver. He wondered if she was asleep already or just not answering.
He went to bed and tried to read. The words jumped on the page. None of their meaning registered. After ten minutes he switched the light off. The darkness buzzed like a phone left off the hook.
There were no more calls.
The next day he told Elliot. Elliot shrugged. ‘That’s what I said. We’ve been getting phone-calls.’
Something had fastened on to Elliot during the past few days and sucked all the colour out of his face. He looked grey. Even his gold medallion looked grey.
‘Everything all right, Elliot?’ Moses asked.
Elliot jerked forward in his chair and stalled as if the clutch controlling him had slipped. ‘None of your fucking business, all right?’
Moses stared at him. ‘Well,’ he said, ‘I just thought I’d let you know, anyway,’ and moved towards the door.
Elliot leaned back. He pushed the tip of his tongue between his front teeth, worked it in and out of the gap. ‘Hey, Moses?’ he called out. ‘If there’s any trouble at night, call this number.’
He slipped a piece of paper across the desk. Moses walked back and picked it up. Seven digits. A perfectly normal London number.
‘Who’s this?’ he asked.
‘Me,’ Elliot said. ‘Sometimes.’
He smiled craftily. But as far as Moses was concerned Elliot had just let him know that he was worried.
*
Thursday came. The sun was shining. Clouds lay in white clumps on the clean blue surface of the sky. When the doorbell rang at midday, Moses leaned out of his window and saw Mary below. Light showed as silver on the black gloss of her hair (she had dyed it again). A black skirt swirled around her pale calves. He called her name and she looked up. She didn’t answer, though. She didn’t approve of people shouting in the street. For somebody who had often been described as bohemian, eccentric even, she could be surprisingly conventional at times. But she used that. The two qualities ran alongside each other in her like trains running on parallel tracks, and she could switch at will. It was part of her struggle to resist classification. Two or three times he had heard her mention some scene from an old black and white movie. A man’s talking to a woman. The man’s so wrapped up in what he’s saying that he doesn’t notice that he’s boring the woman. In the end the woman becomes so thoroughly bored that she leaves the room. The man carries on talking, utterly oblivious, utterly foolish. It’s quite a while before he swings round to discover that he’s alone, that he’s been talking to an empty room. The moral? In Mary’s words: Nobody should ever take anybody else for granted. The implication being, least of all me.
But Moses couldn’t imagine anyone taking Mary for granted. Even her most mundane remarks seemed provocative somehow. Perhaps because you wouldn’t have expected them to come from her. Sentiments expressed by millions of people every day. Sentiments like, ‘I love my husband,’ or, ‘Nobody could ever take my children away from me’ (yes, sometimes she sounded like a soap-opera). She stamped them as her own only by the blunt unadorned categorical way she spoke. When Mary talked of basic emotions she left no room for doubts or indecision. To Mary, this proved that she was a perfectly ordinary person. To Moses, it set her apart from just about everybody he had ever known.
He wanted to understand her more, especially when he was drunk, but she always turned his questions round. The answers, when they came, told him more about himself. He didn’t want to hear about himself. So he persisted. And learned even less.
Only last Sunday he’d said, ‘I want to know how you work. I want to know what goes on inside your head.’
Frowning, she’d replied, ‘I’m not a machine, you know.’
‘Maybe that’s what it is about you. You’re not set in your ways like — ’
‘Like other people my age?’
‘I wasn’t going to say that.’
‘There’s something you’ve got to understand, Moses. I’m not a bloody stone. I change. I’m changing right now. Right in front of your eyes.’
‘Stones change too.’
‘That’s what I’m saying. Everything changes. Everyone changes. I’m just the same as everyone else. Stop treating me like a freak.’
His patience had come apart then. ‘You never admit anything, do you? You’ve always got to have the last word.’
She’d stared at him thoughtfully. ‘You know, one day you’ll realise I’m right about me and you’re wrong and then you won’t be honest about why you don’t want to see me any more.’
He’d denied this, but she’d given him one of her knowing looks.
‘You’re going to have to have a lift installed,’ Mary said.
He turned and saw her standing in the doorway. She didn’t sound out of breath, not in the slightest. She must have rested halfway up. He smiled to himself at this little insight.
‘A drink?’ he said.
‘Maybe just one,’ she said. ‘For the road.’
He poured two whiskies. It was the first time she had seen where he lived. While he hunted for money and keys, she explored, glass in hand, lips pressed together. She walked into the kitchen and the bathroom, then emerged again, crossed the lounge, and disappeared into the bedroom. He heard her pause inside the door, take two or three quick steps, and pause again.
When she returned she asked him, ‘How often do you wash your sheets?’
‘I don’t know,’ he stammered. ‘Not very often, I suppose.’
‘ How often?’
‘About once every three weeks.’
‘You should leave them longer,’ she said. ‘They smell wonderful.’
He stared at her.
She gave him a radiant, brazen smile. ‘So where are we going today?’
*
As they went through the cemetery gates they passed an old man in blue overalls. He was shovelling dead leaves on to a slow-burning fire. They said good afternoon to him. He scowled, grunted something. They walked on, stopped beneath the memorial to Karl Marx. Somebody had daubed his massive Humpty Dumpty head with red paint. Perhaps that explained the man’s black mood. In the distance, through the trees, Moses could hear the laughter of children.
Mary was smiling. ‘When I brought Rebecca here, two years ago, she stood in front of Marx and looked very puzzled. After a while she turned to me and said, “How come he got a big statue like that just for inventing a boring old shop?” She thought he was the Marks in Marks and Spencer’s. It was one of her first jokes.’
Moses could picture Rebecca squinting up at Marx, he could picture the indignation, the disbelief, on her small face. He too smiled.
They turned down an overgrown path between two rows of uneven leaning gravestones. Grass sprang up, stiff and blond as straw. Brambles clung to Mary’s stockings. They watched a squirrel steal a red carnation from a wreath and eat it in the shadow of a bush. The old man’s fire shook slow blue smoke into the air like incense. Mary sat down at the foot of a tomb and lit a cigarette. Moses sat down next to her. As he read the inscription on the stone — In Memory Of Our Beloved Father — something came free in him. Words took shape.
‘It’s pretty strange,’ he said, ‘not knowing where your parents are.’