“And how was that?” This was Lydia, the resident expert. “Did you have to sleep with everybody?”
“I'd hate that,” Star said. “I'd really hate that.”
“Sounds groovy to me,” Lydia said. “The more the merrier.”
Reba laughed out loud. She took a long swallow of the wine and passed the bottle to Lydia. “That's what you say now, but believe me-I mean, before I met Alfredo, I was pretty wild, like I was in heat all the time, like the only way I could relate to men was in bed, but that got old fast. Real fast. Right, Merry? You agree?”
“It stunk. There were way more guys than girls and Tommy was like a ghost or something-I hardly ever even saw him. I was on my back half the time, and if I refused some guy, one of the family members, I was the one who was uptight, I was the one spreading the bad vibes and poisoning the atmosphere, because that was the way it was. The bedroom down the hall. Take off your clothes. Five A.M., five P.M. Let's ball.” She paused, and her voice sank right down through the floorboards. “Everybody had jobs, like mop the floor, cook the pasta, go out and bring in a paycheck. My job was to fuck. Like a machine. Like a goat.”
“Where's Verbie when we need her-Women's Lib, right?” Reba said, missing the point. As usual.
Star could feel her heart going, and it was as if she were back in the supermarket again with fifteen dollars' worth of cheese shoved down her coat. “It's the Keristan Society all over again.”
“The who?”
But she was staring out the window now on a scene from another century, the sharpedged pines and a farmhouse framed in its own pale glow and the shadow of the barn beyond. They were asleep in there, the farmer and his wife, the kids, the dog. There would be an old oak table in the kitchen, heavy pink Fiesta ware set out for breakfast, a calendar on the wall. The refrigerator would clank on, it would hum, and then shut down, and no one would even notice, not even the dog.
“I don't know,” she said. “It's not important.”
They reached the border sometime after two. Star was asleep, curled up awkwardly in one of the bunks, and she felt the bus shift beneath her as if the whole world were in motion, then it shuddered and came to a halt, and she was awake. They were off on the side of the road, parked beneath a sign that said INTERNATIONAL BOUNDARY 2 MILES. Norm was coming down the aisle, rousing people from sleep. “It's the border, people, come on, wake up,” he was saying, his face a pale bulb hanging in the gloom, his shoulders hunched and arms dangling as if he'd lost the use of them. This was it. This was the big moment. If they couldn't get into Canada, then they couldn't get to Alaska, and Drop City was dead.
Marco was in the bunk beneath her, and he woke with a start. She reached a hand down to him, her hair trailing, and edged over the side of the bunk so she could see him. He was staring at nothing, the moistness of his eyes just catching enough light to show her they were open. “Hey,” she said, as gently as she could, “we're here. Time to wake up.”
“Shit,” he said, and he brushed her hand aside. “Already?” He pushed himself up and slid out of the bunk all in one motion, and then he was running his fingers through his hair and tucking in the tail of his shirt. People were shuffling around like zombies, bumping into one another, cursing softly. The dogs began to whine. Somebody sneezed. “Where's Ronnie?” he said, and there was an edge to his voice she didn't recognize. “Where's Pan? Is he here?”
For the past two days all he could talk about was the border, the border this and the border that, and how he ought to sneak across in the trunk of the Studebaker or find someplace out in the middle of nowhere where he could just step from one country to the other as easily as moving from the front of the bus to the back. Star had tried to talk him out of it, because if they opened the trunk-and why wouldn't they? — they'd nail him on the spot, but there were thirty people on the bus, not to mention two dogs and a cat, and the chances of their checking on everybody were slim. Especially in the middle of the night.
“You don't need Ronnie,” she said. “Just sit tight, that's all. Everything's going to be fine,” she said, and then she said it again, as if the words could make it so.
“All right,” Norm was saying, and his voice was up to its usual volume now, somewhere between a shout and a roar, “all right, everybody just listen. The border's two miles ahead, and we are just going to breeze right on through it, no hassles, no worries. You know what we are? All of us? We're a rock band.”
Weird George let out a groan.
“No, we are. And we've got big dates in Fairbanks and Anchorage, and where else? I don't know, Sitka. You people with guitars get 'em out, and a little strumming or even a group sing here would be nice, you know what I mean? Know what I'm saying?”
It was two-thirty in the morning. They were at the Canadian border. Nobody felt like singing.
“All right. Just let me do the talking. And you chicks-come on, you chicks, you Drop City Miracles-try to look sexy, right? You're the backup singers.”
That got a laugh, and you could feel the tension lift. People started chattering, the guy-_cat__-everybody called Deuce pulled out his harmonica and started a slow blues, and pretty soon Geoffrey joined him on guitar and two of the back-of-the-bus girls, Erika and Dunphy, let loose with a few random verses of “Love in Vain.” Norm took his hunched shoulders back up to the front of the bus, where Premstar was perched on the driver's seat like a present he'd forgotten to unwrap. Marco gave Star a look, and then followed him. “Norm,” he was saying, “listen, Norm-I need to talk to you a second.” She slid down from the bunk, afraid suddenly, and went after him.
Then the door of the bus wheezed open and the three of them-Norm, Marco and Star-were standing by the roadside with Ronnie and Mendocino Bill while the Studebaker idled behind its headlights in a pall of exhaust. A light rain spat down out of the sky and made the pavement glisten. Someone had broken a bottle here, and Star had to be careful where she put her feet. “So what do you want to do, then,” Norm said, “walk across? That wouldn't draw any attention or anything, would it?”
“If they catch me I go to jail.”
“Relax, man, nobody's going to catch you. It's Canada, that's all. Bunch of hicks, right, Pan? Am I right? Star?”
The Studebaker's headlights threw a cold lunar glare on Marco's face. He ducked his head as if the Mounties were already on him, snapping whips. “What about Pan's car? The trunk, I mean?”
Norm shook his head very slowly. His eyes jumped behind the lenses of his patched-up glasses. “We used to sneak into the drive-in like that. I think we got two cats and a chick in there one night, and then I couldn't get the trunk open.” He laughed. “That was pretty wild. That was one wild night, let me tell you.”
Ronnie said, “I don't think so. If they like open the trunk, then I'm the one in deep shit, right? I'm a smuggler, right?”
Nobody said anything. Star took hold of Marco's arm. “Come on,” she said. “Let's get back on the bus. Let's get it over with.”
“Plus, I've got all my dope back there-_our__ dope. Inside the spare tire. And that would be a major fuckup. I mean, if they found that.”
Lester's Lincoln pulled up then, and a moment later Dale Murray ratcheted in on his bike. Suddenly there was a whole lot of engine noise. And fumes. Lester rolled down the window. “So what now?” he said. “We go across, or what?”
“Fuck, I'm freezing,” Dale Murray said. He was wet through, his hair painted to both sides of his face. “We got to stop and camp or something or I think I'm going to fucking die.”
“We go across separately,” Norm said, “because we don't want to give them a whole hippie freak show all at once. Ronnie, you're first. Then you, Lester. And, Dale, you go through anytime you want, just make like you don't know us-nobody knows anybody, dig? — and when we're on the other side we'll see if maybe we can't get the bike aboard the bus somehow. How does that sound? Is it a plan?”