"Finalmente!" said a voice both gentle and rough.
He sat on a soft padded settee at the far end of the room, in the shaft of light brought in by the skylight.
"Vengas aqui, mi hija." When I didn't move, he sighed, and resorted to English. "Come here, my child."
I approached across the black marble floor, cold beneath my bare feet.
The old man had a glow about him that had nothing to do with the light of the sun. It was an inner radiance. He was truly old―perhaps as old as poor Miss Leticia had been―but the vitality in his eyes was like that of a man in his twenties.
"Did you enjoy your pascua de florida? Your feast of flowers? I can still smell the blossoms on your feet."
"It was . . . uh . . . interesting."
"Forgive me," he said. "I am a man in love with ceremony."
Now that I was just a few feet away, I could see that his skin was marred by deep wrinkles, but that didn't lessen how handsome he was. Looking at his face was like looking at an ancient oak in the first days of summer―lined and wizened, and yet as gloriously green as a sapling.
But when he looked at me, clearly he saw something different. He saw my ugliness.
"Ah! That face, that face!" he said. "So many tears your face has drawn from you, verdad?"
"My face is my business," I told him.
"This is true. But you are here, so that makes it my business as well." Then he gestured all around him. "For you, I have covered all my mirrors."
So, it wasn't artwork on the walls around us.
He narrowed his keen eyes and took in the features of my face. "Hmm," he said. "Que feo. What Aaron says is true. You are very, very ugly―but do not think you are special in this. You are not the first, you are not the last. And I have seen uglier."
If anyone else had said that, I would have called them a liar, but there was such authority in the old man's voice, everything he said rang true. There was a certain light to Abuelo, too. Not something I could see, but something I could feel, as irresistible as the pull of gravity, yet somehow a bit dangerous, like radiation. I'd call it graviation. G-R-A-V-I-A-T-I-O-N. Good word.
He smiled at me as if he could read my thoughts. If he told me he could, I would have believed him. I almost wanted him to, because it was so hard to put into words all the thoughts and feelings I had had since opening my eyes to this wonderful place.
"Why did you bring me here?" I asked.
He waved his hand. "I did nothing. You brought yourself here. Like a salmon swimming upstream, there was an instinct in you to find this place. My letter merely reminded you."
I gasped. "You wrote the letter!"
The old man smiled, showing teeth as pearly white as his suit. "I wrote it, yes. But it was Aaron who convinced me you were worth the effort."
"Aaron convinced you? But... I never met Aaron before."
The old man raised his eyebrows. "Well, Aaron knows of you, even if you do not know of him. And when you came through the mountains, it was he who was waiting with the monks for you."
"The monks?"
"Not your concern. They found you, freezing to death in the rain, and they brought you here. That's all you need to know."
I thought back to that rainy night. Was it yesterday? A week ago? How long had I been unconscious? "My parents are probably looking for me!"
"Let them look," Abuelo said. "They will not find you here. The earth itself conspires to keep this place hidden." Then he added, "Besides . . . do you truly believe they will search for long?"
I wanted to be furious at the question. I wanted to think my parents would tear the world apart trying to find me ... but did I really believe that? My father, who secretly thought I was the curse that brought him a life of failure? My mother, to whom I'd been such a burden for all these years? How long would they try to find me? How much did they truly want to?
I turned my eyes down to the black marble floor. "I don't belong here," I told him. "I might not belong out there, but I definitely don't belong here."
"Perhaps this is true," the old man said, "but you are welcome to linger awhile. Who knows, in time, you may see things differently, verdad?"
I didn't think so, but whether I belonged here or not, I couldn't deny the sense of acceptance I felt. "Thank you," I said. I would stay, I decided. At least until the ugularity of my face sucked away their acceptance, and poisoned them against me, as I knew it eventually would.
13
It's a beautiful life
I stayed in that little one-room cottage at the opposite end of the valley from Abuelo's mansion. When I had arrived, there was nothing in it but a bed, but each day someone else brought a single gift. The daily gifts were another one of Abuelo's rituals, I suppose. No one seemed to keep a calendar, so I marked the days by counting the things in my cottage. A table and chairs, a handblown glass oil lamp, a dresser.
Each morning I awoke to find Aaron sitting on my porch, waiting to take me to someone else's home for breakfast. I have to admit I liked that he was there, but all that attention from him made me self-conscious.
"Don't you have something better to do than babysit me?" I asked him on the third morning.
He shrugged. "There's plenty of time to do the things I've got to do," he said. "Besides, it's not babysitting."
I wondered whether it was his assigned chore to be my escort, or if he did it because he wanted to.
Time was spent differently here than in the outside world. Some people had generators to make electricity, but they rarely used them, which meant there were no televisions, or video games, or any of the usual things people use to occupy their time. You might think that would be horrible, but it wasn't. Or at least it wasn't in De León. People kept busy, each in their own way―and wherever I went, people invited me to be a part of whatever they were doing.
In Harmony's house, for instance, some of the women would get together and weave with her. She invited me in and taught me how to do it, creating that fine fabric for the clothes they wore. They sang while they wove, and taught me the songs so I could sing along. We worked the hand looms to the rhythm of the song. It wasn't exactly what you would call fun, but it was soothing, and satisfying in a way I can't explain. I sat there all day and hadn't realized that hours had passed until Harmony lit the lamps. I left that evening feeling like I'd accomplished something great.
I quickly learned that everyone had their place in De León―or I guess I should say everyone made their place. There were Claude and Willem―two craftsmen who carved furniture with so much love, you could just about feel their embrace when you sat in one of their rocking chairs. There was Haidy, who spent her days writing poetry, and her husband, Roland, who set it to music. Maxwell, the storyteller, would come to a different house each night and entertain better than the finest film, in return for being fed.
Even Aaron, the youngest of the men, at sixteen, had found his niche.
I asked him about it late one afternoon. We were sitting out by the small fishing pond, watching the early twilight sky change colors.
"What do you do all day?" I asked. "I mean, when you're not being my personal social director. Do you go to school? I don't see a little red schoolhouse anywhere in the valley."