"There is no school," he told me. "At least not the kind you're thinking about."
"Well then, this must be heaven after all."
"We learn from each other," he explained. "And what we can't teach, we can read up on in Abuelo's library. Abuelo even gives lectures on everything from philosophy to physics―whatever his current interest is."
"I guess when you've been around as long as he has, you become an expert in just about everything," I said. "But you still haven't answered my question. How do you fit in here?"
Aaron smiled. "When I'm not your social director, I'm everyone else's," he said. "I'm in charge of what Abuelo calls 'purposeful amusement.' I create games and challenges. I set up things to do when everyone gathers in Abuelo's mansion, or for the picnics on Sunday afternoon."
"So, then, you're a"―I tried to come up with the perfect word―"a recreologist."
He looked at me funny, and his expression made me laugh.
"Recreologist," he said, mulling it over. "I like it. You're good with words." He held eye contact with me, and it made me uncomfortable. What was it with these people? They were all gorgeous, and yet they could all stand to look at me. People simply didn't do that. Not even Momma, who could withstand my face better than anyone, was able to hold my gaze that long.
"Don't look at me like that!" I said, almost angry about it, because it defied everything I knew about myself. "Look at me like a normal person does, which is not looking at all!"
I stood up, knowing my face was getting red and blotchy. I stood at the edge of the little pond and dared to catch my reflection off the surface. I saw myself for only a few moments―my tainted, awful image―then the water defended itself as it always did, clouding over so it didn't have to reflect the likes of me. I growled in frustration.
"I wouldn't worry about that," Aaron said, seeing the sudden murkiness of the water. "It doesn't mean anything."
At that moment I wanted to throw him into the pond! "How can you say it doesn't mean anything? How many other people here fog water just by looking into it?"
"Abuelo says once you see a person's soul, you no longer see the outside."
"Abuelo's full of it!" I told him. "I'd like you a whole lot better if you just admitted, like a normal person, that I'm ugly!"
"Fine," Aaron said, getting miffed for the first time since I'd met him. "You're ugly. You're totally, completely, and undeniably ugly. If it makes you happy, I'll shout it to all of De León."
I still felt the flush in my face, but the reasons for it were changing. "It doesn't make me happy," I said quietly.
"Well," he said, offering me the slightest grin, "we'll have to find other ways to make you happy."
I can't quite say what I felt for Aaron during those first days in De León. Was it gratitude? Respect? Awe? It certainly wasn't the same kind of hopeless longing I had felt for Gerardo, and it couldn't quite be love, because I barely knew him. I liked his attention, though, and the way he treated me. Most of the good-looking people I knew were terminally self-centered, but Aaron didn't seem to be that way. He was genuine, he was thoughtful, he was too good to be true―and that kept me suspicious.
He was also very good at what he did. I got a taste of Aaron's "recreology" that first Sunday. He organized all sorts of clever races and contests―and everyone joined in, including me.
It was a Tom Sawyer kind of life in De León, and Abuelo was like our own Hispanic Mark Twain. I told Abuelo that, and he just laughed. "I am partial to Cervantes," he said, and he explained that Cervantes was the Spanish author who had written Don Quixote, a famous story about an old knight who did crazy things, like attack a windmill. "He thought the windmills might be giants," Abuelo said. "I applaud a madman who sees the fantastic in the ordinary."
The point is, life was frozen in De León, in a time that may never really have existed. You might be tempted to call them backward, or ignorant, but you'd be wrong. They knew and understood technology, all the conveniences of modern life, but they simply didn't need any of it. Cars? Why have a car when the valley was only a mile long, and the walk was so refreshing? Electric lights? What was the point, when candles and hearths were so much more friendly and inviting? Telephones? Why not talk face-to-face when so much of communication is body language?
There was simply nothing wrong in De León―and, like I said, that kind of perfection is highly suspect. And then, of course, there were the Seven Mysteries, which made me wonder about the place even more―but I'll get to those later.
Even with my suspicious nature, I quickly fell into the easy pace of life there, and each day I found myself thinking about my old life less and less. It's not like I forgot about my family, or Gerardo, or even Marisol and Marshall... but when your days are packed with people who are genuinely kind and unburdened by their own lives, how can you choose to think of bad times? The thoughts did come, though. Usually at night. I would worry about Momma worrying about me. I thought about how Dad would blame himself because of that stupid deal he'd made with Marshall about the car. I thought of Miss Leticia, and mourned the fact that I hadn't been there for her funeral. But then morning would come, Aaron would be at my door with a smile that appeared to have no ulterior motive, and those lonely night thoughts dissolved like the early-morning mist.
Getting to know everyone in De León, and seeing how well they all fit in, made it more and more obvious to me that I didn't. It was a constant reminder that I'd eventually have to leave. I didn't know where I would go, only that I couldn't go back home. I mentioned this to Aaron, and he just became uncomfortable, and shrugged. The thought of me leaving was the only thing that ever seemed to rattle him―after all, I was the only one here his age, and beggars can't be choosers.
Harmony was much more open when I talked to her about eventually leaving.
"If you find your place among us," she asked, "will you still want to leave?"
I thought about it. "No," I told her, and it was the truth―but I couldn't imagine anything I could do that would be of use to anyone in De León.
After I'd been in De León for a week, my little one-room cottage had become furnished and inviting. There was something missing, though, and I couldn't put my finger on what it could be. It was Aaron who had the insight to see what was really missing from the place.
It was the evening of my seventh day. He had just come over with a wooden board game he had invented and Willem had built for him. Kind of a cross between Stratego and chess. We had just started playing when he looked around the room, and said, "These are all things other people wanted to give you... but since you've been here, you haven't said if there's anything you want."
"Oh, I don't know," I said. "Maybe a radio? A laptop? A TV Guide!" But I was kidding, and he knew it. If I missed any of those things, I only missed them on the surface, because they were familiar. I thought about his question a bit more deeply. Once I did, my answer was easy. "How about a bamboo paintbrush, some ink, and some paper?"
Aaron nodded. "I'll see what I can do."
The next afternoon he came to my cottage all smiles, with a jar of ink in one hand and a brush in the other. "We didn't have bamboo," he said, "so Willem used his lathe to make you one out of birch wood."
I took the brush, holding it like something precious. The pale bristles were soft and tapered to a point, the way I liked it. I could tell it wasn't wolf hair, or even rabbit. "What kind of hair is it?"
Aaron blushed a bit, and scratched the side of his head, revealing a little thin patch on his scalp.