Both Mary and her agreed, the woman who would become Dougray’s wife had to be kind, because they would want her to accept Connor. Since Connie was well in the past, and Dougray had recognized his son, both ladies hoped any wife would not see Connor as a threat.
Just then a servant arrived with a silver tray, offering them much needed refreshments. She let go of Claire’s arm and accepted a glass. She thanked the servant with a nod before turning her back on the card room to observe the rest of the ballroom.
Flora scanned the guests, not sure who she was looking for. While she kept her demeanor outwardly cheerful, her mood was anything but. It was as if she understood the rest of her life would now start her down a path that in some small part of her heart she’d hoped would be different.
When her husband had died from a bee sting of all things, she wondered if Dougray would come for her. She’d waited patiently for her year of morning to finish. And then waited. And waited. He had written to her expressing his condolences but nothing more. In the two years since, he was friendly when they met, but nothing more.
Until earlier today when he had flirted with her in the dining room. What did that mean?
She took a depth breath trying to keep the disappointment at bay. Yet all the revelry, sights, sounds, and tastes of the most exciting night in Scottish history could not shake a strange feeling of detachment.
“Is there someone in particular you are looking for?” Lady Claire asked. “You are staring with a determination I’ve not seen this evening.”
Mary arrived just as Claire spoke. “Lord Glengarry is on the terrace. He asked after you,” Mary replied with a wink.
Lady Claire immediately thought that Glengarry was whom Flora was hunting, when in fact she had no idea who, or what, she wanted.
Liar. You want Dougray for yourself. She inwardly sighed and smiled at the women’s teasing not bothering to dispossess them of their matchmaking. Lord Glengarry would be a more than suitable match for her. He has young children, two boys and a girl, plus an older son, so would most likely not care if she were barren. He was rich, handsome, only a few years older than her and he appeared to be a nice man. She should be honored at his interest.
But her heart was not in it. Her bottom lip trembled. She doubted her heart would be in any match because it only held room for Dougray.
She hoped that when Dougray finally married, she’d be free of his hold, finally knowing that he could never be hers. At the moment her life was at a standstill, still hoping for a miracle. Hoping that one-day he would declare he still loved her. When he finally married, maybe then she could forget him and find a love match she so desired.
Lady Claire looked at Mary and then at Flora. “You have been inside all evening, Lady Flora. Why don’t you go and get some fresh air on the terrace while Lady Mary and I find her husband. I want to thank him for a kindness he did for my father recently. We shall join you outside shortly.”
She knew they were being kind, but she really did not want to face Lord Glengarry. She did not wish to give the man any encouragement until she knew her mind on the matter.
Mary gave her a small push. “Go on. There are many guests out on the terrace there is nothing untoward in seeking fresh air.”
Flora excused herself with a discreet murmur, and with cheeks blazing in embarrassment at their obvious plan, she walked at a sedate pace, toward a future she did not want. Her steps slowed the closer she got to the open doors. Her fingers played with the pearls at her neck as her throat tightened. She glanced over her shoulder and saw the women were no longer watching her, so she ducked sideways and hurried toward the grand curved staircase. Upon walking upstairs she crossed the long portrait gallery and through a few more corridors until she found the small library.
Without thinking she lifted the latch and slipped inside. Several lamps had been lit around the room and the windows at the far end were open letting in a cool breeze. She drifted towards the fresh air not really taking in the room at all.
She stood by the window, her hands on the windowsill taking deep gulping breaths, trying to quell the hopelessness beginning to overwhelm her.
“Sensible minds think alike.”
She jumped out of her skin, turning at the familiar velvety voice. Her heart sped as her eyes found his.
Like a virginal girl she could not get her mouth to work. She stood mesmerized by Dougray’s beauty. He always looked magnificent in his formal attire, but tonight as he sat sprawled on the couch, his midnight blue jacket covering a burgundy waistcoat, with his cravat hanging untied at his throat, his handsome face looked wicked, and dangerous, but so inviting. Her feet wanted to dance across the space dividing them, daintily tumbling her into his lap.
Raven-haired, deep-set blue eyes, coupled with his iron physique, caused her knees to tremble. She’d never wanted him more.
Was she fooling herself or was his self-assured stare full of heat and desire? She needed to sit down.
“I was about to come and find you. I was merely having a few drams for courage.” He patted the settee beside him. With a hint of a devilish smile tugging at one corner of his tempting mouth, he said in a whisper that intimately flowed down her spine, “Take a seat before you fall down.”
She could not move. She could barely breath.
Pinned by his piercing stare, she shivered at the force of the unbridled sensuality in his beautiful eyes. What was he playing at? Lady Claire. Think of Lady Claire.
It was no use. From halfway across the room, the heat of him seemed to engulf her. The enveloping visceral reaction took her by surprise. She’d been alone with him plenty of times and been able to control her response to him. Why was tonight different? Her heart lurched as he gave a knowing smile. “I prefer to stand thank you, I love the fresh air.”
“You’re scared to sit by me,” he goaded.
“Don’t be ridiculous. Why would I be afraid? I’ve known you since I was a young girl.”
His heated gaze ran over her person, from her feet to her face, indecently stopping at certain points along the way. “You are not a young girl any more,” his husky declaration saw her thighs clamp together.
Dougray was an expert seducer but he’d never tried his skills on her before. For one brief year when she was nineteen he’d—courted her—stolen her heart and then stood by and let her marry Iain.
Her heart slammed behind her ribs like a drum’s doomful warning. She would get hurt if she even thought of playing this game with him.
Still, ignoring her own mind’s warning, her feet moved and she sat where only moments ago his hand had been. To her disappointment, and relief, he did not touch her. He was busy pouring her a drink.
“Why did you want to find me?”
He handed it to her. “Drink. You look as if you need it.”
She took a big gulp only to splutter. “Whisky?”
“You’ve been drinking it half your life.”
She nodded as she fanned her mouth. “I wasn’t expecting it, that’s all.” The fiery liquid gave her courage. “I wasn’t expecting you either. I have been waiting outside the card room all evening. How did you leave without me seeing you?”
His devilish grin widened. “Waiting for me?” He leaned close and whispered in her ear, “How intriguing.”
She pulled back. “To introduce you to Lady Claire.” At his puzzled frown, “You are looking for a wife. Lady Claire would be perfect.”
His face blanked and he turned away and downed the rest of the whisky in his glass and set it on the table with a loud clunk. He turned to face her. “I don’t need any help in finding a woman to be my wife.”
Her heart almost stopped beating. He’d found someone. She wasn’t ready for the pain that engulfed her.