Stanley said, “Those were the Campbells.”
For two weeks, they were Steve and the Rattlers. When The Beatles’ Second Album came out, and Steve saw that it had “Long Tall Sally” and “Roll Over Beethoven,” which were by Little Richard and Chuck Berry, he relaxed a bit, and said that they didn’t have to write all their own songs, but the ones they didn’t write had to be by black people. They started practicing “What’d I Say.”
Then the skinny envelopes arrived from Amherst and Williams, the ones that said, “Thank you for applying.” The fat one was from U.Va., but Tim had known he would get in there. Tim wasn’t disappointed. His dad was disappointed, but Tim wasn’t. There was nothing wrong with U.Va. And it was cheap, which was what he said to his mom. Amherst was thirty-two hundred dollars a year, and Williams was thirty-six hundred. His mom said they would have found it, it was worth it. But U.Va. was fine with Tim, not such a change from everything he knew.
With his fate decided and Fiona showing up now and then, Tim maybe felt better than he had his whole life. She started saying, “Ever driven ninety? Ever gotten over a hundred? How fast will this thing go, really? Ever spun out?” Once, at seventy-five, she put her hands over his eyes and laughed. That evening, she showed him a spot on the hill above her house, looking west, toward the Blue Ridge, and while he was kissing her, she unzipped his khakis and put her hand in there. He felt her hand through his shorts, and then she eased his cock out of his shorts, too. He said, “You’re the only person I ever met who is crazier than I am.”
“How crazy are you?”
“Ninety-five, but not a hundred.”
She unbuttoned his shirt, and slid her cold hands across his bare skin and lay her head on his chest. His cock pressed into the rough fabric of her Levis. But that was as far as he got that night.
A week later — it was now May — they were driving in the Comet to Arlington to see The Last Man on Earth, and she kept reaching over and tickling him. For a while he laughed and pushed her away, but she kept at it, so finally he lost his temper, which he had never done before, and shouted, “Quit it! Fuck you!” They stopped at the next light; she opened the door and jumped out. When she slammed the door, he reached over and locked it, and then the light turned green, and as he was pulling away, she vaulted onto the roof of the Comet. He drove. She started pounding. He sped up, but she stayed up there, pounding, and when he pulled over, maybe a mile down the road, and unlocked the door, she jumped down, pulled it open, and threw herself across the front seat. She was laughing. She took his hand, and they went to the movie, which was about vampires. That night, she showed him a way to get into her room — he had to climb a tree, cross a roof, and go through the window she opened. It was worth it.
—
ANDY DIDN’T GO back to Dr. Smith right away. After that first appointment, she decided that he made her nervous — not exactly what he said, but the eyes, the posture, and the hands. After JFK’s assassination (there were only two time periods in the world now, before and after that event), she had started reading a book about frontal lobotomies. As far as Andy could understand it, the doctor lifted the patient’s eyelid, pressed the point of an ice pick against the top of the eye socket, and drove it into the patient’s brain with a hammer. Then he did it on the other side. Dr. Smith struck her as the sort of person who could comfortably do such a thing. But Dr. Grossman was giving up on her — Dr. Grossman had consulted her mentor about Andy’s “lack of affect.” Their only really good session had been as friends, deploring the assassination, expressing a fear they shared that much more was going on in Washington and in the world than most people suspected. After that one, though, Dr. Grossman had gone back to being a professional, and Andy had begun to run out of tales to tell, either as dreams or as childhood experiences. She read about Freud’s patient Dora, and made the mistake of telling one of Dora’s dreams as her own. Dr. Grossman seemed to recognize it, though as a dream Andy thought it was fairly common — returning home after the death of her father, then getting lost, not nearly so interesting as dreaming that a guest came for dinner, ate more than his share, and then went out to the outhouse to relieve himself. When he was halfway to the outhouse, he suddenly swelled up to a monstrous size, jumped onto the roof of the house, and began riding the house like a horse, screaming and shaking the whole place. This dream Dr. Grossman found trivial and without meaning.
And so she returned to Dr. Smith. With the spring, he seemed healthier and not as depressed as he had in the fall. She wrote him a check for five hundred dollars, ten appointments in advance. The next thing she had to do was stand up against the wall in his office so that he could draw pictures of her — front, back, left side, right side. This took the whole of the first fifty minutes. At her next appointment, he laid the pictures on the table in his office. Over each of them, he had superimposed a grid, and by means of this grid, he diagnosed where and to what degree she was out of balance. For example, if she had had disproportionately large hips, he would have diagnosed a blockage between her lower body and her upper body. For these women, the first step to a cure was to lift their shoulders and open their mouths wide, and to make a habit of taking deeper and deeper breaths. As a result, they would eventually speak the truth about themselves.
In Andy, the disproportion went the other way — she had broad shoulders and a prominent bust, but narrow hips, slender legs, and slender feet. She was barely, he said, connected to the earth, and, more important, to her sexuality. How often did she and her husband have sexual relations?
“Almost never,” said Andy.
And did she have sexual relations with other men?
“No,” said Andy.
“Women?”
Andy shook her head.
He took her over to the mats and had her sit cross-legged and close her eyes. He straightened her here and adjusted her there. It hurt. Then he had her think of sex and say five words. The five words she said were “shoe, earth, automobile, bath, and Kennedy.” But she wasn’t thinking of sex — those were just the first words that came into her mind as she looked around his office and out the window. There was a long silence.
She opened her eyes. The position was getting slightly more comfortable, and she took a deep breath. Just then, Dr. Smith sat down on the mat right in front of her, crossing his legs in an Oriental position, with his feet turned upward on his thighs and his knees flat on the mat. After a moment of silence, he leaned forward until their faces were almost touching, and he enunciated the words “Don’t bullshit me, Andrea Langdon. I don’t like it.”
His breath was sour. Andy jerked backward, but then she said, “All right.”
They agreed to meet on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays.
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JESSE WANTED to learn to drive the tractor. He was very sober about this, undeterred by Joe’s previous reactions. “When?”
Joe said, with pretend seriousness, “I don’t know.”
“Did you think about it, Dad?”
“Since when? Since yesterday, when you asked before?”
He nodded.
“No, Jesse, I haven’t thought about it since then. You are eight.”
“Uncle Frank drove Grandpa’s car to Usherton when he was my age.”
“Who told you that?”
“Granny Rosanna.”
“She must be remembering wrong.” He didn’t say that Frank had been thirteen at the time, which was bad enough.
“How old was he?”
“Laws were different then.”
“How old was he?”
“Tell me, is your name Walter?”
“Why do you ask that?”
“Because your grandfather Walter drove his mom and dad crazy asking questions.”