When we began our game that morning, I casually picked up the book about animals and began to leaf through it. I pointed to pictures of a wolf ("susi"), a beaver ("majava"), a rabbit ("kaniini"), and then finally came to the page with the white bear on it.
"White bear," I said.
"Lumi karhu" he said, then added, "vaeltaa." Then he looked at me a little uneasily. I cast about in my mind for words he might recognize that would help me ask him about the white bear. But I realized that nearly all the words I had learned were objects, not verbs. Annoyed with myself for not being better prepared, I decided I would have to settle for knowing the name for white bear in Tuki's language. It was a start.
"Lumi karhu?" repeated. "Or is it 'vaeltaa'?" He nodded at both, and I got the impression that they were two separate names for white bear. I wished I could press him, but I could tell he was uneasy. To distract him I pointed to more animals and we resumed our game.
The next time I brought a book of maps I'd found in the library. It was a beautiful volume entitled Ptolemy's Geographica, and in addition to the maps, which had been wrought in vivid colors and gold leaf, there were detailed drawings depicting the various regions of the world. I had heard of Ptolemy from my father; he was a Greek who had lived centuries before and was one of the first mapmakers. I thought of Father with a pang. How he would have treasured such a book.
I opened to a map of Njord and pointed to the spot where the village of Andalsnes would be found. "Rose from here," I said.
He stared down at it, shaking his head, mystified.
"Tuki from where?" I asked, riffling through the pages of the atlas, a questioning look on my face.
He smiled to see the pages fluttering and reached over to take the book, wanting to do it himself. Gleefully he thumbed the pages, causing them to cascade down. He did it over and over—fast, then slow. Suddenly something caught his eye, and he stopped and paged back to what he had seen.
With a smile he pointed to a small drawing that lay next to the map of the far northern land of ever winter that lay within the Arktik Circle. In this book the land was called Glacialis. In my country we called it Arktisk. The illustration Tuki was pointing to depicted high ice cliffs amid a frozen landscape of snow.
"Tuki is from Arktisk?" I asked.
He shook his head, not understanding.
"Tuki from a land of snow?" I hugged myself, as if cold.
He nodded enthusiastically, hugging himself and pretending to shiver. "Tuki," he said, pointing again to the picture of ice cliffs.
Then I pointed to the wind rose at the corner of the page. "North?" I asked, pointing to the N at the top.
He shook his head, again not understanding. I sighed.
That day I learned the words for snow ("lumi" which explained the first word Tuki had used for white bear) and ice ("jaassa"), and then he came out with the word "Huldre." I wasn't sure, but I thought maybe it was the name of the land he was from. And I got the impression that Tuki was homesick for his icy home; his face had taken on a sad, faraway look.
Several days later we were looking through some other books I had brought from the library. We came to a picture of quite a grand palace in a book of old tales.
"Jaassa" he said excitedly, jabbing his finger at the drawing. I was puzzled, wondering if the same word was used for ice and palace in his language.
"Ice?" I said.
"Ice," he repeated, nodding and pantomiming cold.
Was he trying to tell me he lived in a palace in his icy land? I was becoming frustrated. If only I could ask him straight out what I wanted to know: Where are you from? Who do you serve? Who sleeps in the bed with me at night?
Suddenly I got an idea. I took up a book and skipped to the end, where I found several blank pages. Heedlessly I tore them out, and while Tuki looked on with interest, I found a burnt stick in the fireplace. Using the charred end, I drew three stick figures, two female and a male. I pointed to one and said, "Rose," then to the male figure, saying, "Tuki." Finally I pointed to the third figure, on which I had drawn an apron, and turned to Tuki with a questioning look.
"Urda," he said after a moment, a delighted look on his face because he understood the new game I was playing.
"'Urda,'" I repeated with a smile. Then I turned the paper over and drew, as best I could, a bed. On one side of the bed I drew the stick figure that represented me. I pointed to it, saying, "Rose." I pantomimed sleeping. Then I pointed to the empty space beside me on the bed.
"Tuki?" I asked, though I knew he could not be my visitor, who was at least my size, probably larger.
He shook his head, mystified.
Then I said, "Urda?" My heart was beating fast. I felt I was on the verge of learning something important.
Again he shook his head.
My finger shaking slightly, I once more pointed at the empty space beside me. "Lumi karhu?" I said. "White bear?"
He looked wary, the way he had the first time I had brought up the white bear.
"White bear sleep with me?" I said, my voice cracking a little.
Suddenly the door swung open and there stood the woman called Urda. She looked at us. Then she quickly crossed the room and took Tuki by the wrist. She pulled him from the room, speaking sharply as she did. She did not give me so much as a backward glance.
Troll Queen
SHE IS CLEVER, more so than I gave her credit for. But her efforts to know the truth are fruitless. And I am pleased rather than disturbed by her actions, for they mean that, very soon, her curiosity will overmaster all else and then it shall be over.
He will be mine. Forever.
But she has raised his hopes. Too high. And I cannot help feeling sad for the disappointment he will soon know. (How strange to have such a feeling! If he were still alive, Father would say that is what comes of consorting with softskins.)
But the disappointment will fade; indeed, it will be only a short time before he has no memory at all of the softskin girl he set his heart on.
Neddy
FATHER RETURNED home a week after Rose left.
"How is it that you, all of you, allowed her to return to the white bear?" he asked in disbelief.
"She said she must," I told him. "We could not change her mind. You know Rose when she is set on a thing."
"Was she bewitched, do you think?"
I shook my head. "She seemed herself, Father."
"She was well?"
"Yes. A little thin when she first arrived. But Mother fattened her with all manner of good soups and meat pies."
"Then she is not well fed at this—what did you call it?..."
"Castle in the mountain," I replied. "She said her meals are more than ample. It was homesickness that caused her to lose her appetite."
"Then will she not be homesick again? Oh, would that I had been here!"
We were having this conversation in Father's workshop, just the two of us. Suddenly the door flew open and there stood Mother, pale and breathing hard.
"I have done something ... Oh, Arne..." And she sank to her knees, weeping.
I stared at her in confusion while Father crossed the room and bent over her. "What is it, Eugenia? What has happened?" His tone with her was gentler than I had heard in a long time.