I open the box and smirk. “You got the fancy kind that actually says pregnant or not pregnant.”
“I don’t want there to be any doubt of the outcome,” she replies and crosses her legs, as though we’re talking about the weather.
When I’m finished, I snap the cap back on the end and set it on the countertop to let it do its thing.
“Now talk to me,” Charly says. “We have, like, three minutes to waste.”
“My boobs hurt, I threw up this morning, and when I did the math, I haven’t had a period in about six weeks.”
Her jaw drops. “Gabby, you know how this happens.”
“Clearly,” I reply dryly. “This isn’t planned.”
“You know, you’ve always been a planner. Why didn’t that flow over into the pregnancy arena as well?”
“I guess I like to keep things interesting,” I reply and pick the stick up, stunned when I see Pregnant.
“Charlotte Boudreaux!” I exclaim and throw the stick in the sink, as if it’s a snake and it’s going to bite me any second.
“I guess that means it’s positive? And I’d just like to clarify, I’m not the one who got you pregnant, despite the way you just yelled my name, as though it’s all my fault.”
“What in the hell am I going to do?” I sit on the toilet and hang my head in my hands, and I’m suddenly nauseous again, but I don’t even have time to turn around and get it in the toilet. I grab the trash can and heave in it for what seems like forever. “I’m dying.”
“Not today,” Charly replies with too much cheer in her voice. “But you are going to be a mommy again.”
“Oh, my God.”
“Tell me you’ve been using protection.”
“Of course we do,” I reply and wrinkle my forehead as I try to remember back. “I’m not an idiot. There was one time that we forgot, but he pulled out.”
“Well, you didn’t forget to ovulate.” She sighs and shakes her head. “Van and I really failed you when it came to sex education, sugar. I knew we should have had that talk with you.”
“This isn’t funny,” I reply softly. “What am I going to do?”
“You’re going to tell the man you’ve been having an intimate relationship with that you’re pregnant and go from there. You’re not in this alone, Gabby.”
“I don’t want him to think that I’m trying to trap him.”
“He’d be an idiot to think that.”
I nod, but I’m not convinced. “I need some time to think. I just need to get my own head on straight before I dump this on him.”
“The longer you wait to tell him, the more it’ll feel like a betrayal when you finally do.”
“How about if you tell him and I go to Tahiti?”
She laughs, then rubs her hand over my back in a big circle. “It doesn’t work like that. If anyone’s going to Tahiti, it’s me.”
“Killjoy.”
***
“Mom, I don’t want to go to bed.”
I sigh and look up toward heaven, already exhausted and not in the mood to play the bedtime game with Sam.
“You were supposed to be in bed an hour and a half ago, Samuel Beauregard Boudreaux. I don’t want to have this argument.”
“But I didn’t tell you yet that I love you.”
I narrow my eyes on his angelic face. Angelic my ass. “Yes you did.”
“But I didn’t whisper it so the ghost couldn’t hear me.”
We are in the sitting room. I’m setting out fresh brownies for the guests to have with their wine. Only a few have come down for the wine hour. Rhys is sitting with them.
“There are no ghosts,” I inform Sam with a shake of my head.
“You don’t know that.”
I bite my lip. I have never yelled at Sam over bedtime, and I refuse to start now, but I’m reaching my limit.
“I do know, Sam. I love you, too. Now, go to bed.”
“But I’m not sleepy.”
Rhys and the two guests are watching us like it’s a tennis match.
“Count sheep.”
“But I don’t like to count sheep. They make me puke.”
The guests chuckle. Rhys smiles, the traitor. And I simply hang my head.
“Sheep don’t make you puke.”
“Yep, they do.”
“I don’t care what you count, Sam. Just go to bed.”
“But I—”
“Come on, buddy.” Rhys stands and takes Sam’s hand, then winks at me. “Let’s go find something to count that doesn’t make you sick.”
He leads Sam to his bedroom, and I breathe a sigh of relief.
“I’m sorry about that,” I say to the kind couple who are enjoying brownies and wine. “He’s fought me over bedtime since he was small.”
“Ours did too,” the wife replies with a wave of the hand. “He’ll eventually turn into a teenager, and then all he’ll ever want to do is sleep.”
“I’m looking forward to that day,” I reply with a grin.
“Let him be small,” her husband replies with a kind smile. “It’s over in the blink of an eye.”
I nod and leave them in the sitting room. I’m feeling a little better this evening, but now I’m just full of nerves. Rhys has been his usual happy, affectionate self all day, and all I can think is, once I tell him that I’m carrying his baby, is he going to go running in the other direction?
Because why wouldn’t he? He has no ties to me. He doesn’t owe me anything. He’s already gone above and beyond where Sam and I are concerned.
And I’m not even sure that he won’t be leaving to go back to Chicago any day.
Because I’m too much of a pussy to just ask him.
I finish cleaning the kitchen and prepare the food for Eva tomorrow morning. That will save her some time.
Finally, about an hour later, Rhys finds me in the kitchen. He moves up behind me, grips my shoulders in his hands and kisses my head. “You okay?”
I nod and turn in his arms, wrap my arms around his torso, and hug him close. His heartbeat is strong and sure against my cheek. God, he feels so damn good. Safe. Familiar.
He feels like home.
“Come on,” he murmurs and leads me out of the kitchen, flipping off lights as we go to my private quarters. But instead of walking into the bedroom, he sits on the couch and turns on the TV. “Lie down. Put your head in my lap.”
Well, that sounds like a little slice of heaven. So I do. As soon as my head meets his thigh, Rhys’s fingers are in my hair, combing it softly, rhythmically.
“I wish you’d tell me what’s wrong,” he murmurs. I look up at him, surprised to see so much worry in his bright green eyes.
“I just don’t feel well,” I reply quietly. And it’s the truth; I don’t feel well. “I probably caught whatever Sam had the other day.”
“Do you need to throw up?”
“No.” I smile, and without thinking about it, I cup his cheek in my hand, enjoying the way his light stubble feels against my skin. “You are so handsome.”
“You say that to all the guys who play with your hair when you don’t feel well.”
He always makes me laugh. “Only the ones who have green eyes and sexy arms.”
“You like my arms, do you?”
I nod and sigh as his fingertips scrub my scalp. “You’re good with your hands.”
“I love your hair.”
I love you.
“What do you want to watch on TV?” I ask instead.
“I don’t give a fuck about the TV.”
“Well, you turned it on,” I reply with a frown, and he clicks it off. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing’s wrong. I’d just rather look at you than watch TV.”
“Are you going to stare at me in a creepy way?” His lips twitch, and then tip up in the corner in that way they do when he finds me particularly cute.
“If you think lust is creepy, then yes.”
I laugh out loud, unable to stop the snort that comes along with it. “No, there’s a difference between creepy and lustful.”
“Okay then, just lustful.”
I rest my hands over my belly and the tiny baby sleeping there. I need to tell him. Now is the perfect time. We’re alone, and we’re comfortable.
But instead, I close my eyes and enjoy the way his fingers feel in my hair. No one in my life has ever touched me the way Rhys does.