Her choice.
Why, then, did she feel as empty as the china mug she cradled in her lap, as pale and cold?
Shane walked up to Peter Turvey in the main bar of Turvey’s local and head-butted him in the face. “You, you bastard! You fucking slime!” Blood was running down Turvey’s forehead into his eyes, half-blinding him. “You’re paying for what you fucking did.” Shane brought his fist back level with his shoulder and punched Turvey in the face, breaking his nose. Shane’s own shirt was ripe with blood and snot. “Here!” As Turvey sank to the floor, Shane brought his knee up hard and broke his nose a second time. It had been Pete Turvey and his brothers who had hurled a fire bomb from their car into Nicky Snape’s path, though it was never proved. Shane caught hold of Turvey’s shirt and hauled him off the ground.
“For pity’s sake,” called someone, “leave the poor bastard be. You’ll kill him, sure is that what you want?”
Shane let Turvey go and the back of his victim’s head collided with the bar; then he walked ten feet away, swiveled back, and kicked out at Turvey’s chest, burying the toe of his boot in Turvey’s gut.
“For Christ’s sake,” came the same voice, “call the law, why don’t you?”
Shane slapped two pound coins on the table and ordered a pint of best.
He had it almost finished when the door spun open and Turvey’s two brothers arrived. They had others with them: Gorman, who toured around with the fairs, taking on all comers in the boxing tent; Frankie and Edgar Droy, and Carl Howard, who had served an extra eighteen months in Lincoln for assaulting one of the screws with a bucket, causing him to need twenty-one stitches in his head.
This was what Shane wanted, to be lost in this. They started on him there, inside the bar, beside Pete Turvey moaning over his twice-broken nose and broken ribs. They hauled him off into the urinal, Shane hardly even bothering to fight back now, almost unable to raise his hands. Finally, they dragged him out into the street and left his body slewed across the road, only the sound of police sirens saving Shane from more of a beating.
While a young uniformed officer talked to the landlord, who had seen nothing-maybe a little scuffle, nothing to write down in his little book-Shane was in an ambulance, heading for Queen’s. More than an hour later he would be in the cubicle next to Pete Turvey, waiting for the same doctor to examine their injuries.
It was a bad sign, Resnick knew, when he played Monk last thing at night, the pianist’s fractured attempts at melody obeying no logic but their own. A big man, as Resnick was big, Monk’s fingers stabbed down at single notes, crushed chords into the beauty of an abstract painting, twisted scaffolding seen in a certain light.
Almost an hour ago, certain it would not be there, Resnick had checked through the phone book and found Hannah’s number, written it, for want of somewhere else, in biro on the back of his hand. Now he stared at it from moment to moment, sitting near the phone. One of the cats jumped onto his lap and he shooed him off as “Solitude” came to an end. He pointed the remote control and set it off again.
As though a woman is no more than light at the end of a long and hard tunnel. As though my sweet life needs it.
Wetting his thumb, he rubbed the numbers from his skin.
While this was happening, Norma Snape lay in the dark of her room and when she slept she cried and then when she woke she cried some more.
Seventeen
Where had Bill Aston read that every pound you put on after age forty takes twice as much effort to get off? And eighteen months sitting behind that desk at Police Headquarters hadn’t helped. Fortnightly game of golf aside, for too long the only exercise he had been getting was walking the pair of Jack Russells he and his wife Margaret had bought after their youngest son had left home. Which was why, on the second of January that year, he had instituted his daily swim. There were two pools close to where they lived, Rushcliffe and Portland, and Aston alternated between them pretty much at will. Some days he would stop off on the way to work and put in ten lengths; other times he would call in at home and pick up the dogs, have his swim, and then walk them before returning for dinner.
“Should have got a real dog, Dad,” his eldest had said on a brief visit home. “A labrador or a retriever, something with some size. Chase those two sorry specimens the length of the garden and they’re worn out. Expect you to carry them back.”
But Aston was happy enough with his Jack Russells-they would sit in the back of the car if he went for a drive, the pair of them quite content-and as for Margaret … well, if Bill had thought they were going to be her new babies, he was wrong, but just as long as they didn’t get under her feet …
He rustled his paper aside and peered in the direction of the kitchen clock: still time for one more cup of tea. He reached for the pot.
“Bill,” Margaret said, coming back into the room, “are you sure you want to wear those shoes?”
Aston swung his leg round and glanced down. “What’s wrong with them?”
“I mean with that suit.”
Gray suede with dark blue, why not? “Yes, love,” he said, “they’re fine.”
Margaret was dressed to go out herself, an early appointment at the hair salon on Trinity Square and then she was meeting her friend, Barbara, for coffee in Jessop’s.
“No swim this morning?”
Aston shook his head. “Evenings all week, I should think. While this lot goes on, anyway.”
Impulsively, she kissed him on the top of his head, behind the ear.
“What was that all about?” Aston asked. Unbidden displays of affection had not been Margaret’s style for years, no more than they were his own.
Margaret smiled. “I’m pleased for you, that’s all. Putting you in charge of this inquiry. Something important again. Well, it’s no more than you deserve.”
“Thanks, love,” Aston said drily, finding it difficult to respond. “Right now, though, I’d best be off.”
“You will give me a lift in?”
“Yes, of course.” He swallowed down most of his tea and tipped the remainder into the sink and started to run the tap.
“Leave that, Bill. Sally’s here today, she’ll do all of that.” He looked at her, a dumpy woman with spectacles, wearing a green plaid suit and court shoes, and was surprised by the strength of the conflicting emotions that he felt.
A few minutes later, Margaret beside him, Aston was backing the Volvo out from the drive of the Thirties suburban house they had lived in now for nineteen years. Around him, on either side, neighbors’ gardens glowed green from the previous night’s rain.
“You remember Charlie Resnick?” Aston said. “Seems he knew this Snape, the youth in the inquiry. I’ve got to meet up with him some night this week for a drink. Could well be back a bit late.”
Margaret remembered Resnick well enough, around the same height as her husband but broader-broader still now, most likely. It was years since she’d seen him. But he was a nice enough man, she thought, not foulmouthed like some of them.
“You ought to invite him round, Bill. Supper. He might appreciate that.”
And he might not, Aston thought, but nodded anyway.
“We used to have people round for dinner all the time.”
Aston grunted. “We used to do a lot of things.”
Margaret rested her hand on his knee and tried not to notice when he flinched.
Khan was waiting for Aston in reception. Five years in the force, at twenty-seven he had benefited from the aftershock of a well-publicized case in which two Asian officers had taken the police authority to court for racially discriminating against their advancement. Khan had successfully completed his probation, spent his time in a Panda car and out on the beat; now he was in Central Division CID and confidently expecting to be made up to sergeant. The inquiry into Nicky Snape’s death would broaden his experience. His tasks were to take notes, facilitate the timetable, keep on top of the documentation, and stay alert to any nuances that his superior might miss-and to drive the car.