When they decided it was safe, they drove to the cabin. Roger wore his pistol in his belt.
The place was dark and lifeless. They had not been back in nearly a decade. In the headlights it looked the same, but for some missing shingles. Still sitting in the front yard was the old fountain Laura's father had put in when she and Jenny were kids. It had once been electrified so that water poured out of a vase held aloft on the shoulders of a naked boy. The figure was long gone, and the pool was a shabby basin full of rotted leaves and icy water.
As he pulled the car up, Roger felt like ghosts of their own past returning. In thirteen years they had come full circle.
The key still worked, though the door needed to be shouldered open.
The inside looked untouched from the last time they were here. No signs of a break-in. No vandalism. Nothing out of place. Just cobwebs, dust, and damp frigid air that smelled of neglect. For a second Roger ticked off a fantasy of restoring the place to its original cozy charm and living out their days here. But that wouldn't happen.
The good news was that the electricity and water still worked. The bad news was that the refrigerator did not. That meant he would need to find a cold safe place for the ampules.
While Brett and Laura unpacked their clothes, Roger found one. Then he fired up the furnace to give them heat and hot water for three long showers.
Laura brought Brett to her old bedroom. It was musty, but neat. Laura had packed fresh linens, and while Brett took a shower she and Roger made the beds.
When they were through, she collapsed against his chest. "Almost over," he said.
"Thank God."
He kissed her and held her in his arms for a long time.
Laura showered and got ready for bed while Roger lay down with Brett. It was a ritual that went all the way back to his first big-boy bed. In the early days, they would read to him and chat before he dozed off to sleep.
Roger lay down next to his son and wondered how many more nights they had left.
"Remember what my favorite book was?"
"I sure do, I read it often enough. Jack and the Beanstalk."
They had bought him a large hardbound edition, intricately illustrated. The pictures that fascinated Brett the most were of the giant chasing Jack, and the last page showing Jack walking hand in hand with his mother toward a castle, the golden egg-laying goose waddling beside them.
"What happened to Jack's father?"
"Maybe the giant got to him for stealing his treasure."
"But Jack got him back in the end. Must be kind of neat to have a goose like that. I'd have him lay eggs forever."
There was a moment's silence and he heard Brett sniffling.
"You all right?"
"Yeah. I'm fine." After more silence Brett cleared his throat. "The one thing I didn't like about that story is that Jack's father never made it back."
"It's just a story."
Brett reached over and touched the tube around Roger's neck. "What's going to happen, Dad?"
"We're going to turn ourselves in tomorrow. And they'll use the Elixir for cancer research."
"I mean about us. How can we keep going?"
Roger leaned over and kissed Brett on the forehead. He could smell the lavender shampoo in his hair. "Love is how we go on, not youth potions."
A few moments passed in silence. "Brett, if something happened to me, do you think you'd be okay?"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, if they put me away for a while…"
"How long?"
"I don't know, probably not long. But if we end up with a dope for a lawyer and I got, say, five years, do you think you could take care of yourself and Mom?"
"Yeah, I guess."
"Just what I figured."
Brett said nothing.
"I love you, big guy."
"I love you too."
Long into the dark silence Roger held his son's hand until Brett fell asleep.
When he got up, he checked on Laura in their bedroom.
The light from the hall spilled onto her sleeping figure alone in the bed. She was wearing his old Legion T-shirt from when he coached Brett's Little League team a few years ago.
For a protracted moment he watched her sleep. He wished she were still awake. He wished he could hold her one more time.
He wished he could turn back the clock to that night thirteen years ago when in a fit of fear and self-pity he stumbled down to the cellar and shot himself up.
He wished these things because he knew the day would come when Laura would wake up one morning and over breakfast would announce that although she still loved him she thought it best they live separately because they no longer could fake living by the same clock.
Roger pushed down the sadness and closed the door.
He was exhausted but too wired to sleep. So, he went downstairs and stretched out on the couch.
After a few minutes he flicked on the television just to fill the place with noise. They could still get only a couple stations.
At first he thought it was a movie. People were running in the street, fires were burning, guns were popping in the background. But it was breaking news.
"…stopped firing. I can't see them from where we are," the announcer said, "but the embassy appears secure again." The scene shifted back to the anchor. "Once again, the siege of the American Embassy in Cairo is over. But not before four people were killed and several others injured.
"The incident began late last evening when Islamic fundamentalists held a rally decrying the alleged youth-serum Elixir as a U.S.-Israeli plot…"
Roger sat shocked before the screen. He hadn't even handed it over yet, and the world was insane on rumors.
"Earlier, leaders demanded that the American government make the alleged youth-miracle drug available to all people of the world or risk a Holy War.
"…In response to the spreading unrest, security has been beefed up at U.S. military bases overseas as well as American-owned corporations involved in genetics research.
"Meanwhile, Quentin Cross, president and CEO of Darby Pharmaceuticals in Lexington, Massachusetts, continues to deny his company's past involvement in Elixir. When asked earlier about the now-infamous videos of laboratory animals rejuvenating, he said that the tapes were fakes produced by disgruntled former employees." The scene shifted to Quentin Cross rushing to his black Mercedes in the Darby parking lot.
"How could they have faked the change in the animals, and the front page of The Boston Globe?"
"You can get old newspapers from the library," Quentin said, hustling to his car. "And monkeys all look alike."
"What about how young Roger Glover looks?"
"How am supposed to know? Maybe he knows some good plastic surgeons," he said and drove away.
"Meanwhile, in a White House press conference the president pledged an all-out effort to apprehend Roger Glover, who has so far eluded law enforcement officials in spite of an intensive search."
Roger got up to turn off the set, when something the announcer said stopped him.
"The call for a 'Holy War' is not just coming from the Middle East. The most ominous threat came from a hitherto unknown group calling itself the Witnesses to the Holy Apocalypse."
The scene shifted to a still of Lamar Fisk preaching to his followers.
"According to Professor Dennis Hadlock of the University of Connecticut, an expert on religious cults, such extremist groups view the Elixir serum as the beginning of the end." The camera switched to Hadlock. "Even if Elixir represents an actual scientific breakthrough, to the apocalyptic way of thinking it's blasphemy, a false gift from the devil. A grand lie, and the supreme sign to many that Judgment Day has arrived."
"What are the other signs?" asked the reporter.
"Well, for the Rapture-ready, they're all around us. There's the weather, for one. In the winter it was floods and mudslides reaching biblical proportions in California. Likewise the devastating drought in Africa and recent volcano eruption in central New Guinea. Closer to home, the strange arctic weather that's killing the spring. For those looking for them, these are sure signs of God's wrath. Not to mention the growing global chaos over this. The real danger is-"