“I’m looking for a date,” Logan said to the woman in the doorway of the apartment building. She tossed her dark hair back and looked him over. Already back? her expression said.
The transaction was completely under the table. No credits. Just bullets. Two full clips.
She led him down a dark hall. Campbell was well-built, firm and leggy and all, but she was also tough as nails. At least around her clientele. Logan had thought a few times about asking her out, getting the both of them away from this ratty dump of a tenement, but he quietly laughed the idea away. After what she’s seen me do?
Campbell led him down a well-lit flight of stairs with a murderous-looking black guy watching Logan’s every move. It was the walk of shame, that hallway, these stairs. All for a few seconds of pleasure. But his heart was already pounding with anticipation and he felt himself stiffening.
Down one last hallway, one with several doors and a man guarding each one. Sometimes Logan forgot just how dangerous this was. If the P.Os or the brass ever found out, they’d burn the place to the ground. He’d be discharged, maybe sent away to some awful place where the unwanted were sent. But he told himself: They aren’t women. They’re things. Like a pinup or something. It’s not unnatural.
Campbell opened the last door in the hall and tapped a scarlet nail against her cheek. “Same girl, right?”
He nodded at the floor as a man patted him down. Campbell pulled on a glove and tugged at his pants. The man who’d searched him shone a lantern’s light down there. Logan shut his eyes tight, feeling himself go soft in her hand, resisting the urge to push her away and leave and forget all about it. Finally satisfied, the girl stepped aside and allowed him into the dark room.
There was a candle burning beside the door. Once that door was closed, it was the only light. But it was a soft, small light and it helped with the fantasy. It helped hide some of the sores and the rot, if there was any, which there almost certainly was. The air was thick with a flowery scent. That helped with the odor that occurred once things got going.
And then there was her, splayed out on a mattress with hands heavily bandaged and chained to the wall behind her head. She still had nice legs. They kicked, and the teddy shifted, revealing her in the candlelight.
It was a thin, loose bit of lingerie, easy to pull up over her hips and down past her breasts. Her skin looked clean; she was checked frequently for any signs of blood or open wounds. Occasionally someone would get in with a knife and cut a girl up. Depraved. Guys like that were beaten to a pulp out back and banned from the joint. Perhaps more depraved were those who tried to fuck a girl in the mouth and got it bitten off. They were taken out back, too, but they didn’t return to the lights of the city.
Yeah, at least he wasn’t one of those guys. He knelt before his girl, holding her legs apart with his knees, and undid his pants. There was a bowl on the floor with wrapped condoms from some other decade. He hated that. He and she had both been checked out, so why not let them both feel it? Yes, he still believed that she could feel it, and that it felt good. He knew she would get wet when he touched her. Part of her wanted him.
But still, not a woman. Not rape. Just a thing.
She was heavily made up. He couldn’t tell what she really looked like under there. Just as well.
He pulled the teddy down, and her marbled breasts fell free. Her head started to move. She looked at him with yellowed eyes.
Her teeth were gnashing. They left the teeth in to dissuade kissing. She tossed her head, blonde wig falling in front of her eyes, and she ground her teeth and bucked her hips. She wanted him all right, but not in the way he believed. Logan put that out of his mind and entered her.
She made low rasping sounds. Her hips continued thrusting, and he slowed his rhythm to match hers, as if they were making love. He stared into her face and kneaded her breasts, pinching her nipples to harden them. The hair fell out of her eyes, and she glowered at him, mouth wide open, just waiting for him to make the wrong move and come close enough for a bite. He kept himself propped up and rocked against her, whispering: “I love you. You feel so fucking good, I fucking love you.”
She tugged at her chains and started shaking her head. He knelt to kiss her breasts, keeping his scalp away from her teeth. Moaning, Logan thrust deep into her, sitting up and spreading her legs wide, and he came staring into her defiant dead eyes.
Pulling the condom off with a wet snap, he tied the end and held it between his fingertips. He’d have to take it out with him. Buckling his pants, he turned away from her, not wanting to see her now as the monster she was. Not wanting to acknowledge that he’d fucked it.
Another walk of shame, another night of trudging through the streets and trying to justify it to himself. Eventually he’d smoke some pot and go to sleep, but then the dreams would come, dreams about teeth and tearing and Logan loving it and he’d awaken in the morning in a film of sweat.
There was something very wrong here.
The other girls had too much makeup on, and they looked miserable. Lily sat in the long room and watched as the children in neighboring beds trembled or rocked or just stared blankly at the ceiling. When the man named Finnegan entered, they all flinched and tried to make themselves invisible. He walked from bed to bed, looking each one over. “Is that a bruise? You’re getting too thin. Start eating. I mean it.”
He came to Lily and smiled. “I’m going to take you to meet someone.”
“Who? A new mom and dad?”
“No, not like that. A new friend.”
He reached his hand out, but she ignored it, getting off the bed by herself and pulling on her shoes. “I don’t have any of my stuff,” she told him.
“You’ll get new things,” he replied curtly.
He led her out of the warehouse and into a side street, where he stopped to talk to someone. Lily stayed at his side, not wanting to make him angry like the other girls had. They must have made him mad for him to do whatever he’d done.
Glancing up at the sky, she saw s tiny silhouette in an upstairs window. Another girl, about her age, staring down. Lily waved. The girl didn’t wave back.
There was something wrong with the way she looked; as Lily stared. She began to make out the girl’s features, and the girl turned slightly toward the light in the window and Lily saw that a smile had been carved into her face.
She turned, shaking, to look at Finnegan. His back was towards her, and he was digging candy from his pocket while he snarled at the other man. Lily started to back away.
Finnegan glanced over his shoulder. “Hey, you stay put.”
He saw the terror in her eyes.
He knew that she knew.
“Come here,” he barked, turning toward her. She broke into a run. “Goddammit!” he yelled, and barreled after her.
She ran into an alley filled with carts, some kind of market, and she bolted behind the carts but kept moving because he would find her if she stopped. She could never stop running, not as long as she heard his puffing and cursing in the distance. She had to keep running.
Fourteen / Tripper
Boyish good looks could only get you so far. Tripper had gotten his hands dirty a few times, but he strove to live by the code he’d learned up north: honor the living and fuck the dead.
He pulled his tattered jacket around his thin frame and reclined in a broken couch, seated in a garishly-lit alley in deep downtown. Not even Meyer’s boys bothered coming around here. What was there to be gained? This district was a hovel for bums. Strange people. Tripper had known a guy with a CD player once. He had The Best of the Doors and that was all he had, played it incessantly. Humming to himself, Tripper fished a lighter from his pocket and patted himself down for a joint.