Immediately on entering, Maria was gut-punched by emotion.
Cribs. There are half a dozen baby cribs.
And some of the babies are cooing.
Maria’s mind flashed back to when she first realized she was serious about Felix. She hadn’t ever planned a future with a man before, and for the first time she had to share an intimate, personal, and ultimately shameful admission.
“I want to have kids with you. But I can’t. I have this medical condition. I’ll never be able to bear children.”
Felix’s response was one of the best things anyone ever said to her.
“Then after we get married, we’ll adopt, and some lucky kid will get to have the best mother in the world.”
Seeing all of these cradles made Maria’s heart catch in her throat. How many times, lying on the dirt floor of her cell, had she dreamed of one day holding a baby? Of playing peek-a-book? Of changing its little diapers and tickling its little chin?
Slowly, reverently, Maria approached the nearest crib, peeking over the side.
She immediately recoiled. The child had bug eyes and an obscenely large mouth, which was currently wrapped around a piece of raw chicken. It looked up at Maria and hissed, baring pointed teeth.
Unable to stop herself, she checked the next crib. The child had something on its face that looked like a beak, and it was gnawing on its own foot, drawing blood.
The next one was a set of Siamese twins, joined at the face and sharing the same center eye. They saw her and made a sound like a cat being stepped on/
The next one—
Perfect. This baby is absolutely perfect.
Fine, brown hair. Wide, expressive eyes. The cutest little nose. The child saw Maria and cooed, reaching out a chubby hand. She held out her finger, letting the baby grasp it, and for a moment Maria forget where she was, and who she was, and all the horrors of the past year, along with her current situation, vanished from her mind.
You’re so precious.
Then, from behind her, Maria heard the unmistakeable sound of a shotgun racking. Without even thinking, Maria snatched up the baby and spun around.
Eleanor had the gun pointed at her. Maria raised the scalpel.
“Drop it, or I’ll kill the baby,” she lied.
Eleanor smiled. “Go ahead. She ain’t one of mine. Came with a couple who stayed here a few weeks back. Her parents didn’t properly adjust to our accommodations, and they’re no longer with us. But that little girl is the right blood type. Plannin’ on bleedin’ her when she gets a wee bit older. Then let my boys have some fun. But I can live with the loss.”
Someone came in the room behind Eleanor. Harry, whose harelip was so severe it practically reached his eyebrows.
What do I do?
What can I do?
Nothing. I can’t do a damn thing.
“Either kill the child or set ‘er down,” Eleanor said. “Either way, you ain’t goin’ nowhere.”
Maria took a deep breath, then let it out slow. She went to put the girl back in its crib, but the infant clung to Maria’s shirt collar, refusing to be put down. When Maria disentangled her perfect little fingers and laid her on her back, the baby began to cry.
“Shh,” Maria said, tears welling up. “It’s okay, little one. It’s going to be okay.”
But Maria knew it wouldn’t be.
Then Eleanor stomped over and hit Maria in the stomach with the butt of the shotgun. Maria crumpled to the floor.
“I saw what you did to my transfuser machine,” Eleanor said. “It’ll take me a week to get another one delivered. You’re gonna pay for that, little lady. Pay dearly. I’m gonna punish you the old-fashioned way.”
But Maria wasn’t listening. She was looking up at the crib, realizing that was the last time in her life she’d ever get to hold a baby.
Then Harry grabbed her.
# # #
Letti shoved the woman with the artificial legs aside, reaching out her arms to catch Mal, who was screaming as he fell. He came down face-first, but Letti was ready for it, keeping her back straight, bending her knees, grasping him tight just inches before his head cracked against the ground.
“We have to go,” Florence said. “Now.”
She was right. Eleanor’s brood was coming down the ladder.
The four of them hurried into the next room, shutting the door behind them. Letti, Florence, and the legless woman—Letti remembered that Mal called her Deb—began to stack boxes against the door, moving as fast as they could.
“Where’s Kelly?” Florence asked.
“She disappeared with JD and Cam.”
“They must have gone through here,” Mal said, poking his head into the room with the suitcases. “Maybe they found an exit.”
Letti hefted a particularly heavy box of pills, dropping it on the pile. “Okay, let’s go. Right now. Come on, Florence.”
“No,” Florence said.
Letti stopped and stared at her mother. “What do you mean, no?”
Florence came up to Letti, and did something completely out of character. She held her daughter’s hands.
She hasn’t done that since I was a kid.
“Someone has to stay here and hold them off so you can get away,” Florence said.
Letti shook her head. “No way. We don’t have time for this. You’re coming with us.”
Florence smiled, but it was a sad smile.
Oh, no. This isn’t happening. She isn’t going to do what I think she’s going to do.
“I’m sorry. I’m so, so sorry, Letti. I was stubborn. I thought I knew better. But the fact is, you’re more important to me than anyone else on the planet. I wish I realized that sooner.”
“We can do this later, Florence.”
“There’s not going to be a later, Letti. Not for me.”
Letti took her hands back, folding her arms across her chest. “If you stay here, then I’m staying with you.”
Florence shook her head. “You need to be there for your daughter, Letti. Like I should have been there for you. I’m sorry I wasn’t at your husband’s funeral. It’s my biggest regret.”
A lump grew in Letti’s throat.
I waited so long to hear her say those words. But not here. Not now.
“Florence...”
“Tell Kelly I’m sorry I wasn’t a bigger part of her childhood. And I’m sorry I won’t get to see her grow up into the amazing woman I know she’s going to become, because she has you as a mother.”
Letti’s eyes got glassy. “No. You can tell her that yourself, when we all get out of here.”
The door shook, toppling some of the boxes.
“I’m not going to get out of here, Letti.” Florence said. “But you are. And you’re going to live a long, wonderful life, taking care of my granddaughter.”
She’s not doing this. Don’t let her be doing this.
“Florence... please...”
Florence touched Letti’s cheek, wiped away a tear.
“Of all the things I’ve done, Letti. All the soldiers I helped to heal. All the hungry I helped to feed. The vaccines I gave. The dams I built. The villages I helped to save. Of all the things I’m proud of, the thing I’m proudest of most of all is you. You’re the best thing I’ve ever done with my life, Letti.”
The tears came fast now.
“Oh… Mom…”
“I love you so much.”
“I love you too, Mom.”
They hugged. A final, desperate, loving hug.
“I always wanted to grow up to be just like you,” Letti said, sniffling.
“You grew up to be even better.”