I think I do a little. And I know someone who would know what you mean, well.
He's Palm cord, probably. Except there are no cords here…
Yes. In a way. I think he would be Palm cord.
Are you crying? Why?
No. Go on. Was that all your education was, the stories about the saints?
Oh no. There were other things. Painted Red told us stories about ancient times, long and fabulous stories impossible to remember all of, unless your memory is like a gossip's. The longest I remember her telling was called Money, and it went on for days and covered great stretches of time, and was full of angles. It was hard to believe it was all true, but it was told by a truthful speaker, and there was proof, though not very impressive for all the fantastic comings and goings and great powers of the stuff. It was just an oblong piece of paper, worn and limp like skin, with tiny figures all over it, and leaves I think, and a face in the leaves. It looked magical for sure, but not something to die for, as Painted Red insisted so many had.
But mostly, what Painted Red said wasn't as important as the speaking of it; she would talk to us often about nothing really, and gradually and with a skill I only see in looking back and couldn't ever explain to you, she made us truthful speakers. We were honest when we were young and came to see her, there's no other way for kids to be, even when they're not telling the truth; but when we went out from Painted Red's room at the end of a year or two years or five years, however long Painted Red thought each of us needed, then we were truthful speakers: in the ancient way, which we could not have explained but always thereafter did, we Really Meant what we Said and we Said what we Really Meant.
Even Once a Day, St. Olive's dark child, Whisper cord keeper of secrets - even she learned, almost against her will, to speak truthfully. She could not then lie to me, not truly. If she could have - if she weren't a truthful speaker - then it may be my life would not now be utterly bound up in hers, and her story my story.
The day the Money story was finished. Once a Day came up beside me as I was going along Path and slipped her arm in mine. I was too astonished to speak; she had done it as though she always did it, though in fact she had hardly spoken to me since the first day.
"Do you think Painted Red is wise?" she asked me.
I said, of course, that I thought she was very wise; perhaps the wisest person in the world.
"She knows a lot," Once a Day said. "She doesn't know everything."
"What doesn't she know?"
"There are secrets."
"Tell me."
She glanced sidelong at me, smiling slightly, but said nothing more. Then at a turn of Path she drew me into a curtained room there. It was dark, and crowded with things I couldn't make out; someone asleep was snoring softly. "Do you think she knows all about Money?"
I didn't answer. For some reason my heart had started to beat fast. Once a Day, watching my face, took from a pocket an object that seemed to glow in the darkness. She held it up before me.
"This is Money too," she said. "Painted Red didn't say anything about this Money."
It was a small disc of silver. On its surface was a head, not drawn but cut so that it seemed to be coming forth from the glittering surface; its eyes caught the little light in the room and seemed to study me. She turned it in her hands and showed me the other side; a hawk with open wings. She took my hand and placed the disc in it. It was warm from her flesh. "If I give you Money," she said, "you must do what I say." She closed my fingers around it. "You've taken it now," she said. Painted Red had said people had once given others Money to do their bidding. I felt as though I were participating in a sin as old as the earth. But I didn't want to refuse the Money in my hand. "What," I said, and found my throat almost too dry to speak, "what do you want me to do?"
She laughed, as though a joke had been told or a trick played. Without answering, she ran out. Under my thumb I could feel the face on the Money she had given me, its features and the upswept brush of its hair.
The next days she didn't come to Painted Red's; I glimpsed her with grownups of her cord, on errands of their own, and if she saw me she didn't acknowledge it; and when one day she slipped late among us in Painted Red's room she said nothing to me. It was as if nothing at all had happened between us; perhaps, as she saw it, nothing had. I rubbed the Money in my pocket and thought of nothing but her. What was the word Painted Red used? An ancient word - I was pot.
The way people revolve back into the crowded warm interior of the warren in winter is matched by the way they come out as it gets warm again, slowly, the old ones staying in wrapped up till late in the spring, but the kids running out before the snow melts and catching crocuses and colds. I spent days in the woods, exploring with Seven Hands, gathering with Speak a Word, my mother, but often by myself; and one raw evening, carefully screened by a winter deadfall, I saw something that might unlock Once a Day to me.
I found her wrapped in red playing Rings with another girl of her cord. I couldn't tell her what I wanted with someone else present, so I sat and watched and waited. A game of Rings can take days, depending on what cord is playing it; Whisper cord uses it to tell the future in a way I never understood, and Once a Day had even further rules which the other girl got mad at, and at last left. I was alone with her.
She tossed the linked rings across the figured board, pouting, and gathered them up again. "It's hot in here."
"Outside it's nice," I said.
"Is it?" she said, half-watching her aimless throws.
"I could show you something you'd like. Out in the woods."
"What?"
"It's a secret. If I take you, you have to not tell anybody."
Well, they're lovers and collectors of secrets, and she questioned me further, but I wasn't telling, and at last she stood up and told me to take her.
The woods were budding pale green, and the streams were swollen with spring, the ground soft and growing. Thin clouds whipped away in the cold sky, but the sun was warm as afternoon went on, and we carried our shaggies over our shoulders, stumbling through ancient dead leaves and wet roots deep in the woods. On wet black branches new leaves glowed like glass and shook off water from the morning's rain as we pushed through them. "Here," I whispered when we had come to the place.
"What?"
"Climb up. I'll help you."
She climbed, clumsy-graceful, up the great fallen logs that spring had forced a few new shoots from. Her thighs tensed with effort, which made hollows in her flanks; her smooth pale legs were smeared with bark-rot, and there a tiny ruby scratch. At the top we crowded together into a narrow crotch that let us see, down in a cave protected by the tangled roots, a family of foxes. The mother and her cubs were just discernible, and no doubt invisible from everywhere but the one place where we stood. And as we watched, we saw the bright-tailed male return with a dead animal swaying from his jaws.
We watched in silence the wiggling cubs at their mother's belly, taking a few blind halting steps and turning to nuzzle her again. I was pressed close to Once a Day, who in order to see better had thrown an arm around my neck and lay against my back with her cheek pressed to mine. I could tell by her rapt silence that she was impressed with my secret. One of my legs was going to sleep, but I wanted her never to move.