“You feel like none of us have faith in you anymore, is that it?” I guess. “Like you’re losing control?”
“Exactly.” He puts a hand on my back, then gently steers me toward the door leading to the hall heading to class, away from him.
I stop walking, think about how behind with my work I already am, how I haven’t had an Amnesty meeting in ages, how I’ve already missed so many indoor track practices… But I half turn to face him and say, “I have faith in you, Astley, and I’ll go with you to Iceland. When do we go?”
“Would you like to know why?”
I bite my lip and wait for the reason. A tiny spark of hope expands in my heart as he smiles.
“I have a lead,” he says. He lifts his hands up when he says it, all excited. “Vander found some evidence that points to the BiForst Bridge being in Iceland.”
I digest that, then ask, “Seriously?”
“Seriously. Asgard is where it is located, and we have a tip that the way to get there involves a geyser in Iceland. It is an amazing lead.” He bounces on the tips of his toes and his smile reaches his eyes. “We are one step closer, Zara. I told you we would find your wolf.”
I launch myself into his arms squeeing. He laughs and swings me around in a circle, my feet lightly bumping the walls. The bell rings. I need to get back to class to get my books. I need to go home and get my passport. I need to tell Issie and Dev and Betty, although she will probably flip. But all I can do right now is hug Astley and say the same thing over and over again: “Thank you. Thank you. Thank you!”
It’s not till lunch that I get the chance to tell Dev, Issie, and Cassidy.
“Okay, okay! This is totally exciting,” Issie says. We’re sitting in the library instead of eating lunch, googling “Valhalla” and “Iceland” and “geyser.” “But what if he just wants to whisk you away out of the country for a romantic rendezvous?”
“It’s not like that.” I rock back in my chair and stamp my feet on the floor. This is so awesome. “He doesn’t like me that way.”
She just points a finger at me, which in Issie speak means, “I am so totally right, you idiot, but I am too nice to argue with you.”
I really don’t think she is. Right, I mean-I know she’s nice. She even promises to bring a note to my track coach for me and collect all my schoolwork. Again. And Cassidy volunteers to run the Amnesty meeting that is supposed to be tomorrow. I have the best friends. Ever.
Even Devyn is excited. He points to the computer screen. “Look at this! There are links to Valhalla and Iceland. How amazing is that? I’m so embarrassed we never found it.”
Is jumps up, stands behind Dev, and kisses the top of his head. “You can’t be perfect all the time, Mr. Man. It’s okay.”
He scrolls down the page. His eyes are lit up because he’s so pumped. Cassidy yanks in her breath and points at a picture of a giant wolf. “What’s that?”
“Fenrir,” Devyn says. “It’s part of the mythology. He’s chained by the gods, but when he gets free, it’s supposed to portend the coming of the apocalypse, basically, an all-out war between good and evil.”
“Lovely,” Cassidy says. “Can you scroll down more so I don’t have to look at it?”
Farther down we see a picture of the BiForst rainbow bridge.
“Much better.” Cassidy sighs and stretches her hands out to me to grab. “Can you believe you’re going to get Nick?”
“I can,” I say, smiling. “I really can.”
At home I gather up my suitcase and passport, and then I call Betty at work. She does not react well. She’s all, “You are trusting him!” Enough said.
The Bangor airport is small, with only two main gates plus an extra one off to one side for international passengers. Because its runway is so long and because of where Maine is located, this is where planes land if they are having trouble (drunk passengers biting flight attendants, engine issues) before or after they head across the Atlantic. It’s also where U.S. military planes land to gas up on their way to Afghanistan or Kuwait or wherever the country is fighting. There are troops here right now, lounging around in camouflage, talking on cell phones to people at home. In the gift shop, one soldier is telling a younger one to buy lighters. “It’s like gold over there,” he says. The younger soldier snatches up about twenty of them, thanking him. It’s heartbreaking, really, how young some of them are. We’re at war too, I guess, and I guess we’re young, but I don’t actually feel young as Astley and I make it through airport screening, smile at the TSA agents, and then hunker down in vinyl chairs right across from the gate agents’ desk.
I stare up at the giant number 2 at our gate. An airplane rolls down the runway toward Gate 1. A few people mill about. I breathe in the smell of people and metal and forced air. “I can’t believe we’re in an airport,” I say.
Astley runs a hand through his thick hair and pulls his laptop out of his dark leather backpack. “Most other pixies can’t fly on planes, you know. They can’t handle the iron.”
“Why don’t you share the magic iron pills then? Wouldn’t that be a good thing to do?”
He rubs the skin behind his ear and explains, “It gives our people an advantage.”
Our people. He calls them “our people,” but to me, my people are in Bedford, fighting, being threatened. The guilt drives me against the dark blue vinyl seat. I tuck my legs up under me, push my thumbs against the top of my eyes.
“Do you have a pain?” Astley asks me. His voice is right at my ear, worried, deeper than normal.
“I think my feet smell. My feet never smell except when I go on airplanes. Why is that?”
His hand goes against my forehead. “Are you ill? You are not making sense.”
I open my eyes, look at him. He’s worried and scruffy looking under the fluorescent airport terminal lights. “I’m fine,” I respond.
He lifts an eyebrow.
“Okay… I’m feeling super excited but kind of guilty about leaving,” I admit, rubbing at my forehead.
“Zara, I could travel myself. Are you sure you want to come?”
In front of me a little girl in white leggings with major visible panty lines and dark brown boots twirls around in a circle as her baseball-hat-wearing dad talks to the ticket agent. She pulls on her hair.
“Yep.” I watch the girl tug on her long brown hair, studying the strands as if she can’t believe they belong to her head. “Tell me when we’ll hear from your pixie friend again?”
“He said he would call me again once we arrived.”
The little girl crouches down, balancing on the tips of her feet. She manages this a moment before giving up and plopping on the carpet, dingy alternating squares of bluish gray.
“I’m so nervous,” I announce.
All of a sudden, for no reason at all, the little girl’s face scrunches up and she starts crying sad toddler cries, just giving in to the sorrow. Her voice is deep and pained. Her dad doesn’t even turn around. My stepdad would have scooped me up in his arms. My pixie father? Who knows…
“Sometimes I almost wonder if humans are worth saving,” Astley murmurs.
“Pixies are just as bad,” I say.
“True. Do not listen to me. I am just tired.”
I swallow hard. “Do you think we have the capacity for good?”
“Pixies or living creatures in general?”
“Both.”
“I have to believe that.”
“Why?”
Before he can answer, the gate attendant leans toward the microphone and says, “We are now boarding Priority Pass passengers for Flight 5781 to Iceland. Again, only Priority Pass passengers.”
“That is us.” Astley stretches his arms over his head.
“Really?” I’ve never flown first class before, and as much as I think this is materialistic of me, I am kind of psyched.