I’ve tried it on with him a few times but every time I do, he shuts me down. Not that he doesn’t want to, I feel the hardness that lets me know he really does want to, but he worries too much. He wants to be sure that I’m fully healed and capable which only makes me want him more. It’s a frustrating cycle.
I try to forget about my need for Devlin and smile at his mother. “Great thank you Laura. Your son has taken care of me.”
“I’m so good to hear that.” She grins wide and then looks over to Lauren and Grim. “I’m so happy for them.”
“Yeah me too.” I match her smile. “I can’t wait.”
Laura then gives me a funny look. “What about you?” She asks.
“What do you mean?” I ask, although I have a dreaded feeling I know what she’s getting at.
“You and Devlin,” She begins. “When are you going to settle down and make me a grandma twice over?”
I stay silent and take a much need drink from my glass. It’s a delay for my answer that I try to think over in my head.
“I’m in no rush.” I try to laugh.
“Oh darling.” She giggles. “You’re in your prime! Have babies now and there’s time for you to get your beautiful figure back.”
Thankfully, Drew saves me. “Leave the girl alone mum!”
Drew wraps her arm around me and leads me away. “Thank you.” I whisper to her.
“Don’t mention it.” She laughs.
Drew takes me in the direction of Devlin as he’s just finished talking with Brace and Scrappy. He spots me and stretches out one arm, inviting me in. I step inside his hold and melt when he securely holds me against him. He’s still being gentle but there’s no need.
“You look gorgeous babe.” He kisses me once we’re alone.
“So do you.” I say, drinking in the sight of him. I need to get him alone because all this waiting is making me lose control.
It’s crazy thinking back to when I was pushing him away, scared what he would think of me and my scars. Now I want nothing more than for him to strip me naked and have his way with me. I want to explore every inch of his body.
We make it outside to the BBQ holding hands and out of the corner of my eye I watch him, the big bad biker. His white shirt stands out against his black clothing, black leather vest and his dark features. I look at his gorgeous face, I want to run my nails through his stubble and kiss his lips.
“Stop looking at me like that.” Devlin growls.
“Or what?” I answer back as we make our way through a crowd of members.
“I’ll carry you back to the room and give you what you deserve.” He replies quietly. His words add to the fire that’s already lit but I know he won’t go through with his warning. He’s still being so careful with me.
“Then I will keep looking at you as if I can see you naked.” I whisper and see his jaw tense.
I’m glad I’m getting to him and decide to take it a step forward. I stop him in his tracks and glide my hand over his crotch. I smile in victory as I feel his obvious hardness.
“Tash.” Devlin warns.
“Relax.” I whisper into his ear. “I just want these bitches to know who you belong to.”
Devlin then wraps his arm around me and pulls me against him. He then nibbles on my neck and kisses me like his life depends on it. “Everyone knows who I belong to,” Devlin then squeezes my ass and bites on my ear lobe, sending shivers all over me. “And that you’re all mine.”
“I love the sound of that.” I say, sounding breathless.
“Me too babe.” He smirks.
“Christ if you two carry on another baby is going to be made right here.” I hear Baby laugh from behind me.
Throughout the day, Devlin stays by my side. He asks me if I want anything to eat or drink and makes sure I’m doing ok. I love the fact that he makes sure to keep me knowing that he’s there for me. Whether it’s his hand holding mine or the occasional kiss or caress and I adore him even more for it. It’s not in a smothering type of gesture, just Devlin looking out for me and letting me know he’s here and he’s thinking of me. I’m a girl who loves that.
“So how did it go today?” I ask Drew when we get a moment together.
Today Drew had to meet with the plumbers at the salon. Not only did we need it installing for the new apartment upstairs, but for the room we have chosen as the staff room kitchen and toilet, plus the toilets for the customers.
“Everything’s great.” She smiles. “They finished the bathroom and kitchen in the apartment and are sorting the staff kitchen and toilet now!”
I still cannot believe that this is all happening.
“I can’t wait to see it.” I grin wide.
“As soon as you get the all clear from the doctor next week.” Drew reminds me.
I nod in agreement. This isn’t just Devlin’s wish, but my own. I know I’m impatient with my healing but I’m not stupid. I know that I have to heal. It’s one thing walking around the clubhouse and trying to get sexual favours but going out and visiting the salon is just silly of me. I will damage what healing I have done so far, so I’m being sensible and waiting. It‘s killing me though. I really want to see both mine and Drew’s dreams coming alive.
Lauren approaches and I eagerly hug her. “Hey momma.”
She laughs. “I’m so happy I don’t have to keep it a secret anymore.”
“So, boy or girl?” Drew asks.
“I don’t mind, but I know Grim really wants a boy.” Lauren smiles.
“Typical man.” Nelly laughs as she catches what Lauren has just said.
We talk about babies, Lauren’s pregnancy and Nelly’s crazy cravings. The day has been real fun but there’s one thing constantly on my mind and that’s Devlin.
“I’m tired.” I tell him as he wraps an arm around me.
“Then we’re going bed.” He orders giving his men a head nod as we pass a silent understanding that we’re going.
I catch the girls one by one as we make our way through. Each giving me a hug and promising to meet at breakfast. Tonight we’re all staying at the clubhouse because of the celebration BBQ. I finally find Lauren and Grim both standing together alone. They’re having a private moment, looking at one another and looking so happy. My heart could literally burst for them. Grim spots me and smiles inviting me to join them in their moment.
“I’m off to bed.” I tell them, hugging them both. “I’m so happy for you.”
Tears glisten in my eyes and Lauren hugs me again. After a few more excited words we leave and Devlin holds my hand the whole way. His thumb stroking my hand. Excited nerves flutter in my stomach at the thought of what I’m going to do once we enter the bedroom. I fully intend to get both of us naked. I’m not tired at all, I’m just thirsty for my man.
Devlin locks the door when we make it inside his club room. I sit on the bed and begin to slip my shoes off, watching as Devlin removes his leather vest and I see his muscles sculptured by his white shirt. Damn!
He notices me looking and sits beside me. “Like what you see?”
“Damn right.” I scoot closer and look to his lips letting him know what I want.
Devlin takes me lead and kisses me, sliding one of his hands onto the back of my head and letting his fingers tangle in my hair. I groan as he invades my mouth with his tongue. My hands feel the fabric of his shirt, the heat from his flesh radiating through. I want to feel his skin so I go to tug it off but Devlin breaks away from me and does it for me. I look him over for a little bit, lusting over his delicious body.
“Undress me.” I demand and without hesitation he does.
Devlin carefully removes my top then lays me back on the bed and gets rid of my jeans. When I’m lying in just my underwear, Devlin stands and removes his own jeans. His erection clear to see as soon as he drops them. Devlin chose a great day to go commando.
I sit up and take his large, thick cock in my hand. I guide Devlin closer to me, and when he’s close enough, I let my tongue glide over the tip of his cock. I stroke him, velvet over steal as I continue to lick and suck. Devlin’s hands have returned to my hair, his eyes are closed with his head tilted back. This is the first time I’ve taken his cock in my mouth and I couldn’t be happier. I’m more surprised if I’m totally honest, Devlin hasn’t let me do much up until this point. I’m so glad he’s changed his mind.