Don’t interrupt me; I can’t bear it! She got out of bed, stark naked as she was, turned her back to me and started dressing. When she’d buttoned up her coat, she faced me again and said: You had your chance on 26 May 1934! You see, even she had the date memorized, that first time that Elena and I… But I swear I never told her! (By the way, have you met this Vigodsky?) That date will never stop being, you know, although naturally it sometimes makes me unhappy, which also speaks for itself. What you said, Isaak Davidovich, it’s one hundred percent correct. And then Galina said, and the way she said it, oh, she’s cold! She said: I’m not her and I don’t want to be her. I’d committed a major error! Although it’s not my concern to… And then she…
Don’t say it, Dmitri Dmitriyevich!
And then she spat on me.
Mitya, pull yourself together…
And I—
Please, please, for your own sake—
I can’t help myself. Do you know what I ask women to do?
Dmitri Dmitriyevich, I—
Do me a favor, my dear Isaak Davidovich. The next time you see me, and the time after that, and every other time until we die, please be so good as to, you know, to, to—
I understand. We’ll never mention this again.
Thank you, thank you!
Not unless you wish it. But shall I—
Not another word, Isaak Davidovich, I’m begging you!
But you won’t join the Party? Please promise me.
When Margarita gets to insisting on that, I, well, I can’t help what she says. Those Party texts of Dolmatovsky’s were, um, actually, when Margarita rang up Dolmatovsky himself and told him I’d agreed to, to, at that point I couldn’t say no, so that was Opus 98. But join the Party? Not if they pull my teeth out! I promise I’ll never cave in on that.
That means so much to me, said Glikman, and here came his tram.
Misunderstanding him, hating him at times, Nina had cared for him to the end, tolerating his poses, sharing his perilous disgrace. Margarita for her part seemed to be always with him in a rather different way, dragging him to official functions, reminding him of his duty to the masses. Long buried now those days of Shostakovich sitting alone in a wilderness of dark chairs, his mouth pressed against his hand as he listened to the rehearsal of his Seventh! He’d believed then that music could be good. Now he… Was he to listen to nothing, then?—You made us late again! Margarita was snarling through her little white teeth.—He and she were soon divorced, and he lurked at Lebedinsky’s flat, waiting for her to finish disappearing. Here was a film magazine; he paged through it over and over. In a photograph, old Roman Karmen was holding his camera as casually and expertly as a soldier does a gun, smiling flirtatiously down at a Viet Cong girl with a submachine-gun; she was in a line of fighters; they were always in a line; and Shostakovich waited and waited until the telephone rang; Maxim had done the deed; Margarita was gone; she had subsumed herself forever within the auto-beams and sign-reflections upon the cold wetness of Moscow’s streets. I’m told that she allied herself with a better man. Why not say that this, this, you know, this Vigodsky now has two wives? He takes in my cast-offs. Oh, I’m such a bastard, such a… Life is nothing but trouble. I wonder if Elena still has that saffroned handbag I bought her in Turkey? It was very good quality. Hopefully Nina never found out, because… Meanwhile the apparatchiks proclaimed him a People’s Artist of the USSR; Sweden awarded him honorary membership in the Royal Academy of Music. Everybody advised him to take out that opera of his, that “Lady Macbeth” or whatever it was, and polish it up, to bring it up to date with the times. For instance, with all due respect, how would it sound transposed into a major key? Then there was the matter of his bits of melody borrowed from the reactionary Mussorgsky. To this accusation he readily confessed: All those musical quotations, well, they’re just a way for me not to be myself.—Oh, those bastards! If they’d only…—On the other hand, his interest in the situation of women was certainly appreciated, they said. “Lady Macbeth” might serve to show how greatly the lives of our female citizens and comrades had been advanced by the Revolution. Perhaps if he made the heroine into more of a victim, so that she wouldn’t be misconstrued…—“Interest,” oh, me! He could coax their clothes off as gently as he’d charmed M. Meyerovich into rewriting his Gypsy Rhapsody—although that had happened ten years ago already. All right, that was over. Time, how should I say, passes.
Falling snow dimming the white streets, trees transformed by snow into thickened negative images of themselves, soft beige slush, white snow falling on women’s fur-clad shoulders, white outlines of once-black railings, Russian caps and Kazakh fur hats wide as tree-crowns, all was as all-or-nothing as the notes he inked onto his score-sheets; and peering timidly between the curtains of his flat he spied before the speckled, soft-stained building-fronts a living note of music; she was dressed in a white fur jacket, and her long hair spilled blackly from beneath her hat like a downward-stemmed A-sharp— only a dream, but, oh my God, that long dark hair! She didn’t dare to approach more closely, it seemed. Well, no wonder; twenty paces away from her stood a man with snow on his dark moustache, snow on his dark fur cap and coat; he was wearing tall shiny boots and he kept staring up into Shostakovich’s window. Isn’t he the one who’s always following Akhmatova? Now I’m glad it’s only a dream, because… At least everything remained white and black; it was nearly the same as his true home beneath the piano keys. When will this dream end? I want to wake up now. There’s something about it I don’t like, and I don’t know why. Two longhaired girls came walking under a red umbrella. The redness interrupted and assaulted him. Now it was ubiquitous in troops of little girls with red balloons, troops of Pioneers with red flags. But I’m not anti-Communist. It’s just that red spot which I… What’s that sound? And how can I preserve it musically? There’s a high B-sharp in it that chills me, but it also contains dry bass elements. Akhmatova has a good ear. I wonder how she’s… The sounds of shelling she characterized in her poem “First Long-Range Firing on Leningrad” as a kind of dry thunder. But that’s not precisely what this is. I’m going to wake up now and… There it is again. What’s that sound? Oh, my, how I hate that sound. And it’s closer; they must have have gotten the range. I think that sound lives inside the red spot. Do you know, I think I must have seen something when I was young, which… Maybe a drop of blood on my father’s lips when he, no. Or something which, which, what’s that sound? It’s not dry thunder at all, because that B-sharp…
Poor Glikman, who always meant well, drew his attention to a film about the female workers who’d reconstructed Stalingrad, sleeping in wrecked German planes because there were no other quarters; he thought that their heroism might be a fitting subject for Shostakovich’s next symphony.—To be sure, Isaak Davidovich; I’ll have to consider that topic extremely, how should I say, carefully. Anything female, of course, has its so-called “advantages.” For example, that factory worker who flirts with you, Vera Ivanovna, you know, when I walk you to the tram stop at night, I’ve seen her put on purple lipstick first, and then her hard hat. Now, that’s actually rather…—And he wrenched his head away, so that Glikman wouldn’t see his angry smile.
And yet why be so, so, you know? Glikman had once taken him to the Kino Palace in about ’32 it must have been, before he’d even kissed Elena for the very first time; he had just begun composing “Lady Macbeth” and cared about the situation of women, or thought he did; Nina already complained that he’d never cared about her, but that was, how should I say; the point was that the Kino Palace was showing a Roman Karmen documentary about the collective farm shock worker Yevdokia Yermoshkina; when she’d begun teaching illiterate women, pointing to the blackboard and making them all chant the lesson: We are not slaves, no slaves are we, a thrill had passed over Shostakovich. He’d been, um, young, you see. Oh, and Karmen, too! Was our dear Roman Lazarevich still a true believer? Eighteen years a Party member; eighteen years of kissing assholes; no wonder Elena couldn’t face him; I hear she’s very, very… I suppose he’s proud. When will he make a sequel about Yevdokia Yermoshkina? She probably got drunk and wrecked her tractor, because that’s how we…