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Her slit is my sign.

~ ~ ~

You lie there naked, but no more naked than at the doctor’s.

Your wound no more naked than your knees.

As if it’s a habit. My own body, I’ve come to see

with different eyes. As if, after all these years,

the rejection no longer applies.

~ ~ ~

Your palm glides more softly, you’re starting

to get it. Your breasts are fuller too

after three months of caresses. The dance

of your hip finally echoes our first nights

with all those teething problems.

~ ~ ~

Close to her, I think: our story is

cold metal, something for half

a day a week, a passing madness.

And I’m just the table leg a bitch

pisses on out of longing for something else.

~ ~ ~

Getting dressed. Pressing what I’ve worshipped

into stretch panties. Arranging your segments.

You raise your foot & I think

you think I’m a part of you.

Something like an ingrown toenail.

~ ~ ~

“More. Don’t stop. Faster!” No, she didn’t groan

it, she swore, “Oh, God, oh, God damn it!”

And then, “What have you done

to my face? It looks years younger!”

And then, “Oh, boy, if you ever cheat on me!”

~ ~ ~

It’s finished. Adieu. Hidden under make-up.

Or rather, did it ever exist? Or is there

a corpse still lying here between the sheets,

looking like the two of us and panting still?

Her mouth: my lock.

~ ~ ~

The smell of her cunt and arse confuse her,

the taste in my mouth shames her.

She’s not that fish, she thinks, with piss and sweat,

but some other animal, deodorised and in another land.

That’s why she’s sometimes hated by her glands.

~ ~ ~

Her name which you say and yawning

spell out over and over again, snowed under.

Her name which you groan

until the neighbour calls the police.

Her name which you swallow / like she swallows her pill.

~ ~ ~

When she sleeps I open

her finest pages and read

the wiring of her soft,

warm television—

a circuit from her to her.

~ ~ ~

Ha-ha! I had a heart, I swear it,

trembling like any other. And chattering.

Truly, it lay there waiting for her.

— She took her iron and placed

it on my heart and pressed and pressed.

~ ~ ~

“Do you want to?”—“If you do, so do I.”

“Then I don’t want to.”—“Me neither.”

Who wanted to? Who wanted to?

When tenderness is in the majority,

there’s no one to open the door.

~ ~ ~

“He took my virginity,” she said.

“Every day I’m scared of him,” she said.

“I can never trust him,” she said.

“I sob for hours at a time,” she said and sobbed,

“and you, you’re just my lover.”

from Figurative [1973]

Five Polaroids of Jesus Christ

1

A stick insect

with something feminine around the ribs

an iris in his midriff.

(Death is in my hipbone, the left,

my jaws already calcified;

once I was as bright as a flower,

as bitter as blossom.)

Mutant. Transformed from man

to mantis by paternal wrath.

He is edible, digestible

like the crickets of the sea.

The sun burns him

to blisters and shreds

and ash that drifts to the water.

2

At the village pump he let the children

play with his crown of thorns.

He pointed at a comet and said,

“Look, my father’s winking at you.”

Then his mount grew restless.

“I would like,” he said, “the greatest sinner

among you to take a bite out of my ear.”

But they kept staring at his girlish hair

and sullenly he spurred his pony on

across the crushed-ice sand.

3

One of his manifestations preached

the following: “Hey, followers!

What’s going on? People,

God help us, with the hots for purity,

want to replace gold with white!

They want to shuck off their senses,

unsullied by minerals, changing

the gold of thought

into bland half-hearted white!

As if my father’s hair

was not curled and gilded!

As if indulgences and repentance

earn you immortality!

Forget it.

God is in gold alone

and gold is the only reason

for an almost reasonable smile.”

4

“Burdened with crown and armour,

wrapped in my tentacles,

braggart and beggar,

I preached mercy and yearning.

I could bear no emptiness.

“Now I no longer turn my cheek.

I stink like a bed full of lovers

and stiff as a ram

I sometimes dance with fury.

“I only pray when I shit

(and no longer as the Son of Someone).

(What’s more, the Slut is dead.)