He leaned down to kiss me and we stopped moving. We stood there, in the middle of the dance floor, just kissing each other until the song ended.
The DJ came on and announced that was the last slow song of the night and the dance party was starting. It immediately changed into a fast song. I had no idea what to do so I started watching the people around me. They were all grinding with each other. I looked up at him and he brought his mouth down to my ear. “I completely understand if you are not up for that. We could always go sit down somewhere.”
“No. I’m done letting what happened to me in the past affect my present. I don’t really know what to do, though, so you’ll have to be patient with me.”
“Okay, baby, come here then.” He pulls me against him so I am standing with my back to him. He then puts his hands on my hips and slowly starts to move side to side. This was actually really nice. Where am I supposed to put my hands?
I rest my hands on Carter’s and I feel him start to get hard behind me. He stiffens and I know he is unsure of how I am going to react. I have to show him that this is okay.
I lean my body back into him and turn my head to the side to see him. I smile at him while wrapping my arms around his neck. He leans down and kisses me, but it isn’t sweet like before. I can feel his desperation and need in this kiss. I start moving my hips in little circles against him and he groans in my ear.
“Maddy, I don’t know if that’s such a good idea.” His voice is deep and rough, sending chills through my body.
I start watching the girls around me and taking ideas from them. I decide to try one of their moves. I lean forward, putting my hands on my knees and pushing my ass into Carter’s bulge. I start moving it in little circles. I could tell he liked it from the way he gripped my hips tighter.
Chapter Nineteen
Carter
She is driving me crazy. At first I could tell she needed me to guide her but after she wraps her hands around the back of my neck, she seems to take over from there. When she bent over, I was a goner.
This felt so damn good and, after consistently getting worked up these past couple days with no relief, it wasn’t going to take me long to get there. We couldn’t do this in the middle of the club though, could we?
I pull her up so I can whisper in her ear. “Maddy, baby, this feels so good. But unless you want me to come right on this dance floor, I think we need to take a break.”
She laughs at me and then resumes grinding her sexy ass against my throbbing dick. This can’t really be happening. She reaches around my neck again and starts to play with my hair. Then, she turns her head to the side and starts to kiss up and down my neck. “Baby, listen-”
“Carter, it’s okay. I know you need this and it’s kind of exciting.” She kissed me and when she took my bottom lip in between her teeth and pulled, I lost it.
I knew I was close. Between her rubbing up against me and how forward she was being, it would be any minute. She did the thing where she bent over again and I couldn’t hold back anymore.
“Fuck, Maddy!” I can’t believe I just did that. I feel like a fucking teenager all over again. This is going to be an uncomfortable drive home.
She turned to me with the biggest smile on her face. She is enjoying this! “You ready to go home?”
“Yeah, let’s get out of here.”
When we get back home, Anthony and my dad are sitting on the couch. Dad took one look at me and could tell something was up. “What the hell are you walking like that for?”
I hear Maddy giggling behind me. I am gonna get her for this later. “Someone spilled a drink on me at the club. I’m gonna go take a shower.” Maddy sits down in the living room. “You gonna stay out here?”
“Yeah, just let me know when you’re done. I could use a shower too.”
Anthony butts in. “Just take a shower with the poor guy! He did work hard on your birthday, you know!” I walk over and punch him hard in the arm. “OW! Dude, I was just trying to help you out!” I look over at Maddy and she is blushing. “Whatever. I’m gonna head out. Paul is having a party tonight. Have fun not showering together. I always knew you were gay!”
All I could do was shake my head. “I’ll see you in a couple minutes, okay?”
“Okay.”
Madison
I am sitting in the living room, watching TV with Carter’s dad and thinking about how perfect today had been. “So, how was your birthday?”
“It was perfect. I can’t believe he did all of this for me. You really raised an amazing man.”
Carter’s dad smiles at me. “Thank you. I was worried when his mom first passed away, but all of them have turned out really well. Even Anthony, although sometimes I wanna duct tape his mouth closed.” I couldn’t help but laugh at that. “He really cares a lot about you.”
“I care about him a lot, too, probably more than you know.”
“That’s good to hear.”
I hear the bathroom door and Carter yell out to me that he is done. “Well, I’m going to go get in the shower. Thank you again for everything, I really had a great time here.”
“You’re welcome here anytime, honey.”
I couldn’t resist it. I walk over and give his dad a hug. “Goodnight.”
“Goodnight, sweetheart, and Happy Birthday again.”
“Thank you.”
When I get out of the shower and go into the room, Carter is already in bed. I climb in and snuggle up to him. “Did you have a good birthday?”
“I had the best birthday I’ve ever had. Truthfully, it’s probably been the best day of my life.”
“Good, I’m glad.” He leans down and gives me a kiss.
A few minutes pass and I thought maybe now might be a good time to talk about Chris. I didn’t want to do it at dinner earlier. I still wasn’t ready to tell Carter everything, but I had to let him in, he deserved it. “Carter, did you still want to talk?”
No answer.
“Carter?”
I looked up at him and he was asleep.
“Goodnight, Carter...I love you.”
* * *
I wake up the next morning feeling out of it. This is just great. I am getting sick. I slept most of the ride back to campus. Carter walks me to my room, and only agrees to leave because Nicole is there.
I usually love the way Carter always wants to be around me, but not when I am sick. I knew he was waiting for me to bring up Chris too. He is getting back tomorrow afternoon, and I am dreading that conversation.
I barely make it through all of my classes on Monday. I am so sick, all I want to do is sleep. Chris called when he got back into town but once he knew I was sick, he said he was staying away from me. However, Carter was regularly dropping off tea and soup to me. He makes me so unbelievably happy. By Wednesday, I was feeling better and asked Chris if he’d come over to talk to me after my classes. Carter had work tonight and tomorrow night, and Nicole had gotten me a part time-job and my first shift was tomorrow.
Chris met me outside my last class and we walked to my room together. Nicole said she’d stay out till later tonight.
“So, what was so important that you needed me to come over, Madison?”
I am so scared. I wish Carter could have been here with me. I know that would have made it so much worse, though. “Chris, I…I just…I don’t want to do this anymore.” My voice is shaking the entire time.
His head snaps up and he glares at me. “Do what exactly?”
“Us. I want to break up.” There, I said it. For a moment I feel like a burden has been lifted.