It reminds me of a family trip to Disney World where we took a picture under the sign pointing to the parking lots named Heroes and Villains. My sister Rose stood under Heroes and I was under Villains. When given a choice, I’ve always been attracted to guys who aren’t good for me.
“So you think you’ll be okay?” Jon’s acting like he’s not in a rush to leave, even though he said he’s got to get to work soon.
His jacket starts to slip off my shoulder. I hoist it back up with an awkward shrug. “Yep. I’m fine. Thanks.”
Someone rattles the gate, and my heart jumps. Instinctively, I take a half step toward Jon. I didn’t make all these sacrifices just to have Chase’s brother catch me here now. The gate swings open on creaky hinges.
It’s Cassidy and a girl I don’t recognize. Not Aaron. Relief gushes out of me in one big whoosh.
“There you are,” Cassidy says, marching toward us like a woman on a mission. “I’ve been looking everywhere.” She says everywhere with a few extra syllables for emphasis or dramatic effect (take your pick). She’s holding a red cup and wearing a plastic lei. I’ll have to give her a hard time about it later. Given that she’s from Hawaii, wearing a tacky fake lei is practically against her religion.
“I texted you that I was outside in the back.”
Cassidy’s eyes rake over me. “You look like shit.”
I suddenly remember the mascara streaks and the fact that I’m barefoot. Yeah, I’m sure I look completely pathetic.
“This hasn’t been the best of nights,” I say, trying not to think too much about my bathroom freak-out.
“What happened?”
“Nothing. I’m fine. But thanks to him, I’m doing better.”
And just like that, she looks at Jon. Not that I’ve forgotten him or anything. His warm presence is heating up the whole left side of my body, blocking out the cold ocean breeze.
Her gaze slides over the two of us and then she breaks into a know-it-all grin. The kind that says she knows what’s really going on. “Not the best of nights, huh?”
I know exactly what she’s thinking and that would be a big fat no. I do not look like this because he and I just finished, quote unquote, a screw-fest in the back yard, or because I gave him a blow job.
“How’s it going?” Jon doesn’t seem to notice that my roommate is studying him like he’s a prize horse and she’s a judge at the state fair. Or maybe he does and he likes it.
“You’re Jon Priestly, aren’t you?” She must not have heard those girls behind us during the fight on the porch. Either that, or she’s had too much to drink and just forgot.
He nods. “That would be me.”
The girl with Cassidy gasps. She’s almost as tall as me, with teased blond hair and a super cute body. I’ve always thought that legwarmers, tights, and fingerless gloves look really stupid (you should see the pictures of my mom and her friends in junior high school back in the eighties), but she really pulls it off.
Cassidy introduces herself. When her friend doesn’t jump in right away and continues to stare at Jon, she adds, “And this is Sara.”
Sara’s eyes are as round as dinner plates. “You mean the ‘church is now in session’ guy?”
Jon gives her a panty-dropping smile. At least, it makes my panties want to drop. And by the looks of it, same with Sara. This makes me slightly irritated, for some reason.
“The one and only,” he says.
“Oh my God. I recognize your voice now,” she gushes. “I totally want one of those shirts those girls were wearing tonight. Where can I get one?”
The shirts about church? Was that what his entourage was wearing? I try to remember just what they said. Parish or Parishioner, I think. I don’t get it. I glance over at Cassidy for help, but her attention is focused squarely on Jon.
“Check with the station. They just ordered a bunch.”
“I loooove you—I mean, your show,” Sara says, laughing. I can almost hear her thong sliding past her hips. Seriously. I’ve never seen anyone swoon before, but that’s pretty much what she’s doing.
“I love it, too,” Cassidy chimes in.
Clearly, I’m the only one who’s clueless here. I sure wouldn’t have pegged this guy as belonging to one of the religious groups on campus. If that’s the case, then someone has a lot of sins to confess on Sunday morning. Cassidy goes to Mass sometimes, but she’s not what I’d call very religious.
“What are you guys talking about?” I ask. “What church?”
“Seriously, Ivory,” Sara says impatiently. “Don’t you listen to KREX?”
Ivory? I bite my lip to keep from laughing.
Jon makes a coughing slash choking noise as he tries not to laugh, too. I poke his leg with my bare toe.
He gives me a fake hurt look that says, Whaaat?
And I give him a fake mad scowl that says, The only person allowed to laugh is the one whose name gets butchered.
I turn to Sara. “It’s Ivy,” I tell her calmly. “So…what’s KREX?”
“The Sounds of Pacific,” Cassidy says in an announcer’s voice. “It’s PSU’s student-run radio station.”
That explains it. “I don’t listen to my car radio very often. It doesn’t get good reception.”
Sara rolls her eyes, like she’s talking to the most clueless person in the world and can’t take it anymore. “Everybody live-streams it on their computers or through the app.” She holds up her phone and shakes it. “I can’t believe you don’t know that.”
I try to ignore how incredibly rude that is and turn to Jon. “You’re on the radio?”
He nods. “Once a week.” He touches his finger to his palm and quickly lifts it, which I immediately recognize as sign language for once a week. I narrow my eyes at him. He knows ASL?
He grabs his guitar case and slips the strap over his shoulder. “My show’s on Tuesday. I’m filling in for a friend tonight.”
“What do you do?” I ask.
Before he can answer, Sara barks out an unflattering laugh. She thinks I’m an idiot to ask such a stupid question. I quickly review the conversation in my head, wondering what I missed. I do have a tendency to miss stuff when I’m stressed out.
“Hello? Aren’t you listening? He’s got a radio show.”
Scratch what I said about her outfit. You can’t think someone looks cute when you’re really starting to dislike her.
I was willing to let the other stuff slide, but I’ve just changed my mind. “He could have a sports show. A talk radio show. A religion show. A politics discussion show. Or maybe a pop psychology show where people call in for advice on how to deal with jerks.”
Sara looks me up and down and seems to notice my sorry condition for the first time. “So what were you guys doing back here, anyway?”
“True, Ivy,” Jon says, ignoring Sara’s question. “And the station has shows like that. Mine happens to be on indie music, where I spotlight various local bands. I’m filling in for Alice, who hosts a jazz show tonight, so we’ll see how her listeners react to my playlist. Could be interesting.” Given his thorough answer, he doesn’t seem to think my question was ridiculous. “I do a few interviews, but I mainly just play music. I don’t do much talking.”
He gives me a pointed look as if to emphasize that there’s another meaning behind his words. It takes me a moment to figure it out. My roof situation is a private matter that will stay between the two of us. He’s not telling. If I want to answer Sara’s question, that’s my business, not his. Warmth pools low in my stomach as I think about keeping secrets with him.