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Frances never cried for Mumma after that night.

“It’s a good thing Mumma’s gone,” Frances would say to herself, going over and over in her mind all the terrible things she couldn’t quite recall — weaving the threads together into an ingenious cloak of motley. “Because if Mumma were here, she would know what a bad girl I’ve been.”

Lily Who Lived

The morning after Materia’s funeral dawns joyfully. James says to Mercedes, “Come and see your godchild.” Frances follows. They walk into the sick-room, now stripped of everything but the glorious sunlight pouring through the open window, bathing the crib in a dazzle of dust sprites. Frances and Mercedes approach and look through the bars. Daddy beams. The little girls expect to see a plump and peachy version of their doll babies, but lying there is a thin-cheeked thing under a mass of black hair that looks like a fright wig. Dark eyes full of intense and watchful concern — they seem to have seen plenty already.

“What’s wrong with her?” asks Frances.

“Nothing, she’s perfect,” says James.

She looks like a golliwog, thinks Mercedes, and Frances says, “There is so something wrong with her.”

For which she gets a clip on the ear.

Mercedes says, “She’s beautiful,” and makes a mental note to confess the lie.

James picks the baby up. “She’s a prize-fighter.”

Frances follows Daddy and the baby and Mercedes downstairs. They’re going to feed her now. Coming from the kitchen is sweet tinkly music. They enter to see a six-inch porcelain girl revolving on the table. She wears kid button-boots and a lime-green silk dress over several petticoats, and holds a yellow and white parasol over her golden ringlets. On the base is an inscription, An Old-Fashioned Girl. It’s for Mercedes, “For being such a good grown-up girl.”

“Oh Daddy, thank you.”

Frances is pleased, happy that there is happiness in the house.

“It can be both of ours, Frances.”

“No, it’s your special thing, Mercedes.”

Mercedes lets Frances wind it up, “Careful, not too tight.”

Frances treats it reverently, but can’t suppress a craving to know what makes the music.

The baby lies limp but alert in Mercedes’ arms while James feeds her milk from a dropper. He says, “She’s going to be fine. It’s a miracle.”

I am holding a miracle, thinks Mercedes.

“There is so something wrong with her,” says Frances under her breath.

I’ll take you home again, Kathleen…

Making love with the New Yorker is an experience which announces to Kathleen that the present tense has finally begun. It’s summer now. For Kathleen the Present is a new country, unassailable by the old countries because the Goths and Vandals of the old countries don’t even know the Present exists. But it is assailable. It will be breached. Kathleen is too young to know that. Right now, in summer, she is making love. She is just being born.

My love

I love you

Oh

Sweet honey

I love you

Sweet, oh

Oh

It’s a first-love conversation. Mouths can’t kiss each other enough or find enough of the beloved to be kissed enough. The invisible ocean holds the room and the bed and the lovers suspended and treats them like aquatic plants, arms can never stop moving, fronds in the liquid breeze, hands never stop waving slowly side to side, caressing the loved one, hello … fingers never stop fanning, tendrils in a ceaseless bouquet, all parts sway and sway sometimes violently sometimes almost not at all. A small grazing gesture ignites the need for closer, and breaks the surface of the water, never in you enough, gulping air, never contain you enough, on dry land now, never hold you enough, the desert heat, drink you, oasis lover shimmering under a palm, I will burn to ashes here then blow away — until that merciful peak is discovered, and once that is discovered, the slow tumble back down the hill, buckets of water spilling in slow motion, streaking the sand along their way until again the gentle sway, the ocean floor, the grazing touch that reignites the sea.

I want you

want you to

want you too

want to

oh you

so, so

sweet

Oh

Oh

like honey

I love you

taste like honey

my love

That fall James got a letter. He went down there and brought Kathleen home the day the war ended.

across the ocean wide and wild….

Book 3. THE SHOEMAKER AND HIS ELVES

Bootleg

1925. April Fool’s Day — although Frances never needs an excuse. She and Lily are playing in the attic surrounded by a rabble of dolls. The room is otherwise empty except for the hope chest. Lily is going on six. Frances is eleven. She is Lily’s self-appointed babysitter, playmate and tormentor. Lily wouldn’t have it any other way.

Lily no longer resembles the strange baby she was. The only trace is in the particular attentiveness of her lovely green eyes, as though always prepared to take in a solemn truth. This is a quality that Frances especially enjoys. Lily’s black hair has acquired an auburn sheen and, although nowadays a lot of little girls and boys have Buster Brown haircuts, Lily’s hair falls down past her waist when loose. Her skin is peaches and cream and honey, she looks to have been kissed by the sun even in winter. She has lips like Rose Red, and an adorable little bump that appears in her forehead when she is perturbed. Frances has told her it is a horn that will soon grow out through the skin.

Today Lily is dolled up in a frilly knee-length dress of light green taffeta with a crinoline — no special occasion, just because she is our darling sweet Lily and Daddy likes to see her prettily turned out. Most girls, both little and big, have long since renounced crinolines and petticoats — women no longer need all that nonsense tripping them up, they’ve had far too much to do since the war. But Lily doesn’t have to do anything but be happy.

Today, as usual, she wears a gleaming crown of french braids scraped so tight by Mercedes that the corners of her eyes are slightly stretched. Mercedes is in charge of Lily’s hair, but Lily doesn’t like anyone but Frances to dress her or give her a bath. That’s just the way it is. Even though Lily never knows when Frances will do or say something alarming — “Honest, Lily, you were adopted. We just found you in the garbage one day. You had potato peelings stuck all over you.”

Frances is a wiry girl. And white as a sheet, usually. Except for the freckle on her Roman nose. And except for when she is laughing, or thinking up something really good. Then the bits of green glass in her hazel eyes light up, her nose goes pink and a little white stripe appears across its bridge. Lily watches Frances’s nose as a sailor might watch for a lighthouse beam. When the stripe appears, it means Frances is about to go overboard.