‘Okay,’ I said, getting ready to turn the car around. I couldn’t face seeing Giles right now, even though I needed to. If he asked me about the tape, I didn’t trust myself to be able to lie convincingly. ‘I’ll sort it.’
Rick rang off, and I just sat there for a while, staring at my mobile and wondering what the hell else could go wrong today.
Twenty One
I still felt like death itself the next morning. I spent most of the day in bed, asleep. The phone kept waking me, though. Once, it was Kitty’s smarmy-sounding agent, Jimmy, and the rest were Leo. I arranged to meet with Jimmy on the Friday afternoon. Leo, I ignored completely. He kept ringing though and, desperate for some peace to soothe my banging head, I finally turned off my phone. Just the act of doing so, of taking a bit of control back, made me feel somewhat better, and I sunk into a deep sleep from which I’d only just woken when Liv came in from work.
This time when I woke up, I lay there replaying what I could remember of last night’s events in my mind. As I remembered the incident with the Australian guys, I wailed inwardly. God, had I really done that? What the hell must Liv have thought?
But even through the hideous shame of it, I couldn’t help but start to feel turned on all over again. The familiar surge of sensation flooded into my clit, and I hardly even noticed my hand moving down there. I let my thighs fall apart, as I remembered the roughness of their hands on me, the urgency of Stef’s cock in my mouth, the upward slide of my sweater over my breasts.
What would have happened if Liv hadn’t interrupted us? If they’d taken me somewhere else, where they could properly use me? I knew I’d have been in trouble but, even so, the thought of it sent shivers of anticipation through my clit. My imagination wandered, and soon I was back in my fantasy, but this time with a difference. It started in Jackaroo’s, with Stef and Chris and the rest of the guys, just as it had last night, but instead of Liv coming to my rescue, they’d carried on; Stef thrusting into my mouth, Chris finally pulling my breasts free of my bra, and the guy next to me undoing my jeans and inching them down across my hips.
It was only when I was truly exposed, naked on Chris’s lap, with his cock pushing inside me and Stef plunging once again into my mouth, that it all went wrong. It wasn’t my fantasy any more. It was Leo’s reality and, when I looked up at Stef, and all the other guys standing around us, it was Leo’s face, once again, looking back at me.
I pulled my hand away as if it’d been stung, and just lay there, staring at the poster-strewn walls, and wondering whether I’d ever be able to keep my promise to Liv.
She didn’t seem any more convinced, when I was getting ready to go out with Kitty, an hour or so later.
‘I don’t think you should go,’ she said, at least ten times, as she stood behind me in her tiny bathroom, watching me apply the finishing touches to my make-up. Disapproval was etched all over her face. ‘Not after last night.’
‘I know,’ I said. ‘You keep saying. I won’t get drunk, I promise, but I’m going.’
It wasn’t just the thought of getting it in the neck from Kitty that made me determined to go. For one thing, I was dying to know what was so special about the venue. I’d been to most of the decent clubs in London with Leo, but the F Bar had never crossed my radar. For another, Leo had been out the night before, with some brunette, and had been snapped getting into a cab with her. Hence the reason I’d ignored his calls. I was determined to go one better, although I didn’t mention this to Liv, for obvious reasons.
‘Well, just make sure you behave,’ she said. She was clucking about me like a mother hen; rearranging my hair and checking under my eyes for smudges. ‘I wish I was coming with you, I do, but I just can’t. Max has gone abroad unexpectedly, and, well...you know.’ She made a face.
I could read her like a book. I knew she felt as if she should be there, to keep me in check, but the thought of spending more time in the company of Kitty made her want to run for the hills. I was glad she wasn’t going, anyway, in the nicest possible way. I wasn’t sure I wanted to be kept in check.
‘I don’t think you’re on the VIP list, anyway,’ I said, with a wicked grin.
‘Dayum,’ she said, clicking her fingers in disappointment.
Just then, there was a knock at the door.
‘Quick, it’s the taxi,’ she said, peering out her bedroom window. ‘Hurry up.’
I grabbed my bag, and walked gingerly down the stairs. I was wearing a sleek midnight-blue dress and high sandals. I hadn’t worn anything but flats for the last few days, and I didn’t want to have an accident. I hoped Kitty would approve of my outfit. My dress was a sleeveless silk shift, spattered with diamantés and open down the back, and it was the shortest I had with me. I’d told myself I was getting dressed up to please her, but secretly I knew it was because I wanted to attract attention. As the thought was made explicit in my mind, I flushed. What a difference a day made. Something had twisted inside me, something small but significant, and I was half ashamed but, at the same time, powerless to halt it. Christ, I didn’t even want to halt it.
I tiptoed down the path to the taxi, carefully avoiding the cracks in the paving. My heels were sky-high Louboutins, diamanté-studded to match my dress. I didn’t want to ruin them this early in the night. Liv followed me out, still fussing around me. She seemed increasingly stressed, and I could tell she was now seriously regretting not coming along.
As I went round the other side of the cab, she tapped on Kitty’s window. Kitty wound it down and looked out.
‘Don’t leave her, whatever you do,’ Liv said. ‘Promise me.’
‘I promise,’ Kitty said, sounding taken aback. ‘I wasn’t planning to.’
‘Good.’
I could tell Liv was still anxious, and I leaned across to give her a smile. ‘I’ll be okay,’ I said, holding out my hand to squeeze hers.
‘Don’t sweat it, honey,’ said Kitty with a giggle.
I pulled my hand in quickly, as she wound up the window, and the taxi pulled away.
Twenty Two
After making arrangements to collect the money the next afternoon, I spent the rest of the day locking everything down. I called a meeting with Alex, Matt and a few of my other closest confidantes at my penthouse on the top floor of the Dominion hotel. I ran them through what had happened, and what would be happening from now on. I wasn’t about to let a security breach like this occur again, and everyone who worked for me – in whatever capacity – was going to have to be scrutinised anew. It was a mammoth undertaking, but I had a team dedicated to info gathering, and this was going to be their only duty for the next few weeks.
Alex and Matt had left my office in silence. I think they must have wondered, like me, why Rick had got himself involved in something so ridiculous and downright dangerous, when he’d had such a good position in my ranks. Their wages and holidays were second to none, and the price for their loyalty and discretion was an incredibly generous pension. To give that up, he must have been in desperate straits indeed. I almost felt sorry for him, but only almost…I’d feel a whole lot sorrier for Felicity Flint, should anything go wrong with the handover.
Giles got back to me in the early evening. I needed to know if he’d managed to quash Charlotte’s story, and I’d rung him intermittently throughout the day, before giving up and trying to get hold of Max instead. The girl who’d answered his work phone had coolly informed me that he was out of the country on personal business. When Giles finally reached me, he was short and to the point.