"No sale, Nathan," she said, getting up from the couch. "This merry-go-round is slowing down for a while."
"But, Francesca-"
She gave him a quick kiss on the cheek and then left his office before he could say any more. She knew her popularity wasn't any guarantee that the network wouldn't fire her if they felt she was being unreasonable, but she had to take that chance. The events of the past six weeks had shown her where her priorities lay, and they had also taught her something important about herself-she no longer had anything to prove.
Once she arrived at her own office, Francesca found a pile of telephone messages waiting for her. She picked up the first one, then set it aside without looking at it. Her gaze drifted to the file on her desk, which held a detailed summary of the professional golfing career of Dallas Beaudine. At the same time she had been trying to put Dallie out of her mind, she had been gathering the material. Although she
toyed thoughtfully with the pages, she didn't bother to reread what she'd already studied so thoroughly. Every article, every phone call she'd made, every piece of information she had been able to gather
pointed in the same direction. Dallas Beaudine had all the talent it took to be a champion; he just didn't seem to want it badly enough. She thought about what Skeet had said and wondered what all this had to do with Teddy, but the answer continued to elude her.
Stefan was in town and she had promised to go with him to a private party at La Cote Basque that night. For the rest of the afternoon, she considered canceling, but she knew that would be the coward's way
out. Stefan wanted something from her that she now understood she couldn't give, and it wasn't fair to postpone talking to him about it any longer.
Stefan had been in New York twice since she'd gotten back from Wynette, and she had seen him both times. He had known about Teddy's kidnapping, of course, so she had been forced to tell him something about what had happened in Wynette, although she had omitted giving him any details about Dallie.
She studied the photograph of Teddy on her desk. It showed him floating in a Flintstones inner tube, his small, skinny legs glistening with water. If Dallie hadn't wanted to contact her again, he should at least have made some attempt to get in touch with Teddy. She felt sad and disillusioned. She had thought that Dallie was a better person than he had turned out to be. As she headed home that evening, she told herself she had to accept the fact that she had made a gigantic mistake and then forget about it.
Before she got dressed for her date with Stefan, she sat with Teddy while he ate his dinner and thought about how carefree she had been only two months before. Now she felt as if she were carrying the troubles of the world on her shoulders. She should never have had that ridiculous one-night stand with Dallie, she was getting ready to hurt Stefan, and the network might very well fire her. She was too miserable to cheer up Holly Grace, and she was terribly worried about Teddy. He was so withdrawn and so obviously unhappy. He wouldn't talk about what had happened in Wynette, and he resisted all of her efforts to draw him out about the trouble he was having in school.
"How did things go with you and Miss Pearson today?"
she asked casually, as she watched him sneak a forkful of peas underneath his baked potato.
"Okay, 1 guess."
"Just okay?"
He pushed his chair back from the table and cleared his plate. "I've got some homework to do. I'm not too hungry."
She frowned as he left the kitchen. She wished Teddy's teacher weren't so rigid and punitive. Unlike Teddy's former teachers, Miss Pearson seemed more concerned with grades than with learning, a quality that Francesca believed was disastrous when working with gifted children. Teddy had never worried about his marks until this year, but now that seemed to be all he thought about. As Francesca slipped into a beaded Armani gown for her evening with Stefan, she decided to schedule another appointment with the school administrator.
The party at La Cote Basque was lively, with wonderful food and a satisfying number of famous faces in the crowd, but Francesca was too distracted to enjoy herself. A group of paparazzi was waiting as she and Stefan emerged from the restaurant shortly after midnight. She pulled the fur collar of her coat high around her chin and looked away from the flashing strobes. "Sable sucks," she muttered.
"That's not exactly a popularly held opinion, darling," Stefan replied, leading her toward his limousine.
"That media circus happened because of this coat," she complained after the limo had slipped out into the traffic on East Fifty-fifth Street. "The press hardly ever bothers you. It's me. If I'd worn my old raincoat.,." She chattered on about the sable, stalling for time while she tried to find the courage to hurt him. Finally she fell silent and let the old memories that had been nagging at her all evening take hold-thinking about her childhood, about Chloe, about Dallie. Stefan kept gazing over at her, apparently lost in thoughts of his own. As the limousine swept past Cartier, she decided she couldn't put it off any longer, and she touched his arm. "Do you mind if we walk for a bit?"
It was past midnight, the February night was chill, and Stefan looked at her uneasily-as if he might suspect what was coming-but he ordered the driver to stop anyway. As they stepped out onto the sidewalk, a hansom cab passed, the hooves of the horse clomping rhythmically on the pavement. They began walking down Fifth Avenue together, their breath clouding the air.
"Stefan," she said, resting her cheek for a brief moment against the fine woolen sleeve of his overcoat.
"I know you're looking for a woman to share your life, but I'm afraid I'm not the one."
She heard him take a deep breath, then expel it. "You're tired tonight, darling. Perhaps this discussion should wait."
"I think it's waited long enough," she said gently.
She talked for some time, and in the end she could see that she had hurt him, but perhaps not as much
as she had feared. She suspected that someplace inside him, he had known all along that she was not
the right woman to be his princess.
Dallie called Francesca the following day at the office. He began the conversation without preamble, as
if he'd just talked to her the day before instead of six weeks ago and there were no bad feelings between them.
"Hey, Francie, you've got half of Wynette ready to lynch you."
She had a sudden vision of all those glorious temper tantrums she used to throw in her youth, but she kept her voice calm and casual, even though her spine was rigid with tension. "Any particular reason?" she asked.
"The way you ran all over that TV minister last week was a real shame. People down here take their evangelists seriously, and Johnny Platt is a real favorite."
"He's a charlatan," she replied, as calmly as she could manage. Her fingernails dug into her palms. Why couldn't Dallie just once say what was on his mind? Why did he have to go through all these elaborate camouflaging rituals?
"Maybe, but they've got him scheduled opposite 'Gilligan's Island' reruns, so when people consider the alternative, nobody's too anxious to see his program get canceled." There was a short, thoughtful pause. "Tell me something, Francie-and this should be right up your alley-with Gilligan and his buddies shipwrecked on that island so long, how's come those women never ran out of eye makeup? And toilet paper? You think the captain and Gilligan used banana leaves all that time?"
She wanted to scream at him, but she refused to give him the satisfaction. "I have a meeting, Dallie. Did you call for any particular reason?"
"As a matter of fact, I'm flying to New York next week to meet with the boys at the network again,