Paddy was starting to sweat. “I’m off.”
He looked at her defiantly. “We need to thank Tracy for all her help.”
But Paddy was already at the door of the living room. “Good-bye.”
She hurried across the hall and opened the door to the howling vortex, narrowing her eyes against the stray dust, racing along the balcony to the stairs. She pulled at the door, using her weight when she felt that it wouldn’t give. For a terrifying moment she thought Garry was behind it, smiling calmly and holding it closed effortlessly. Terry leaned over her shoulder and pushed open the door with one hand. She tumbled into the echoing stairwell, into the acrid stench of solvent and piss.
“Are you nuts? What the hell was all that about?”
She spun to face him, grabbed his neck with both hands, and shook, mistaking Terry for the real threat, making him lose his footing until his flailing hand fell on the metal banister and he managed to steady himself.
They stood still, Paddy holding his neck, Terry bent curiously towards and away from her, averting his eyes in submission. The muffled vibration of their struggle throbbed through the thick concrete. Horrified, she opened her fingers and Terry stood up slowly. He straightened his jacket without looking at her. They walked down together, Paddy panting until she got her breath back, Terry saying nothing. Downstairs, they crossed the lobby, walked out into the day, and parted without speaking.
II
Dr. Pete was propped up on marshmallow pillows, looking out the window at a high statue of the Protestant Reformationist John Knox. She was quite sure they weren’t his own pajamas. They had the stiffness of institutionally laundered clothes. Boil-washing had faded them to a sun-bleached blue that clashed horribly with his yellow skin. The crisp white sheet in his lap was folded neatly down, and sometimes, while he was talking, he would stroke it thoughtfully.
“Ludicrous. Knox was an anti-iconoclast. He wouldn’t have approved of a statue.” He smiled distantly. “If they weren’t Calvinists you’d suspect the memorial committee of having a sense of humor.”
Paddy didn’t know anything about the various Protestant splinters, but she smiled to please him.
It was a modern extension to the old hospital, with copper-tinted windows facing onto the necropolis, a jagged Victorian mini-Manhattan of exuberant architecture, erected when celebrating death wasn’t yet taboo. The three other beds in Dr. Pete’s room had a large floor space around each for all the equipment they might need. The patient in the bed across the way was unconscious, an unpromising strip of skin under a paper-pristine sheet. Expensive equipment was conferenced around his bed: a heart monitor, a hissing pump, a drip, and a blinking television screen. Next to him his ruddy-cheeked wife sat reading the Sun, squinting as if it required concentration.
It was an unhappy accident that the cancer ward overlooked the graveyard, but one which Dr. Pete, full of medication and clear of pain for the first time in months, was enjoying. Sober, pepped-up, and without his habitual pained slouch, he was suddenly a very different man. It no longer seemed infeasible that he had swung women over puddles or written beautifully. He had been talking about John Knox’s statue at the top of the hill for ten minutes, picking his words carefully as he related the history of its construction and why it had been built in the middle of what became a huge graveyard.
“But by then no one cared where he was. Why did you come?” Pete’s steady eyes seared into hers.
“Just wondered how you were,” she lied. “I wanted to see how ye were.”
Pete watched his fingertips running over the stiff hem of the sheet. “Well, I’m dying, as you can see.”
She smiled politely again. She had come here to hide for half an hour. The visit was supposed to be a lighthearted stopover to break up a very bad day, but it wasn’t working out at all. She decided to hand over her token gift and get out. The cellophane wrapper crackled loudly as she pulled a bottle of garish orange energy drink out of her bag.
“Lucozade.”
He sat up, genuinely pleased, and patted the top of his bedside locker. “Put it up there.” She opened the door to the cabinet, but he stopped her. “No, no, put it on top.”
He glanced around the room, and she followed his eye to the other patients’ lockers. Every one of them had bottles and bags of sweets and flowers and cards stacked on them, but Pete’s was completely bare.
“I was rushed in this time. When I came in before, I brought my own. I won’t be pitied by bloody nurses.”
He wouldn’t have said it if he hadn’t been on morphine, and she was shocked to hear that he was so alone. Whenever she’d been to visit relatives in hospital she’d had to queue in the corridor, waiting for a batch of family to leave before she could get in. She felt ashamed for him and changed the subject.
“I’ve always wondered,” she said, “why do they call you Dr. Pete?”
“I am a doctor. I’ve got a doctorate in divinity.”
She waited for him to laugh at her credulity and admit it was a joke, but he didn’t.
“Why did you do that?”
“I wanted to be a minister. I’m a son of the manse.”
“Your dad was a minister?”
“And his father before him.”
“You’re less like a minister than anyone I’ve ever met.”
“I was a disappointment. I liked what you said to Richards, about substituting the basic text. My family couldn’t conceive of a life outside the kirk. I’m just getting there myself.”
“I lost my faith early, before I made my first communion. I still can’t tell my family.”
He reached across, a beatific light in his eye, and patted her hand. “Lie to them. Let them not worry. I hurt my father. It was needless. I didn’t change his mind and he didn’t change mine. We argued on the day he died.”
Paddy shook her head. “I can’t fight with my father. He’s very meek.”
“Ah, the meek. Playing the long game. Sneaky bastards.”
The man across the room let out a soft groan. His wife reached out and patted the bed without taking her eyes off the paper.
“That man’ll be dead in the morning,” said Pete. “If he’s lucky.”
Paddy glanced over at the man and felt her face flush suddenly. She hadn’t come here to have her nose rubbed in the inevitability of death. Pete saw her eyes redden and looked alarmed.
“No, it’s not about you,” she blurted, realizing too late that it would be wrong to say she didn’t care that he was going to die. “Oh God almighty, Pete, I’ve done an awful thing. I planted evidence on Henry Naismith and now he’s confessed to killing Brian Wilcox. I was sure it was him.”
“What did you plant?”
“Hair.” She rubbed her eyes hard. “Heather Allen’s hair. And he confessed to killing her and Thomas Dempsie as well.”
“Naismith didn’t kill Thomas Dempsie. He was in the cells that night.”
“I know. So if he’s confessing to that as well, how genuine can the confession to Baby Brian be?”
Pete’s eyes widened calmly. “Why would he make a false confession?”
“It was his son. He’s protecting his boy.”
Pete frowned for a moment. “Garry Naismith.”
“That’s right. Garry killed Thomas and let Alfred take the blame.”
“Did Alfred Dempsie know that’s what happened?”
“Maybe. I think Naismith found out about Garry and blamed himself. I think he’s been covering up for his son ever since.”
“Makes sense. Henry saw the light after Thomas died. Changed his life.” Pete could have been discussing biscuits. “Naismith’s giving up his life to save his boy. Greater love hath no man.”
She nodded at the familiar phrase heard out of context. “You did do divinity, didn’t you?”