“What is this?” I ask him.
“This is the building I’ve bought with all my savings. It’s mine now and I can trace legal title back to before 1959, which will be important when the Miamistas come with their Yankee lawyers,” Hector says.
“Why are you showing this to me?”
Hector grins. “This building is worth nothing now. Nothing. But in a few years, after Jefe and Little Jefe… A hotel. A boutique hotel right on the Malecón. A minute from the sea, a short walk to the Prado. This place will be worth millions of dollars.”
I nod my head. “If the Revolution falters after Fidel and Raúl.”
“It’s a gamble, Mercado. Like everything in life. I’m not like the rest of these fucking Cubanos with their long faces and their gloomy lives. I see a future right here, in Havana. Not in La Yuma. Here,” he says.
“Yes.”
He lights another cigarette and leans against a crumbling wall. Pulverized plaster and tobacco smoke obscure his face.
A minute goes by.
Two.
“Uh, sir, I should probably be getting back. Those currency cases aren’t going to solve themselves.”
He sighs, disappointed. “Nietzsche said that knowledge kills action. Action requires the veils of illusion. That’s the doctrine of Hamlet. When you go there and you meet them, what then, Mercado? What then?”
“Sir, I really appreciate the fact that you’ve trusted me with this-”
“I had hoped that here in my secret place you were going to tell me your secret. I naively thought that you trusted me sufficiently to give me your truth.”
“I have given you the truth.”
“Thing is, Mercado, you probably think you’ve got nothing to lose. But I have a lot to lose. I see a little glimmer of hope. I’ve got an investment. A dream.”
“I won’t tell anyone.”
“Of course you won’t, but you’re still going to fuck me over. If you go to the United States and stay there, I’ll lose my job, they’ll take my property, they’ll probably throw me in jail. My wife and kids will be destroyed. You want to see my wife blowing fat Swedes to feed our kids?”
He throws the cigarette. It bounces off my cheek, sparks flying.
“Is that what you fucking want?” he yells. His face is pink. He’s really angry now.
“What are you talking about? The United States? I wanna go to Mexico, I have an interview at the-”
Hector reaches into the pocket of his roomy slacks and pulls out a Russian automatic. He flicks off the safety and, fast for a fat man, presses it against my throat.
“No more fucking lies, Mercado. I could kill you here in this derelict building. The ocean booming against the seawall, the traffic, no fucking witnesses, nobody would even find the body for months, if ever.”
“Hector, I-”
“You want the DGI to destroy me? You want them to throw me in jail with all the people I’ve put away over the years? Is that what you want after all I’ve done for you? Made you a fucking detective, groomed you, made every other goddamn cop in the station treat you with respect. Answer me, Mercadito!”
The gun.
The dust.
His red eyes.
“I don’t want to do anything to hurt you, boss,” I say.
“Why do you think he was in Colorado posing as a fucking Mexican? Did you ever think about that? He didn’t want to be found. He ran from the Cuba that raised him and he ran from the Florida Cubans who took him in. He ran and disappeared. He didn’t want your help. Or anybody’s help. He was a selfish motherfucker, Mercado. A drunk. A fuckup. He was the fucking town ratcatcher. Forget him.”
He pushes the revolver hard against my windpipe, holds it there for a full ten seconds, but then, suddenly, he wilts. He lets the gun fall to his side, then takes a step back and sits on an old table.
The performance-if it was a performance-has exhausted him.
He looks in his pocket for his flask of rum but he’s left it in the office.
“Just tell me the truth, Mercado. Ricky’s a reporter. And despite the fireworks, a good one too. There was something he didn’t like.”
“I don’t know wh-”
“The autopsy. He had the Mexican consulate conduct an autopsy.”
“That’s no secret either.”
“No, but the results are or were. I found them, and if I can find them the DGI can find them too. They’ll put two and two together like me.”
“I don’t see your point.”
“The point is revenge. The pathologist discovered that your father was not killed in the initial accident. A lung was punctured and he fell down an embankment into the forest. He tried to climb back up to the road but he couldn’t make it. Gradually, over a period of hours, I believe, in very cold temperatures, your father drowned in his own blood. That hurts, doesn’t it?”
“Yes.”
“Hurts bad. Both of you. You and Ricky. Ricky went and it’s your turn now. You’re going to go to Mexico City and you’re going to find a coyote who can take you across the border into the United States. There you are going to make your way to Colorado and investigate your father’s death and try to find the person who killed him.”
I look at Hector. Off the street ten years, slow and old and fat and smart as a fucking whip.
“How did you piece it together?”
“Ricky.”
“What about him?”
“Two trips to the United States in a year are bound to raise suspicions. Even though he’s a Party member, Ricky was followed by the DGI. He did indeed cover a conference at the UN and a Friends of Cuba rally in New York City, but then the DGI lost him for four days. They think he was in Manhattan doing the tourist scene and probably fucking like crazy, but I suspect that during that time he borrowed some Cuban American friend’s ID, flew to Denver, drove to Fairview, checked into a ski lodge or a hotel, and spent three days asking questions about his father’s death. Then he came back to New York, crammed a week’s worth of interviews into a single afternoon, and flew back to you with his results.”
“This is your guess, not that of the Interior Ministry?”
“Yes.”
“Am I under surveillance?”
“Neither of you is under surveillance. The DGI isn’t interested in you. Not yet. But you’ve been clumsy, Mercado, you and your brother. And clumsy doesn’t get ignored forever. Do you understand what I’m telling you?”
“I understand.”
“So let it go. Just let it go.”
“How can I?”
“Aren’t you Cuban? Where did you grow up? Have you learned nothing? Don’t you know the game is rigged from the start?”
“What are you going to do with these guesses of yours?” I ask.
He spits on the floor. “I’m no chivato, I’m not going to let them know about Ricky or the manner of your father’s death or your plans, but I am going to stop them giving you that visa. If you go to America and get arrested or stopped at the border it’s over for me. I’m not going to let you destroy me, Mercado.”
“You can’t do that.”
“It’s too late. It’s done. I opposed your application. I sent them a letter yesterday telling them that you’re too valuable an asset and that it would be a mistake to let you go to Mexico. They’ll take the hint.”
“What about what you said in the office?”
“Oh, that was just to give them an angle. They always want an angle. The boss who lies to his subordinates.”
Now I’m angry. “You can’t do this to me, Hector.”
“I’ve been patient with you. Now, do me a favor, get the fuck out of my building, Mercado. Take the rest of the day off, and I never want to hear about this again.”
“Fuck you and your fucking shitbox. I hope you choke in it, you old bastard!”
I storm out, cursing.
On the way up Morro a kid blows me the fucky-fucky. I flash my ID. Hassle him. Power: makes everyone a tyrant, and in a country where one in every twenty-five people is either a cop or an informant, that’s a lot of tyranny to go around. Pat the kid. Fake ID, not interested, but sixty bucks Canadian is a good get. Pretty boy. A jockey. I take the cash, tell him to fuck off.