She looked at me, in piteous protest.
How could any male, any with even a single drop of blood in his veins, any who still drew breath, look upon such a woman with gentility?
She shook her head. "Please" she said.
I wanted to thrust apart her knees and, taking her by the hair and an ankle, throw her to her back, on the stones. I wanted to have her, ruthlessly, with cries of joy. I clenched my fists. I was chained. How I envied then the rude beasts of Gor, who have such women for their pleasure.
"Forgive me," I begged her.
"You looked upon me," she said, shrinking back, shuddering, "as might have a man of Gor, one whom a woman knows is her master, one whom she knows she must obey."
"No, no," I protested. "That is not true. No."
"It is perhaps fortunate for me," she smiled, relaxing, "that you are closely chained."
"Perhaps," I smiled.
She laughed. She looked at me. She touched the rag she wore. "I suppose it is difficult" she said, "to respect a girl who wears the slave rag, the Ta-Teera."
"No," I said. "Of course not."
"Even one," she smiled, indicating her collar, "who wean the collar of a slave?"
"Of course not," I said.
To be sure, it was not easy to respect a woman who wore only the scandalous and sensuous Ta-Teera, and whose throat was locked in the lovely, exciting collar of a slave. How could one see such a woman, truly, except as a slave? And how could one treat such a woman, truly. except as a slave? And the slaves of Goreans were true slaves. How natural then that they should treat them as what they were, their owned slaves.
"Of course not," I said. "I respect you deeply and fully."
To be sure, the sight of such a woman, so clad and collared, tended to provoke not emotions of respect but deeper and more primitive emotions, emotions such as love, desire and lust, and dominance and uncompromising ownership. Such a woman was, under the enhancements of a civilization. the primitive woman, who must hope to please the brute who owns her.
"I accord you full and total respect." I said.
"A moment ago," she chided me, smiling. "you looked upon me as though I might have been a slave girl."
"Forgive me," I smiled.
"You do respect me, don't you, Jason?" she asked.
"I do." I said. "totally."
"Then I forgive you." she smiled.
"Thank you." I said. I was grateful and relieved that she had forgiven me for my lapse. for my having looked upon her, for an instant, as a man upon a woman. I had looked upon her for that shameful instant not as a person, but as e luscious, desirable female, one fitted by nature to kneel at the feet of a strong man.
She smiled at me. "I care deeply for you, Jason," she said. "You are the first man I have met, in years, who has been kind to me, who has regarded me with gentleness and respect"
I smiled, and shrugged.
"Too," she said, "you are the first man of my world I have seen in years. What lovely memories of their sweetness, their pleasantries and courtesies, you recall in me."
"Your life as a slave must have been hard," I said.
She smiled. "We serve, and obey," she said.
"Doubtless some of your masters must have been harsh," I said.
"Please do not ask a girl to speak of her bondage," she said. She put her head down.
"I'm sorry," I said, softly.
"You cannot even begin to suspect," she said, "what it is to be a slave girl on a world with such men as those of Gor."
"I'm sorry," I said.
"They are overwhelming," she said. "On occasion I have even been forced to yield to them."
I looked at her.
"As a slave," she said, bitterly.
"I'm very sorry," I said. I almost wanted to scream with pleasure at the thought of the lovely Darlene being forced to yield as a slave. How I envied the brute who would have held her in his arms!
"Jason," she said, softly.
"Yes," I said.
"No," she said. "It is nothing."
"What is wrong?" I asked. "You seem troubled, fearful."
"You know what room this is, do you not?" she asked.
"It is a room of slave preparation, you have told me," I said.
"Yes," she said. "Do you know what your presence in this room indicates?"
"That I am to be soon sold," I said, bitterly.
"I fear so," she said.
"How soon am I to be sold?" I asked.
"I do not know," she said. "I am not privy to the secrets of masters."
"But doubtless it will be soon," I said.
"I fear so," she said.
She was silent.
"Jason," she said.
"Yes," I said.
"Do you wish to be sold?" she asked.
"No," I said. "Of course not."
"I can help you to escape." she whispered.
I shook in the chains. "How?" I said. "No," I said. "It is too dangerous."
"I have stolen the key to your chains," she said, "and to your collar. I have stolen clothing for you. I can show you a secret exit from this place."
"It is madness," I said. "What escape can there be for a slave on Gor?"
"Do you wish to try, Jason?" she asked.
Suddenly we were silent and regarded one another, alarmed. We heard two men talking, approaching.
Then two guards, gigantic fellows, brawny, stripped to the waist, their heads shaven save for a knot of hair behind the crown, stood behind the barred gate to the cell. The gate was ajar, doubtless that the girl could come and go, attending me.
The girl faced them, making herself small, kneeling, the palms of her hands on the floor, her head down to the stones. It excited me to see her in such a posture. She was a slave girl in the presence of masters.
"Have you fed the slave, Darlene?" asked one of the men, the larger of the two.
"Yes, Masters," she said, not raising her head.
"Then leave him, Darlene, Slave Girl," he said.
"Yes, Masters," she said, not raising her head.
Then the two men turned away and went down the hall.
Quickly the girl raised her head and, turning about, regarded me. Her eyes were wide. Her lip trembled. "I fear there is little time," she whispered.
I nodded.
"Do you wish to try, Jason?" she asked.
"Surely there would be incredible danger in this for you," I said.
She shrugged. "No one knows that I have the keys," she said. "They will not believe that I could free you."
"But what if you were caught?" I asked.
"I am a slave girl," she said. "Doubtless I would be fed to sleen."
"I cannot permit you to take such a risk," I said.
"They will not know it was I," she said. "They will not believe it could be I."
"Do you think you are safe?" I asked.
"Yes," she said. "I will be safe. The danger will be yours."
"Free me," I said.
She rose to her feet and ran to the side of the room, where there was a small store of moss, tinder for lighting the lamp. She snatched two keys from the moss.
I clenched my fists in the manacles.
She fled back to me, wildly, and thrust one of the keys into the shackle on my right ankle. She opened it. She then, with the same key, opened the shackle on my left ankle and the manacles on my wrists.
We listened. We heard nothing in the corridor. I rubbed my wrists.
I felt her jam another key into the lock on the back of my collar. She twisted the key, freeing the single-action double bolt.
"You would not get far in a collar," she said, whispering, smiling.