The hands who had already buried their pasta in sauce and had begun eating paused long enough to chorus Cosy’s remarks. A lot of compliments for her cooking were thrown in, as well.
Carla smiled and tried to acknowledge the praise, but her heart wasn’t in it. She was thinking desperately of the gallons and gallons of boiling water that had just gone down the kitchen drain. It would be impossible to cook more spaghetti in time to get it on the table for a second serving. And even if it were possible, at the rate the sauce was disappearing, there wouldn’t be anything to put on the pasta but salt, pepper and a splash of ketchup.
Maybe Cosy’s just teasing me. Surely no man could eat one of those huge servings and come back for more.
Carla looked toward Ten, who had been the first man to be served. He was better than halfway through his plate and showed not one sign of slowing down.
My God. Even Cash doesn‘t eat that much, exceptwhen we’re camping and he’s been tramping all over getting rock samples.
Realization hit. A day’s work out on the open range was certainly the equivalent of Cash’s geological explorations. The hands were definitely going to be coming back for seconds.
The bowl of green beans thumped onto the table. Carla turned and headed back for the kitchen.
"Aren’t you going to eat?" Luke asked as he reached for the rapidly vanishing sauce.
"I’m not hungry."
Carla hurried into the kitchen and began opening can after can of chili.
6
The memory of that first night as the Rocking M’s cook still had the power to raise color in Carla’s cheeks a month later. The ranch hands had ribbed her mercilessly but not unkindly; Luke had muttered something about cooking for men instead of schoolboys; and Ten had gotten his head handed to him for pointing out that the food was four times as good as anything they had eaten in years, so why complain over short rations?
In fact, Ten had gotten his head handed to him on a regular basis since Carla had come to the ranch. From the look on Luke’s face at the moment, Ten was about to get another full serving of his boss’s temper. Hurriedly Carla tried to take the scrub brush from Ten’s hand.
"Thanks for the help, but Luke is right. He didn’t hire you to clean walls."
"You’ve been working longer hours than any hand since you got here," Ten said calmly, hanging on to the brush. "This is my day off, and if I want to scrub kitchen walls, I’ll damned well scrub kitchen walls."
Luke looked at Carla’s drawn, unhappy face and felt his temper rise even higher. Ten was right; Carla had been working twelve-hour days since she had come to the ranch. Every floor in the ranch house was clean enough to eat from. The kitchen counters and cupboards gleamed with cleanliness, as did the beaten-up wooden tables in the dining room. Thanks to Carla’s detailed shopping lists, the pantry and cupboards were packed with various foods, the refrigerator was bursting with fresh fruits and vegetables, and a menu was posted in the dining room so that the men would know just what the coming week held in the way of meals.
Even as Luke stood glaring at Ten and Carla, the kitchen was fragrant with the smell of chocolate chip cookies baking in the range’s huge oven. Apple, cherry and blueberry pies had become staple items at the dinner table. Homemade baking powder biscuits and bread helped to fill in the cracks. Waffles and pancakes were common breakfast fare. Fresh brownies appeared in lunch bags with gratifying regularity.
And Carla looked as though she hadn’t eaten a bit of any of the bounty. Luke suspected she had lost weight since she had come to the ranch. He was certain that she smiled less frequently than ever in his memory. He was also certain that he was the cause of her unhappiness. Each time he told himself that he wouldn’t lose his temper with her again, he would see her looking up at Ten with wide eyes and laughter trembling on her lips; and then Luke would feel anger racing through his blood, driving out the desire that was so much a part of him these days that he barely noticed it.
Luke tried to tell himself he was grateful that Carla no longer followed him around like a lost puppy, but he didn’t believe it. Slowly, painfully, he had come to the realization that he had wanted Carla at the ranch for the summer because of her transparent feelings for him, not despite them.
For the past four weeks he had thought often of other summers when he had been the sun in her sky…and she had been the sun in his. At some deep, hidden level of his mind, he had wanted to know again that feeling of being special to someone. It was a heady sensation, one he had never before known, for his father had been too busy working the ranch to pay much attention to his son; and his mother had had nothing left over from fighting her own interior devils.
Damn it all to hell, Luke fumed silently. Why did Carla have to grow up and spoil everything?
There was no answer for Luke’s angry question, unless the insistent beat of his own blood was a kind of answer. Maybe Carla hadn’t spoiled anything after all. Maybe she had grown up enough not to run away in fear if he held her against his rigid, hungry body and tasted the honey of her mouth once more.
Not a chance. She’s just a schoolgirl.
She’s twenty-one. A lot of women have kids by the time they’re that age – and they didn’t get them by running away from a man’s kiss, either.
Luke knew his reasoning was true as far as it went. But there was another truth, one that came a lot closer to home, a truth that lay beneath Luke’s hair-trigger temper.
There are two men I call friends. She’s the kid sister of one of those men.
Yeah. And she’s going to break her heart on the other one if I don’t stop it.
That’s Ten’s problem. And Cash’s.
But it wasn’t, and Luke knew it He wanted Carla. He wanted to take the clothes from her body and look at her, touch her, taste her, sheathe himself in her until there was nothing but her passionate heat bathing him and ecstasy bursting through both of them. He wanted that until he woke up sweating, shaking, wild.
She is Cash’s sister, for God’s sake! Have you forgotten that?
No. That’s why I waited until she turned twenty-one, old enough to do whatever she damn well pleases.
Silent questions, answers, questions, retorts, questions; and finally the question that had no answer but silence and rage.
Are you going to ask her to marry you?
It was an impossible situation. Luke had vowed long ago that he would never ask a woman to be his wife unless she were ranch-born and ranch-raised, able to accept the hard work and isolation that was a part and parcel of the Rocking M’s rugged life.
But Luke had found no ranch girl who could reach down past his harsh exterior and touch his soul. He had found no ranch girl who could make his body leap into readiness with a look, a smile, the clean scent of her skin. That was what Carla did. She made the raw lighting of desire run like liquid fire in his veins.
Gradually Luke realized that Carla was watching him with shadowed, unhappy eyes; and Ten was watching everything with an infuriating smile on his handsome face.
"Counting to a hundred, boss man?" Ten asked in mock sympathy. "You know, you never did have the temper of a saint or a martyr, but lately you could have taught Satan himself a trick or two."
Ten’s drawl was as mocking as his smile. Luke felt his hold on his temper slipping. The only thing that made him hang on to his self-control was the certainty that Ten wanted him to lose it.
"Keep pushing, Tennessee. You’ll get there."
"I’ll take that as a promise."
"Carla, why don’t you go check on those kittens in the barn," Luke said, never looking away from Ten’s calm, handsome face. "Make sure none of them get lost."