But Luke had found no ranch girl who could reach down past his harsh exterior and touch his soul. He had found no ranch girl who could make his body leap into readiness with a look, a smile, the clean scent of her skin. That was what Carla did. She made the raw lighting of desire run like liquid fire in his veins.
Gradually Luke realized that Carla was watching him with shadowed, unhappy eyes; and Ten was watching everything with an infuriating smile on his handsome face.
"Counting to a hundred, boss man?" Ten asked in mock sympathy. "You know, you never did have the temper of a saint or a martyr, but lately you could have taught Satan himself a trick or two."
Ten’s drawl was as mocking as his smile. Luke felt his hold on his temper slipping. The only thing that made him hang on to his self-control was the certainty that Ten wanted him to lose it.
"Keep pushing, Tennessee. You’ll get there."
"I’ll take that as a promise."
"Carla, why don’t you go check on those kittens in the barn," Luke said, never looking away from Ten’s calm, handsome face. "Make sure none of them get lost."
"The cookies will – "
"I’ll take care of them," Luke interrupted, his voice soft. Too soft.
Carla looked from one man to the other with wide, worried eyes. She started to speak, only to have her mouth go dry when Luke looked at her. Without another word she turned away. The taut silence was broken by the light sound of Carla’s retreating footsteps. The back screen door squeaked open and banged shut.
Luke waited for a long count of fifteen before he spoke.
"All right, Ten. Let’s have it."
"You do know how to tempt a man," muttered Ten, watching Luke with narrow gray eyes.
"So do you. Why are you trying to pick a fight with me?"
Ten didn’t bother to deny it. "Just thought I’d give you something as mean as yourself to take out your temper on."
"Meaning?"
"You’ve been riding Carla hard since she got here. No matter what she does, you tear a strip off her."
"Maybe. And maybe I think my cook has better things to do than chase my ramrod."
"Yeah, I kind of thought that might be the burr under your saddle." Ten’s mocking smile faded.
"You don’t have a kind word to say to Carla, yet when someone else does, you jump real salty. You never used to be a dog in the manger, but the way you’re acting lately, a man might think if you can’t have Carla you don’t want anyone to have her."
"She’s too young to talk about having."
"Bull, boss man. She’s a woman all the way to the soles of her feet." Ten saw the shift in Luke’s expression, the flash of hunger and anger. The ramrod nodded, satisfied with what he saw. "She’s fully of age. If she wants a man, she’s entitled."
"Leave her alone, Ten."
"Why? You’ve made it real clear you don’t want her. Hell, it’s not like she was a kid anymore. The men in Boulder aren’t blind. By now, one of them has probably taught her why women are soft and men are hard."
"Drop it."
Ten sighed, lifted his hat and raked his fingers through his black hair. "You’re being a damned fool," he said calmly. "The way I see it, Carla has loved you for years and you’ve pushed her away for years. Finally you made it stick. She went off to college and found men who didn’t push her away. She grew up. Then she came back to see how you stacked up against her memories and her new experiences with men."
"Carla isn’t the type to sleep around," Luke said tightly.
"Who said anything about sleeping around?"
Ten retorted. "I was talking about a young girl who was sent out of here with her pride in shreds. Seems to me she could be forgiven for finding a nice boy or two who wanted to kiss all the wounds and make her feel like a woman instead of a ‘schoolgirl.’"
Luke said not one word, but the thought of Carla being touched by another man shook him. The thought of her being taken by anyone sent a killing rage through Luke’s veins. He had been so sure, so unspeakably certain, that she would never allow anyone to touch her but him.
Ten measured the barely contained rage in Luke’s expression and shrugged. "Suit yourself, boss man. But you should know one thing. Carla told me she came here this summer to get over you. You keep riding roughshod over her feelings and she’ll walk out of here at the end of the summer and never look back. Then where will you be? You may not be her first man, but so what? You’re the one who was given first call and you turned her down flat. Your fault, not hers. You’ll never find another woman with half what she has to offer and you know it."
There was a long, taut silence while Luke measured Ten with the cold yellow eyes of a cornered mountain lion.
"I wasn’t cut out to live in a city," Luke said finally.
"Did she ask you to?"
"No, but sooner or later she would. The Rocking M is hell on women. I’d rather not marry at all than have a woman walk out on her kids and her husband, or hit the bottle or go crazy staying on the ranch and make everyone’s life a living hell."
"Carla wouldn’t – "
"Like flaming hell she wouldn’t," Luke said savagely. "Do you think my mother or my aunts wanted to betray their children and husbands? Do you think my father or my uncles deliberately picked weak women to marry? Do you think I want to watch Carla get thin and sullen grieving for a way of life she can’t have if she’s my wife? Or maybe you think I should be like some college kid and just take what she’s offering and not worry about marriage, is that it?"
Ten swore beneath his breath, the words all the more violent for the softness of his voice.
"Now you’re beginning to understand," Luke said. "Stay away from her, Ten. This is the only warning you’ll get."
"What if I’m thinking of marriage?"
Luke closed his eyes for an instant. When they opened there was no emotion showing; not anger, not fear, not desire, nothing but an icy emptiness.
"Are you thinking of marriage?" he asked softly.
"She’s the kind of woman that makes a man think of hearth fires and long winter nights and babies teething on your knuckles," Ten said. Then he sighed, raked his fingers through his hair again and added, "But that’s all it will ever be for this cowboy. Thinking. Dreaming. I’m piss-poor husband material and no one knows it better than I do." He jerked his hat into place and met Luke’s eyes. "Ease off on the spurs, Luke. Carla has a real tender hide where you’re concerned."
"And if I don’t?" Luke asked, more curious than angry.
"I’ll get to feeling protective and you’ll jump salty one too many times and we’ll have hell’s own fight. Then you’ll be short one ramrod and the ranch will be short one boss." Ten smiled wolfishly. "You’re bigger than I am, but you’d start out fighting fair. I wouldn’t. Be quite a brawl while it lasted."
Unwillingly Luke smiled in return, then laughed. After a moment his face settled into grim lines once more.
"Hell of a mess, isn’t it?" Luke said quietly.
"It’ll do," agreed Ten. "Why in God’s name did you let Carla come to the ranch this summer if you knew it was going to drive you crazy?"
"I…" Luke closed his eyes and shook his head. "It seemed like a good idea at the time. She didn’t have a summer job. The Rocking M didn’t have a cook. The men were going to rebel if they had to keep eating slop that hogs wouldn’t touch. Carla is a fine cook. Some of the best meals I ever had were ones she fixed for Cash and me over in the old house." Luke rubbed the back of his neck and grimaced. "Like I said. It seemed like a good idea at the time. Besides, I expected her to cry uncle by now."