"My father always speaks of the glass roofs of the king's palace as an extravagance," Archer said, "but I've spent enough time under roofs like yours to appreciate them."
Roen smiled into her soup. "Once about every three years, Nax did have a good idea." She changed the subject abruptly. "This visit will be a bit of a balancing act. Perhaps tomorrow we can sit down with my people to discuss the events on your lands. After the Third comes and goes, we'll have more time."
She was avoiding specific mention of the thing that was on all their minds. Archer spoke plainly. "Will the king or the prince be a danger to Fire?"
Roen didn't pretend not to understand. "I will speak to Nash and Brigan, and I'll introduce her to them myself."
Archer was not soothed. "Will they be a danger to her?"
Roen regarded him for a moment in silence, and then turned her eyes to Fire. Fire saw sympathy there, possibly even apology. "I know my sons," she said, "and I know Fire. Brigan will not like her, and Nash will like her overly. But neither of them will be too much for her to handle."
Archer caught his breath and clapped his fork onto the table. He sat back, his mouth tight. Fire knew that the presence of a lady queen was the only reason he wasn't saying what she could read in his eyes: she should not have come.
A small determination flamed inside her breast. She decided to adopt Roen's attitude.
Neither the king nor the commander would be too much for her.
Of course, circumstances don't always align themselves with human intention, and Roen could not be everywhere at once. Fire was crossing the main courtyard with Archer after dinner, on her way to the sleeping quarters, when it happened. In the same instant that she sensed minds approaching, the gates flew open. Two men on horses clattered inside, overwhelming the space with their noise and their presence, backlit by a bonfire blazing outside the gates. Archer and everyone else in the courtyard dropped to one knee, except for Fire, who stood paralysed, shocked. The man on the first horse looked like every painting she'd ever seen of King Nax, and the man on the second horse was her father.
Her mind was on fire. Cansrel. In the light of the flames his hair flashed silver and blue, his eyes blue and beautiful. She stared into those eyes and saw them staring back at her with hatred, anger, because it was Cansrel come back from death and there was no hiding herself from him.
"Kneel," Archer said beside her, but it was unnecessary, for she fell to both knees.
And then the gates swung shut. The white blaze of the bonfire receded, and all was yellow in the light of the courtyard torches. And still the man on the horse stared at her with hatred, but as the shadows settled it was no longer Cansrel's hatred. His hair was dark, his eyes were pale, and she saw that this was nothing but an ordinary man.
She was shaking, cold on the ground. And now of course she recognised his black mare, and his handsome brother, and his handsome brother's roan. Not Nax and Cansrel, but Nash and Brigan. They swung down from their saddles and stood arguing beside their horses. Shaking as she was, their words came to her slowly. Brigan said something about throwing someone to the raptors. Nash said that he was king, and it was his decision, and he wasn't throwing a woman who looked like that to any raptors.
Archer was crouched over Fire, repeating her name, his hand gripping her face. He said something firmly to the arguing brothers. He lifted Fire into his arms and carried her out of the courtyard.
This was something fire knew about herself: her mind made mistakes sometimes, but the real traitor was her body.
Archer lowered her onto her bed and sat beside her. He took her cold hands and rubbed them. Slowly, her shivering subsided.
She heard the echo of his voice in her mind. Gradually she pieced together the thing Archer had said to the king and the prince before picking her up and carrying her away: "If you're going to throw her to the raptors you'll have to throw me as well."
She caught his hands, and held them.
"What happened to you out there?" he asked quietly.
What had happened to her?
She looked into his eyes, which were taut with worry.
She would explain it to him, later. Right now she was stuck on something she wanted to express to him, something she wanted urgently from her living friend. She pulled on his hands.
Archer always caught on fast. He bent his face to hers and kissed her. When Fire reached to unfasten his shirt, he stopped her fingers. He told her to rest her arm, and let him do the work.
She surrendered to his generosity.
Afterwards they had a whispered conversation.
"When he came into the courtyard," she told him, lying on her side, facing him, "I thought he was my father come back to life."
Shock broke across his face, and then understanding. He brushed her hair with his fingers. "Oh, Fire. No wonder. But Nash is nothing like Cansrel."
"Not Nash. Brigan."
"Brigan even less."
"It was the light," she said. "And the hatred in his eyes."
He touched her face and her shoulder gently, careful always of her bandaged arm. He kissed her. "Cansrel is dead. He can't hurt you."
She choked on the words; she couldn't say them out loud. She said them into his mind. He was my own father.
His arm came around her and held her tight. She closed her eyes and buried her thoughts so that all there was was the smell and the touch of Archer against her face and her breasts, her stomach, her body. Archer pushed her memories away.
"Stay here with me," he said sometime later, still holding her, sleepily. "You're not safe on your own."
And how odd that his body could understand her so well; that his heart could understand her so well when it came to the truth about Cansrel, but still the simplest concepts never penetrated. There was nothing he could have said more guaranteed to make her leave.
To be fair, she probably would have gone anyway.
Out of love for her friend she waited until he was asleep.
She didn't want trouble; she only wanted the stars, to tire her so that later she could sleep without dreams. She knew she would have to find her way to an outer window to see them. She decided to try the stables, because she was unlikely to run into any kings or princes there at this time of night. And at least if she found no sky-facing windows there, she would be with Small.
She covered her hair before she left, and wore dark clothing. She passed guards and servants, and of course some of them stared, but as always in this holding, no one bothered her. Roen saw to it that the people under her roofs learned how to guard their minds as best they could. Roen knew the value of it.
The roofed passageway to the stables was empty, and smelled comfortably of clean hay and horses. The stables were dark, lit by a single lantern at the near end. They were asleep, the horses, most of them, including her Small. He stood as he dozed, plain and quiet, leaning sideways, like a building about to topple. It might have worried her, except that he often slept like that, leaning one way or the other.
There was a window to the sky at the far end of the building, but when she went to it, she saw no stars. A cloudy night. She turned back down the long row of horses and stopped again before Small, smiling at his sleeping posture.
She eased the door open and sidled her way into his stall. She would sit with him for a while as he slept, and hum herself to tiredness. Even Archer couldn't object. No one would find her; curled up as she was against Small's doorway, no one who came into the stables would even see her. And if Small awoke, it would not surprise him to find his lady crooning at his feet. Small was accustomed to her night-time behaviour.