"What's that?" Fire asked, bewildered.
"A letter from him," Archer practically yelled. "He was at the desk just before you woke, writing it. He told me if I didn't give it to you he'd break both my arms."
Tess appeared suddenly in the doorway and jabbed a finger at Archer. "Young man," she barked, "there's a child that lives in this house, and you've got no cause to yell the roof off." She turned and stomped away. Archer stared after her in amazement. Then he spun to the fireplace and leaned against the mantle, head in hands.
"Archer," Fire pleaded. "If you must do this, take as many soldiers as you can. Ask Brigan for a convoy."
He didn't answer. She wasn't even sure he'd heard. He turned to face her and said, "Goodbye, Fire." He stalked out of the room, abandoning her to her panic.
Her thoughts clamoured after him desperately. Archer! Keep a strong mind. Go safely.
I love you.
Brigan's letter was short.
Lady: I have a confession. I knew that you killed Cansrel. Lord Brocker told me the day I came to your house to escort you here. You must forgive him for betraying the confidence. He told me so that I might understand what you were, and treat you accordingly. In other words, he told me in order to protect you, from me. You asked me once why I trust you. This is not the entire reason, but it's a part. I believe you have shouldered a great deal of pain for the sake of other people. I believe you're as strong and as brave as anyone I've met or heard of. And wise and generous in the use of your power. I must ride suddenly to Fort Flood, but will return in time for the gala. I agree you must be involved in our plan – though Archer is wrong if he thinks it pleases me. My siblings will tell you our thoughts. My soldiers are waiting and this is hastily written, but meant sincerely. Yours,
Brigan.
P.S. Do not leave this house until Tess has told you the truth, and forgive me for keeping it from you. I made a promise to her, and have been chafing under it ever since.
Fire breathed shakily as she walked to the kitchen, where she sensed Tess to be. The old woman raised green eyes from the work of her hands.
"What does Prince Brigan mean," Fire said, frightened of the question, "when he says you must tell me the truth?"
Tess put down the dough she was kneading and wiped her palms on her apron. "What an upside-down day this is," she said. "I never saw this coming. And now that we're here, you're such a sight I'm intimidated." She shrugged, quite at a loss. "My daughter Jessa was your mother, child," she said. "I'm your grandmother. Would you care to stay for dinner?"
Chapter Twenty-Three
Fire glided through the following days in a state of wonderment. To learn that she had a grandmother was staggering enough. But to sense, from their first hesitant dinner together, that her grandmother was curious to know her, and open to her company? This was almost too much for one young human monster who'd experienced so little joy to bear.
She ate dinner every night in the kitchen of the green house with Tess and Hanna. Hanna's stream of chatter filled the spaces in the conversation between grandmother and granddaughter, and soothed, somehow, their awkwardness as they tried to find the way to relate to each other.
It helped that Tess was straightforward and honest, and that Fire could sense the sincerity of every mixed-up thing she said. "I'm mostly unflappable," Tess said over their first dinner of dumplings and raptor monster stew. "But you've flapped me, monster Lady. I told myself all these years you were Cansrel's daughter, and not truly Jessa's. A monster, not a girl, that we were better off without. I tried to tell Jessa, too, though she would never listen, and she was right. Plain as day I can see her in your face."
"Where?" Hanna demanded. "What parts of her face?"
"You have Jessa's forehead," Tess said, brandishing a spoon at Fire helplessly. "And the same expression in your eyes, and her lovely, warm skin. You take after her eye and hair colouring, though yours is a hundred times what hers was, of course. The young prince told me he trusted you," she finished weakly. "But I couldn't believe him. I thought he was ensnared. I thought you'd marry the king, or worse, him, and it would begin all over."
"It's all right," Fire said softly, immune to grudges, because she was newly fallen in love with having a grandmother.
She wished she could thank Brigan, but he was still away from court and unlikely to return before the gala. She wished more than anything that she could tell Archer. Whatever else he might feel, he would share her joy in this – he would laugh in astonishment at the news. But Archer was bumbling around somewhere west with the smallest of guards – according to Clara, he'd only taken four men – getting into who knew what kind of trouble. Fire determined to make a list of all the delights and the confusions of having a grandmother, to tell him when he returned.
She was not the only person worried about Archer. "It wasn't such a terrible thing, really, that he told your secret," Clara said – forgetting, Fire thought dryly, that at the time Clara had found it terrible enough to punch him. "We're all more content with you in the plan now we know. And we admire you for it. Truly, Lady, I wonder you never told us before."
Fire didn't respond to this, for she couldn't explain that the admiration was part of the reason she hadn't told. It was not rewarding to be the hero of other people's hatred for Cansrel. She had not killed him out of hatred.
"Archer's an ass, but still I hope he'll be careful," Clara finished, one hand resting absently on her belly while the other rifled through a pile of floor plans. "Does he know the terrain in the west? There are great crevices in the ground. Some of them open to caves, but some of them are bottomless. Trust him to fall into one." She stopped rifling for a moment, closed her eyes, and sighed. "I've decided to be grateful to him for supplying my child with a sibling. Gratitude takes less energy than anger."
When the truth had come out, Clara had indeed, accepted it with a generous equanimity. It had not been so easy for Mila, though she hadn't taken to anger either. In her chair now beside the door, more than anything, Mila looked dazed.
"Ah, well," Clara said, still sighing. "Have you memorised anything above level six? You're not afraid of heights, are you?"
"No more than the next person. Why?"
Clara pulled two enormous, curling pages from the pile of floor plans. "Here are the layouts for seven and eight. I'll have Welkley verify I've labelled the guest rooms correctly before you start learning all the names. We're trying to keep those floors empty for your use, but there are those who like the views."
Memorising the palace's floor plans was different for Fire from what it would be for other people, because Fire couldn't get herself to conceive of the palace as a map, flat on the page. The palace was a three-dimensional space that whirled out from her head, full of moving minds walking down corridors, passing laundry chutes and climbing stairways Fire couldn't sense but was expected to fill in now from her memory of a map on a page. It wasn't enough now for Fire to know, for example, that Welkley was on the eastern end of the palace's second level. Where was he, precisely? What room was he in, and how many doors and windows did it have? How close was it to the nearest servants' closet, or the nearest stairway? The minds that she sensed near Welkley – were they in the room with him, or were they in the hallway, or the next room over? If Fire needed to give Welkley mental directions to guide him to her own rooms this instant without anyone seeing him, could she do it? Could she keep eight levels, hundreds of hallways, thousands of rooms, doorways, windows, balconies, and her perception of a court-full of consciousnesses all in her mind at once?