When I started toward the bench, she said, “Oh, wait,” and then began shuffling through her papers. She smiled and said, “Read this one instead,” and extended a new pamphlet toward me. “It’s for teenagers.”
“Okay.” I sat down on the bench and read it in about five minutes.
It was sort of unbelievable.
Actually, it was a little insane—and should have been my cue to get the hell away from this dame.
The basic gist is that there are four teenagers in a convertible, out “cruising”—two guys, two girls. They go to the woods to “park,” which I gather basically means to drink beer, make out, and feel each other up. The protagonist of the pamphlet is the boy in the backseat, who is a “born-again Christian” and feeling a bit conflicted about the “sins” that are happening. In the little bubble over the kid’s head it said something like, “Cindy is so beautiful and I really want to go all the way with her, but I know Jesus would be disappointed in me. I already let him down by drinking beer.”[43]
At one point you get the protagonist’s view of the front seat—it’s one of those old-style front seats that’s like a bench with no space in between the driver and passenger, or no center console, which makes me think this is a very old tract—maybe from the 1950s. And we see the girl’s naked ankles sticking up in the air, which I guess means the couple in the front is having sex. Cindy, the girl in the backseat, says to the protagonist, “You know you wanna. Let’s have some fun. Didn’t your mother ever tell you to try new things?”
The next frame shows protagonist Johnny chugging a beer.
And then we see them driving home and the driver’s eyes are slits, which I assume means he is drunk.
We get a close-up of Johnny’s face next, and the bubble over his head reads, “I let you down, Jesus. Sex. Booze. I’m so so sorry. Can you ever forgive me?”
You won’t believe this but the next frame shows the car crashing into a tree, and then we see Johnny’s ghost floating up to heaven, which is when I figured out that he was dead. I was sort of happy that the other three teenagers lived at least, but I couldn’t figure out the point of the story.
The pamphlet shows a sober Johnny in heaven speaking with Jesus, who has a typical Jesus beard and white robe and halo, but Jesus kind of looks like a professional baseball player to me and I’m not sure why. He has that baseball-player look with shaggy hair and a beard, but he’s clean-cut at the same time. Not like a hillbilly or anything. Do you know what I mean?
“I’m so sorry I let you down, Jesus,” Johnny says.
“You asked forgiveness and I have forgiven you because you are a Christian,” Jesus said, which I thought was pretty nice.
“Thank you for sparing the lives of my friends,” Johnny says.
Jesus gets this really sad look on his face, which lets you know that the friends didn’t live, and I almost stopped reading right there, because I was pretty sure I knew what sort of bullshit was coming. “Why didn’t you tell your friends about me before they died?” Jesus says. “You had so many opportunities.”
“My friends died?” Johnny says with this horrible look on his face.
The next frame shows the three other teenagers screaming and holding their faces as a sea of flames burns and engulfs them.
“They could be here in heaven right now with you, Johnny, but you didn’t tell them about me,” Jesus says.
Johnny puts his head in his hands and weeps.
Then there are numbers you can call and websites too, all of which will help you give your life to Jesus.
Jesus Christ! I thought.
It was a wild story, and I was mostly confused, so I walked over to Lauren and said, “I’m not sure I get it.”
This awful, anxious look bloomed on her face and she said, “You don’t want to go to hell, do you?”
I was going to say I don’t believe in hell, but I was determined to kiss Lauren Bogie-style, so I didn’t want to say anything that would end the conversation. I had seen enough Bogie films to know that you have to ride out the insanity when it comes to beautiful women, and even with all the crazy talk, Lauren seemed to get more and more attractive every time I looked at her. Also, this was the longest conversation I’d had with a girl my age, so I didn’t want to blow it.
I asked, “Why didn’t Johnny go to hell if he had sex and drank, just like the others?”
“He asked Jesus into his heart.”
“What do you mean?”
“No matter what you’ve done, if you ask Jesus into your heart, you get to go to heaven. The blood of Jesus Christ washes our hearts clean as snow.”
“So you just have to say magic words?”
“What?”
“If you say, ‘Jesus come into my heart,’ you are covered? You get to go to heaven then. That’s it?”
“You have to mean it.”
“How can you tell if you mean it?”
“You know in your heart, and God knows. What’s in your heart?” Lauren pointed at my chest.
“I don’t know,” I said, because my heart was full of desire. I wanted to kiss Lauren like the girl kissed Johnny in the car. I wanted to “park” with Lauren in the worst way. That’s what my heart was telling me.
“Do you want to come to my church this Sunday?” Lauren asked.
“Will you be there?”
“Of course! My father’s the pastor. You can sit with me in my family’s pew, right up front!”
I didn’t want to go to any church, but I knew going would help my cause, so I said, “Okay, then.”
That Sunday I went to Lauren’s church, which I had walked by a million times without even giving it—or what it stood for—a thought. It was a medieval-looking stone building with an impressive steeple, a classic bell tower, circular stained-glass windows, red cushions on wooden pews, and all the rest.[44]
The men inside were wearing suits and I had come in jeans and a sweater, which made me feel self-conscious, but no one said anything to me about it, which I thought was civilized of the churchgoers.
I found Lauren sitting in the front row with her mother, who was also a head-turner, like Lauren, which gave me high hopes for the day.[45]
They looked more like sisters than mother and daughter, and I wondered if believing in Jesus kept you younger-looking. But then I thought, if that were really true, Linda would be the biggest Jesus freak going, because she’d drown a baby in a bathtub if it would make her look ten years younger.
The best part about the church were the huge organ pipes at the back, up in the balcony, which were so loud you could almost see the air buzzing when the organist played. It made me feel like I had traveled back in time, that organ music, although I’m not really sure why.
Just to make things more interesting, I pretended that I was an anthropologist from the future sent back to observe what religious life was like in the past.
There were announcements about various church goings-on—like Bible study groups meeting at this or that time, and church dinners, and which people needed help, and who was in the hospital—which was nice, because it really made you feel like everyone took care of each other here, like they all were part of a gigantic family.
I could really see the appeal, for sure.
Next, everyone sang a few hymns—which was also kind of nice, because where else will you experience a few hundred people singing together?—and then Lauren’s father gave a talk about humility and humbling ourselves so that we might be able to best serve God, which I didn’t really understand.
43
The scenario is complete bullshit, because the girl he’s “parking” with keeps feeling his inner thigh, and he keeps pushing her hand away. No way a teenage boy pushes some girl’s hand away from his crotch when he thinks she’s attractive. Also, everyone knows Jesus drank wine with his buddies, so why would he be disappointed in a beer drinker?
44
If you can believe it, this was the first time I had ever been to a church service other than funerals.