God. She was forty. Alexei looked so young. Just a kid. What was she doing?
“Age is number, nothing more.” His growl was low and suspicious.
“Oh. I disagree. Please tell me.”
“I am almost twenty-nine.” His mouth twisted as though he knew he was saying something that would upset her.
She tried to push away from him. “Seriously? Alexei, let me go. I’m too old for you.”
“No. If I let go, you run and not come back to me. I wait too long. And I’ve done things that age me. Holly, this is a number. It means nothing.”
“No, it’s almost a teenager.” Twelve years. She was twelve years older than he was. She was older than Caleb, too. Oh, what was she thinking?
“You will calm down, or I will to spank ass.” Alexei’s face went hard, the charming man fleeing in an instant, and in his place was a predator.
Yeah, that got her juices flowing, too. Wow. When had she gotten to be such a freak?
She stiffened in his arms. “You let me go this instant.”
His hand came up, snaking into her hair. “You think you can dismiss me like small child. I am not child, and I know what I want. I will walk away if you can tell me you do not want me. I will not walk away because you think people will laugh at you. Do you know the things I have done? If you want reason to not give me chance, then tell me I am too dirty, too bad. Tell me my soul is too filthy for you, and I don’t deserve you. You tell me these things, and I will let go. Not that I am too young. I haven’t been young in years.”
She stilled in his arms, his words penetrating her embarrassment. He’d been through so much. He’d lost his brother and then his revenge because he’d made the choice to save lives rather than take them. He was good. She brought her hands up to frame his face. “Everyone deserves a second chance.”
His eyes pinned her. “Then give me one.”
He would want more one day. He would need someone younger, someone his own age. It would break her heart. “I don’t think this is a good idea. Alexei, have you thought about the fact that you might want a family someday?”
“I want you now.”
And she wanted him, but there were so many barricades in the way. There was their age difference and her son. God, what would her son think? And Caleb. Why couldn’t she get Caleb out of her head?
And why did she have to think about tomorrow? Why couldn’t she have a fling? Why did everything have to be forever? Her marriage hadn’t been forever after all. Maybe it was time to have a wild fling.
“Give me chance, Holly. Let me woo you. Go on date with me. Let me prove this can work.”
He was so earnest, so sweet, she couldn’t walk away. And she wanted to know what it felt like to wrap herself around him, to know he was surrounding her. “I want you, Alexei.”
His smile threatened to light up the night.
“But we have to talk about that spanking thing, Alexei,” she said as primly as she could. She wasn’t going to try that. No. Maybe just a little.
His smile turned distinctly wolfish. The hand in her hair tightened, lighting up her nerves. “I think you like idea. And I very good with spanking. You will like what I do. But for now, I think gentleness is required.”
He pulled her close again, not attempting to hide his arousal. He rubbed against her as his tongue surged into her mouth. This time was different. He’d claimed he was going for gentleness, but she could feel his will. He was very gently dominating her, and she loved it. She softened against him, wrapping her arms around his neck. She was on the very tiptoes of her cream-colored heels.
And then she was fully in his arms. He lifted her off the ground, his easy strength taking her breath away. He lifted her up, her shoes falling off, but it didn’t matter. All that mattered was his mouth on hers. The silky slide of his tongue caressing hers made her womb flutter. She was softening, getting wet and ready for him.
The hard wood of the picnic table was suddenly at her back. She cursed the tight fit of her dress. Hadn’t Brooke Harper ever heard of bridesmaids getting lucky at weddings? The slim pencil skirt made it very difficult to get her legs open, and suddenly spreading her legs seemed like a really, really good idea. Alexei loomed over her, staring down. She could feel the approval rolling off him in waves. It was a balm to her ego. Maybe she wasn’t so old if she could put that look on a man’s face.
“No one will mind if we are necking?” He smiled as though he didn’t really care if she said no.
“Sweetie, no one says necking anymore. We’re going to have to get you up on the lingo. We’re making out.”
His body came down on top of hers, crushing her against the top of the table. She was caught between a rock and a really big hard place. Yep. She wished she could spread those legs wide.
“I like this making the out with you.”
She didn’t have time to correct him. His mouth came down again, this time against her neck. He pressed kisses along her neck line, all the while murmuring in Russian. She let her hands drift to his hair. It was just slightly long, curling at the ends. It was silky to the touch.
She gasped as his hand caressed her thigh, pulling at the silk of her skirt. And his lips were getting dangerously close to the bodice of her dress. Her nipples strained against her bra. Her heart raced. She wanted his mouth everywhere.
The sound of footsteps brought her out of her haze.
“Alexei,” she said, pushing at him. “Someone’s coming.”
Even here in Bliss, a little discretion was called for. And Nate Wright was known to ticket people for public sex. He was always looking to upgrade the appliances in the sheriff’s department break room. Alexei’s head came up, his eyes a bit glazed.
“Don’t let me interrupt you,” a familiar voice said.
Holly closed her eyes in horror. Caleb. Of all the people to find her in flagrante almostus, it just had to be Caleb.
Alexei smiled as if he was happy to see the man. “Hello, Caleb.”
With easy grace, he lifted himself off her and held out a hand. She was wobbly on her feet as they touched the grass.
“Do you even have a condom?” Caleb asked, a harsh rasp to his voice.
“Caleb!” Holly felt her cheeks flare with embarrassment. She suddenly felt like a teenager caught with her boyfriend.
Alexei simply laughed. “I shall have to be buying the condoms.”
Caleb’s face was drawn in rough lines, his eyes narrowing close together. “And you should have a blood test. You shouldn’t start having sex without making sure you’re clean. Be in my office tomorrow at nine. I’ll make sure you’re safe.”
“Caleb,” she started, but Alexei held out a hand.
“It’s all right,” Alexei said, his voice a well of patience. “He’s only looking out for you.”
Caleb’s arms folded over his chest. Somewhere along the way, he’d chucked both his tie and his suit coat. She preferred him this way. He’d looked stiff in the suit. His natural, lean grace was on display now. And his temper. “Someone has to. Someone has to make sure jerks don’t take advantage of her.”
“He wasn’t trying to take advantage of me, Caleb,” Holly explained. Though she didn’t want to, she continued. She had been the one to push the situation. She didn’t want Caleb to be mad at Alexei. “He wanted to be a gentleman. I asked him to kiss me.”