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played for the Van Damme teams, meeting new people. Men too. Never

anything serious. She told Prosper about one or two, dismissive, not

letting out of her locked heart the details he’d have liked to know.

“Oh well,” she’d say. “The trouble with that one was, the beginning

of the end came before the beginning.”

Prosper lifted his legs with one arm and swung them out of the bed to

put his feet on the floor, and sat up. “I know what you mean,” he said.

“Yes. ‘Love grows old, and love grows cold, and fades away like

morning dew.’ Like the song says.”

“Yeah. That’s sort of been my experience,” Prosper said.

“Oh?” Vi smiled, taking notice, her eyes soft for once, and she

spread out in the bed as though the coarse sheets were silk and she

liked the touch of them. “You got a lot of experience?”

“Some,” he said.

“Going way back?”

She was amused, apparently thought his claim was sort of funny,

extravagant or unbelievable, though he was trying to speak modestly.

“Pretty far,” he said.

“Really.” She rolled over and propped her broad cleft chin in a

hand. “You’re not that old.”

Prosper shrugged one shoulder.

“I wouldn’t have thought,” she said. “I mean, no offense, but it

wouldn’t seem you’d get around a lot. See and be seen. You know.

Some things you might not get around to doing.”

“Well not so many.”

“Uh-huh.”

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There were, actually, plenty of things Prosper hadn’t ever done, and

some that he hadn’t done in years. He’d never gone to the public library

in the city where he’d grown up, never managed the long flight of stairs

up to the far-off double doors of the local one, or the even longer flight

(why “flight,” Prosper’d often wondered) to the even farther-off doors

of the central one downtown. Before his operation he’d gone on city

buses and on streetcars, when he could scoot up the stairs like a

monkey—everybody compared him to a monkey, his sloping back like

a knuckle walker’s and his long arms and big hands reaching for hand-

holds; something narrow about his pelvis too like the narrow nates of

a chimp. But by the time he reached what neither he nor anyone around

him then knew to call puberty (those gloomy films that Vi had seen in

high school—the ones shown in two versions, male and female—

weren’t shown to the special classes, as though there were no need for

Prosper and the others to have the information) he could no longer

mount the steps of a streetcar, couldn’t bend his knees when locomot-

ing, only when seated, with the locks on his braces slipped. That was

after his operation. He’d been to the movies, before that operation;

after it, getting to the pictures from his house had been the hard part,

and before his uncles Mert and Fred had taken him in hand and begun

squiring him around in the auto he’d missed a lot of good pictures.

Yes, lots of things undone, but lots of things done too, and many

(he might say “many,” though without any basis for comparison as

Pancho would put it) were of the kind Vi doubted.

“So tell me,” Vi said, still amused, seeming ready to hear something

funny, funny because it wouldn’t be what he claimed it was. She’d

know the difference. “Your turn.”

“Tell you what? You know my story.”

“These experiences, Prosper,” she said, “is what I mean.”

“You want to hear?”

“I do. It’s your turn. You tell me, and I’ll just listen.”

“Okay.”

“Don’t leave things out.”

“Okay.”

She lifted a forefinger gently to his lips, but as though to open them

rather than seal them. “Tell me,” she said.

PART TWO

1

Like the disabled and transected body of the Pax B-30 that once

lay in the long grass of the field over Hubbard Road from the

Ponca City Airport, the orthopedic hospital where Prosper Olan-

der spent two childhood years was still around long years after he

left it. It was one of those great brown-brick institutions that were built

to mark a city like Prosper’s as forward-looking, scientific, up-to-date.

Two others weren’t far away: the reform school, and the state school for

mental defectives. They had opened one after the other, starting with

the state school twenty years before Prosper was born, public ceremo-

nies and speeches from grandstands fronted with bunting, the buildings

in brown photographs looking raw and alone on their wide plots of

treeless land. They’re all gone now: the state school abandoned and der-

elict, the reform school torn down for an office building, Prosper’s hos-

pital subsumed into a medical center and unrecognizable. But such

places remained, though having changed their meaning: from works of

benevolence they became dark holes in our child society, places to which

the failed and the unlucky were remanded. You too if you put a foot

wrong. You’re gonna end up in reform school. They remain in our

dreams.

Prosper was nine years old before the curvature of his spine became

something out of the ordinary and started gaining him nicknames, and

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looks, pitying or repelled or amused. The few doctors his mother took

him to (for diphtheria, when he nearly died; for tonsilitis, his tonsils

snipped with a miniature garotte; for a broken thumb) all told her that

he’d grow out of it, most kids did. He didn’t. In the fourth grade he was

sent to a special class for the first time, as much for dreamy inattention

and a kind of cheerful solipsism as for his back and his pigeon-toed

knee-rubbing walk; he’d go in and out of special classes like a relapsing

criminal as he went from school to school, when he was allowed into

school at all. His teacher that year, Mrs. Vinograd, took an interest in

him; she had ideas on posture that she thought he illustrated.

“Prosper, come here and stand before the class. Take your shirt off,

please, dear. Yes. Now stand in profile, so the class can see clearly.”

Cold pointer drawn down his naked back. “You see how Prosper’s

spine differs from the normal spine. Here it curves in where ours are

straight. This pushes the abdomen forward and causes the chest to

recede.” Taps of the pointer, front and back. Prosper loved and feared

Mrs. Vinograd, her long torso arising high and straight from her solid

hips like a hero’s statue from its pedestal, her eyes large, darkest brown

and all-seeing; and he didn’t know whether to exaggerate for her the

sticking out of his tummy, to illustrate her remarks, or to straighten

up, as she otherwise wanted him to do. “Doctors call it the Kit Bag

Stoop. As though Prosper were carrying a kit bag, that pulls his

shoulders back and down. And what is the cause of this deformity,

whose real name is lordosis?” They all knew, all called out. “Yes,

that’s right, boys and girls, the cause is Poor Posture. Prosper you may

dress again, and take your seat. Ah, ah, ah! Posteriors against our seat

backs, dears, chin high, head straight above our shoulders!” There

were those who laughed when Mrs. Vinograd said “posterior,” but she

would take notice of that, and no one wanted to follow Prosper and be

ordered to exhibit other forms of Poor Posture, the Obesity Stoop, the